I am truly pathetic. I am also a whiney sissy boy.

[DareDemon]

Yeah, so my first day as a dishwasher a local restaurant was one week ago. I worked for 6 hours that night. It's my first "real" job, besides being a paperboy in 6th grade. However, there are some problems.

1. I have OCD, and I am germaphobic.
2. I was the only dishwasher.
3. Opening night was flipping ginormous.

I made it through that horrible night. Barely. It was my first night, so I wasn't sure what to do, I didn't know anyone, I was by myself, and I had a whooooole lotta work to do. But I made it. I came out hating the job already, but I lived.

The next morning, I came in expecting the same thing. I knew it'd be horrible, I almost wanted to quit right then. But I didn't, and it turns out the day is a whooole lot easier than the nights. Makes sense, cause most adults were at work. I was so happy that I actually would get a few minutes every once in a while to not do anything that I smiled. When I got off of work, I was happy the rest of the day because it was so much easier.

Cut to today. I hadn't worked since then til today cause it's only open three days a week. I was promised that someone would help me. They didn't come, cause another branch of the restaurant was too busy somewhere else. Once again, the place is flooded, and I'm the only dishwasher. So I wash the dishes. I get way too many dishes than I can handle. I keep going, from 5-9:30. Non-stop working, trying to keep up, cause everyone's running out of a certain kind of dish or utensil. Then I feel my stomach heave, and I go to the bathroom to throw up. Twice.

I come back to my dishwashing area, where no one is. I realize how much I truly hate this job and how I'd rather die. I actually start crying a little. Then I go back to the bathroom and throw up again. Then, once again, I go back to the place and I start washing the dishes. Some more. By this time the place was empty (thank God), but this is where the hardest dishes come in, cause you gotta wash all the different containers and stuff they used to make the food in, then put it all away, etc. This stuff is the most crusted, so it's hard to get off. The washing machine doesn't really get anything off, it just sanitizes.

So, I walk out into the main area to get more stuff to wash, tripping a little due to depression of the hellish place and tiredness (which I had been doing for a while), when one of my co-workers walks up and yells "HEY, HOW YA HOLDING UP BROTHER?!?" or something like that. He's a cool guy, they're all nice, but I wasn't up for saying hey or anything back. I said "I just threw up three times."

The rest of my workers (No customers, I wouldn't have said that if costumers were in the place) gasp and are all like "OMG WAT HAPPN3D?!?" and the guy said he'd clean up the rest of the dishes for me, and to go home. When we got away from everyone else, he asked me if I was sick, and I just told him I had OCD. I couldn't really say much cause my voice was all choked up and I didn't want to be a baby right there. So then I walk out, they tell me to be careful driving home and that they'll sign me out for me (I had forgotten due to all that was happening). When I got home, my parents asked me what was wrong, and I said something along the lines of "I hate that place", still in a choked voice. They tried talking to me, but I couldn't talk. I told them later. I wasn't being the typical jerky teenager, they knew something was wrong and that I really couldn't talk. So I took a shower and all that, but when I got out they were in bed.

I can't eat, just like the first day (btw, on the first day, after about 5 hours, I COULD eat...I just threw it up immediately after swallowing my whole bowl of soup). I also can't sleep, just like the first day. I am actually traumatized.



I know what I said probably doesn't make much sense. I probably sound like the biggest wimp ever. But I guess we all have our weaknesses, mine is having OCD and being a clean freak (in a manner of speaking, my room is dirty, but that's not the same as washing Italian sauces off the plate, getting soaked in that water while trying to clean said sauces off said plate, etc.)

I think on Sunday I'm gonna give my two weeks and try looking for a job that doesn't involve food. Sure can't wait to go to work tomorrow night.

Make fun of me, comfort me, share your own stories. I needed to say this.

[Drakon]

Damn, that sucks, man. Here's a hint, though. Your first is never gonna be absolutely awesome. I'd recommend retail of some sort, providing you can deal with people, especially stupid ones.

[Calvin]

Most OCD people I know enjoy cleaning. Other than that, yeah, work sucks. You should probably give suicide a try. At least slice your wrists up a little and get some bleeding done.

[tzarinna]

Oh love I can't read all of that,but I'm sorry
Are you taking meds to help with the OCD

[Master Chief]

Wait. Wait. Hold the f**k on.

...

You vomited and didn't brush your teeth?

Three times?

[Calvin]

Originally Posted by Master Chief

Wait. Wait. Hold the f**k on.

...

You vomited and didn't brush your teeth?

Three times?

Busted! Doesn't sound like a real case of OCD to me.

[thaispdergrl]

dishwashing probably isn't the best job for you then. find another?

[DareDemon]

Originally Posted by Drakon

Damn, that sucks, man. Here's a hint, though. Your first is never gonna be absolutely awesome. I'd recommend retail of some sort, providing you can deal with people, especially stupid ones.

Oh, I could deal with them. I think they'd be a blessing. Only problem is, I applied everywhere for a year before finally getting this job. So yeah, guess I'll have to keep searching.

Originally Posted by Calvin

Most OCD people I know enjoy cleaning. Other than that, yeah, work sucks. You should probably give suicide a try. At least slice your wrists up a little and get some bleeding done.

Yeah, but do they like cleaning other people's dishes? I don't mind my own stuff. But I'm not emo enough for suicide

Originally Posted by tzarinna

Oh love I can't read all of that,but I'm sorry
Are you taking meds to help with the OCD

Nope, no meds. My former shrink said that my OCD wasn't bad enough for that I think. It was a while ago. My main problem is washing my hands, germs, blah blah blah.

[DareDemon]

Oh guys, I did brush my teeth once I got home. I just forgot to add that part. I didn't brush my teeth at the restaurant cause....my toothbrush wasn't there....

[Socrates]

At least you're aware of how pathetic you are.

[Superman4ever]

LMAO...the title, the whole OCD, the crying bit -- It's too much...

*right-click and save post*

[Calvin]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

Yeah, but do they like cleaning other people's dishes? I don't mind my own stuff. But I'm not emo enough for suicide

The ones I know do, they often offer to clean my place. I never accept because frankly, my place is a nightmare. I don't like cleaning, so I just let it go for months at a time, and then have to deal with cleaning things that have become pretty close to sentient. A mushroom actually grew in my shower once.

You definitely sound emo enough for it, you just have to try at it, don't give up so easily. Wrist cutting sounds too painful? Try getting in the bathtub with a small plugged-in appliance. Or, for the all-time easiest one, take a ton of downers. Try washing them down with your favorite drink to make it a special occasion. We believe in you, you can do it.

[Master Chief]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

Oh guys, I did brush my teeth once I got home. I just forgot to add that part. I didn't brush my teeth at the restaurant cause....my toothbrush wasn't there....

I don't have OCD but I'd have at least been like, "K, those dishes, they can sit in the sink or dish washer holder thing bus boys use 'til I get back from the convenience store with a bottle of listerine." And don't you wear gloves to do the dishes anyway?

Those bright yellow cool feeling ones?

'Cause I like those gloves.

[Calvin]

Originally Posted by Master Chief

I don't have OCD but I'd have at least been like, "K, those dishes, they can sit in the sink or dish washer holder thing bus boys use 'til I get back from the convenience store with a bottle of listerine." And don't you wear gloves to do the dishes anyway?

Those bright yellow cool feeling ones?

'Cause I like those gloves.

Mine are green, so they're pretty much a hundred times awesomer than yours.

[DareDemon]

Originally Posted by Superman4ever

LMAO...the title, the whole OCD, the crying bit -- It's too much...

*right-click and save post*

I had a feeling I'd regret making this.

Originally Posted by Calvin

The ones I know do, they often offer to clean my place. I never accept because frankly, my place is a nightmare. I don't like cleaning, so I just let it go for months at a time, and then have to deal with cleaning things that have become pretty close to sentient. A mushroom actually grew in my shower once.

You definitely sound emo enough for it, you just have to try at it, don't give up so easily. Wrist cutting sounds too painful? Try getting in the bathtub with a small plugged-in appliance. Or, for the all-time easiest one, take a ton of downers. Try washing them down with your favorite drink to make it a special occasion. We believe in you, you can do it.

Weird. But you can have many different symptoms and still have OCD...do different rituals. But as for the whole suicide thing, naw, it's not that I'm afraid of cutting myself, I have a high pain tolerance, it's just that I'm anti-suicide.

[Master Chief]

Originally Posted by Calvin

Mine are green, so they're pretty much a hundred times awesomer than yours.

If they're hardcore bright, like super lime or something. Then yeah. Bright green for the win.

Yellow is no longer in the limelight. No pun intended if there's one in there.

[Calvin]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

Weird. But you can have many different symptoms and still have OCD...do different rituals. But as for the whole suicide thing, naw, it's not that I'm afraid of cutting myself, I have a high pain tolerance, it's just that I'm anti-suicide.

I realize how much I truly hate this job and how I'd rather die. I actually start crying a little.

I think you're lying to yourself. You could at least use a cry for help. Just slice open one wrist while sitting in the tub.

Originally Posted by Master Chief

If they're hardcore bright, like super lime or something. Then yeah. Bright green for the win.

Yellow is no longer in the limelight. No pun intended if there's one in there.

They're lime enough to make a blind man see.

[Dew k. Mosi]

must be nice to have the freedom to quit a job because it's icky and hard. I've done medical trials for money, I've worked graveyard shift at the porn store, I've cleaned the bathrooms at Disneyland. Wait until you are the one who has to take care of the bills, and rent and food and mommy and daddy aren't taking care of you anymore. You'll find yourself growing a LOT more capable of dealing with a bit of dirty water.

[DareDemon]

Originally Posted by Master Chief

I don't have OCD but I'd have at least been like, "K, those dishes, they can sit in the sink or dish washer holder thing bus boys use 'til I get back from the convenience store with a bottle of listerine." And don't you wear gloves to do the dishes anyway?

Those bright yellow cool feeling ones?

'Cause I like those gloves.

All three times of vomiting and leaving all happened within...I'd say 5 minutes. I washed my mouth out with water for a while, I knew I was about to go home anyway. I was actually planning on telling them about it as soon as I washed one last rack. I guess I didn't specify.

And nope, no gloves. They wouldn't help much anyway, your whole body gets wet from the sprayers and mist and crap. Plus, I'd have to reach into sinks and stuff and then the inside of my gloves would get wet and then they're stay wet. So gloves would actually be more inconveinient.

[Calvin]

I feel bad for whoever had to clean up the puke-stained toilet. You bastard.

[Master Chief]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

All three times of vomiting and leaving all happened within...I'd say 5 minutes. I washed my mouth out with water for a while, I knew I was about to go home anyway. I was actually planning on telling them about it as soon as I washed one last rack. I guess I didn't specify.

And nope, no gloves. They wouldn't help much anyway, your whole body gets wet from the sprayers and mist and crap. Plus, I'd have to reach into sinks and stuff and then the inside of my gloves would get wet and then they're stay wet. So gloves would actually be more inconveinient.

The gloves I'm thinking about though are about elbow length. But sprayers and mist? Bare hands? Times seem to have changed.

I thought it was just one big sink and you scrub.

Huh. Funny.

Maybe too many people cut their fingers on knives that lay beneath the soapy water.

[DareDemon]

Originally Posted by Calvin

I think you're lying to yourself. You could at least use a cry for help. Just slice open one wrist while sitting in the tub.
I feel bad for whoever had to clean up the puke-stained toilet. You bastard

Wanting to die and commiting suicide are different. This is my cry for help. And I cleaned it.

Originally Posted by Dew

must be nice to have the freedom to quit a job because it's icky and hard. I've done medical trials for money, I've worked graveyard shift at the porn store, I've cleaned the bathrooms at Disneyland. Wait until you are the one who has to take care of the bills, and rent and food and mommy and daddy aren't taking care of you anymore. You'll find yourself growing a LOT more capable of dealing with a bit of dirty water.

I wanna be a spoiled brat forever

Originally Posted by Master Chief

The gloves I'm thinking about though are about elbow length. But sprayers and mist? Bare hands? Times seem to have changed.

I thought it was just one big sink and you scrub.

Huh. Funny.

Maybe too many people cut their fingers on knives that lay beneath the soapy water.

There is 3 big sinks, but there is also sprayers, and a big washer, and those make some mist.

[Calvin]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

and those make some mist.

Oh dear GOD, how did you survive?

[DareDemon]

The mist is the easy part, it's just that if I was wearing gloves, the condensation would get inside and then the inside of the gloves would be wet, etc.

[Master Chief]

Originally Posted by DareDemon

Wanting to die and commiting suicide are different. This is my cry for help. And I cleaned it.



I wanna be a spoiled brat forever



There is 3 big sinks, but there is also sprayers, and a big washer, and those make some mist.

There is only one solution.

Are you ready?

Yes?

K. Here it is. The solution.



If you scrolled down and saw the picture in my post before reading the text, you are going to be killed by pigeons.