Kevin
Doug not so Funny
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...Have you ever known someone, that you really cared about, but had a falling out with them? At some point after the falling out, you felt you were wrong, but by the time you had to nerve to do something about it, if you even got the nerve in the first place, it was too late?
I think about it everyday, how could I not? It was Two years ago, February 16th, that my mother passed away. I loved her with all my heart, she was truly my best friend when my other friends were to "busy" to deal with me. I've only told two people this, Jorge and Manny (Best friends/The two people I more or less could trust me life with) because I couldn't at the time, still can't tell me own family...
Before february 11th I think it was, before my mom passed away, I noticed something was different about her when I went to see her. Probably a month before she passed way I had gotten the internet. In her words, when my father came home... In her words she said... "So that's why he hasn't come to see me." The fact that my mother thought that the internet was more important to me than her still hurts. I just couldn't handle hospitals. In 1999 my father had a stroke and I didn't go see him because I couldn't see something like that, him hooked up to machines and what not. When I think of hospitals, I think of death, that's why I couldn't go see her at first. When my father told me what see said, I made regular visits to see her.
So getting back to the point of this story, before she passed away, I went to see her. She was different (when my aunt went to see her after I had, my mother didn't know who she was and thought that my aunt's daughter was my aunt) Anyway, She kept on mumbling about something, some program for a computer, and she wouldn't stop. I tried to get her to, but she kept going... so I yelled at her and told her if she didn't stop I would go home. What the hell is wrong with me that I would do something like that? Of course I stayed and before I left I said "I love you, ma." Many years ago, I told my mother that I would tell her I love her everyday "Because you never know when something could happen to you or any one of us."
Now back to the point of thread thread, the day I yelled at her was the last time I saw her awake. Februry 11th she had a seizure. (I, like an ass, was on the internet again and my uncle had to come to my home to tell my father and I what happened. I toned down my time on the net, but just not enough.) february 16th my Aunt called becuase my mother had another seizure... There's more, but I can't go on.
I regret everyday what I did the last time I saw my mother awake, Even coming to the point of not being sure that she knew whether I loved her. (even more I regret that I didn't show how much I cared for her by wasting my time) That woman did everything she could for her family, and it all caught up with her the end. I miss her, I still dream about her like nothing ever happened. I want to tell her I'm sorry but know that can never happen.
My story is done, but I wanna know if anyone ever missed or had the chance to make amends before that last note happened.
(It doesn't have to be about death, it could be about a best friend moving and you having a fight with them before and never talked to them again. Doesn't matter. Sad thing, One of my best friends died, and I didn't know until months later.)
...Have you ever known someone, that you really cared about, but had a falling out with them? At some point after the falling out, you felt you were wrong, but by the time you had to nerve to do something about it, if you even got the nerve in the first place, it was too late?
I think about it everyday, how could I not? It was Two years ago, February 16th, that my mother passed away. I loved her with all my heart, she was truly my best friend when my other friends were to "busy" to deal with me. I've only told two people this, Jorge and Manny (Best friends/The two people I more or less could trust me life with) because I couldn't at the time, still can't tell me own family...
Before february 11th I think it was, before my mom passed away, I noticed something was different about her when I went to see her. Probably a month before she passed way I had gotten the internet. In her words, when my father came home... In her words she said... "So that's why he hasn't come to see me." The fact that my mother thought that the internet was more important to me than her still hurts. I just couldn't handle hospitals. In 1999 my father had a stroke and I didn't go see him because I couldn't see something like that, him hooked up to machines and what not. When I think of hospitals, I think of death, that's why I couldn't go see her at first. When my father told me what see said, I made regular visits to see her.
So getting back to the point of this story, before she passed away, I went to see her. She was different (when my aunt went to see her after I had, my mother didn't know who she was and thought that my aunt's daughter was my aunt) Anyway, She kept on mumbling about something, some program for a computer, and she wouldn't stop. I tried to get her to, but she kept going... so I yelled at her and told her if she didn't stop I would go home. What the hell is wrong with me that I would do something like that? Of course I stayed and before I left I said "I love you, ma." Many years ago, I told my mother that I would tell her I love her everyday "Because you never know when something could happen to you or any one of us."
Now back to the point of thread thread, the day I yelled at her was the last time I saw her awake. Februry 11th she had a seizure. (I, like an ass, was on the internet again and my uncle had to come to my home to tell my father and I what happened. I toned down my time on the net, but just not enough.) february 16th my Aunt called becuase my mother had another seizure... There's more, but I can't go on.
I regret everyday what I did the last time I saw my mother awake, Even coming to the point of not being sure that she knew whether I loved her. (even more I regret that I didn't show how much I cared for her by wasting my time) That woman did everything she could for her family, and it all caught up with her the end. I miss her, I still dream about her like nothing ever happened. I want to tell her I'm sorry but know that can never happen.
My story is done, but I wanna know if anyone ever missed or had the chance to make amends before that last note happened.
(It doesn't have to be about death, it could be about a best friend moving and you having a fight with them before and never talked to them again. Doesn't matter. Sad thing, One of my best friends died, and I didn't know until months later.)
I want to cry . . . but it could just be cuz it's been a long day . . .
