Okay, I finally have a serious confession.
I confess that I really want to lose control. I want to lose myself in something. All the time, even in my most indisposed moments, I feel like I have some control. In the acting classes I had to take for my film major requirement I had problems letting go of myself and becoming the other person. I want to know what it is like to lose it and let go of myself.
Dance.
Put on some kick ass records and dance your ass off to them. Find some records that really get to you on a primal level, let the music flood into your system, because it will automatically if you love the record, and just cut loose physically without thinking about it.
You like the Stones right? So, you have no excuse in not knowing some kick arse records that can do that to you.
Do it in the house when no-one is around if you want, but you really gotta cut completely loose 100%, don't feel like you are doing something stupid, because you're not, it doesn't matter if you dance like Elaine from Seinfeld, haha, as long as you are enjoying yourself, doesn't matter how haphazard your moves are, if you let yourself get into the groove you'll just automatically pull some moves, doesn't even matter if they are good ones, no one is watching right? Hell, it doesn't even matter if they are not good moves, unless you are in public and want to impress girls that is, haha. So, get some practice in for that.
Then, next time you are at a club, take it to the dance floor, the ultimate test, just freak out, le freak, ches chic, haha.
If you can dance your ass off, completely losing concious control, *and* can incorporate your imagination to pull off some good movies at the same time, y'know, not being *too* concious about it, then you will have it made, girls love that, they just want to see someone having a good time who is not uptight about how they present themselves to the world.
I have had girls come up to me in clubs totally beaming with appreciation after I have totally let loose with crazy ass dance moves, I mean, really losing control of my concious self to a record I love.
So, y'know, it is officially recoginsed as a good thing, haha, it is very psychologically healthy, that's why you desire to lose control in this way, if your concious self keeps you in check all the time, all the bs of society and social norms will keep your true self trapped, which is very bad for creativity.
Unfortunately, there are a lot of people who are just too scared of what other people think of them, so they miss out on all of that liberation.
There is a reason that shamen and tribes keep that sh** up, that it's a regular practice, because of course we all have to keep control of ourselves in order to live together, but we must also at appropriate times completely cut loose of our concious selves in order to get in touch with our true nature.
It reminds me of an old Charles Bukowski line:
"Some people never go crazy...what truly horrible lifes they must lead."
What he means is exactly this, some people are just too scared to show their true selves, to be themselves.
Try it today, dance in the kitchen to the radio or something, fug it, who cares, no excuse, get it going, do it now, hurry up, the choice is yours, don't be late haha.
or you could get into cage fighting, a much more 'manly' pursuit, haha.
edit: and don't be coming back here talking about it first, do it, there is no excuse for not doing it.
