Agreed, I am so very happy that the only attempts you had were both failing ones. Because if not, you would not have ever come across this place, and shared your warmth, love, and personality with all of us.
Life is NEVER perfect- noone can ever be completely satisfied with how it's going, and at times- it can seem like the pain is never ending. But suicide, to me, is always the easiest way out...It takes way more guts to stick it out and live, to grow, to evolve and move past our problems. I respect you for tackling that challenge, Mary.
I could never imagine taking my own life, or the reprecussions it would have on those around me. Life is meant to be LIVED. Lived to the fullest.