I've had a few banging buddies before... In fact i'd say the majority of my sex life has been with friends.
I'm gonna give the context. Bit personal, but I've always been the open book type.
Didn't have sex till I was 19. Said no to plenty of people, got very close with a guy who I was totally smitten with - but I wanted it to be in a relationship, and I wanted to be in love.
Finally fell in love, and after a 2 year dance of on off relationsip while trying to do long distance (I went to uni), we slept together. Totally sober, planned and I was incredibly happy about it.
It turned out that a week before that, he'd slept with one of my friends. My male friend.
The next few months of my life really screwed me up. Because he made no moves to do it again. I think we did it 4 times in the whole relationship, but it was the most boring sex of my life. I wasn't allowed to stay over, but male friends were. He was constantly unavailable.
And then people started to tell me. Little bits at first, and then full on outright 'he's gay'.
I guess I was too afraid for it to be true, so I kept pretending it wasn't. And he kept denying it.
I properly found out the truth when my friend who he'd slept with finally came forward in a drunken bout of guilt.
After that, I had a lot of anger towards him. But I became a bit of a flirt.
That lead me to my first bang buddy, a guy 11 years older than me, ex heroin addict and flirty pretty boy. Sounds bad I know. But I swear, it was one of the best relationships of my life.
At first we were just good company. I'd stay at his most nights, we'd just watch tv and laugh and talk and fall asleep. No funny business.
And then it just sort of happened. And kept happening. And it was great because I had no expectations of him, I had no dreams of our future, no intention whatsoever of being with him. And he actually made me feel sexy again - something I'd completely lost after my first relationship became sexless. It ended pretty naturally, and we are still friends today.
I've never been one for one night stands with strangers. Had a few, but they make me feel icky.
I've had a few bang buddies since (an old flame, a guy I was living with and 2 others), but I'm 24 now and I've not had a boyfriend since.
I just never wanna feel as pathetic as I did back then. And the only way I can do that is to never fall in love again unless the person really earns it.
Unfortunately, I haven't met anyone who makes me wanna give up my independance. And maybe I never will.
Personally I'm fine with that. I don't believe that I need another person to make my life complete or meaningful.
Finding true love would be nice. But so would finding a big wad of cash on the floor. Neither are destined to happen. It'll be all about luck, timing etc if it happens. There is no point scouring the streets looking for it or constantly putting myself in places were money is likely to be.
But that doesn't mean you can't have fun in the meantime