echostation
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and I feel crushed, like absolutely completely crushed, i've never felt like this before and I have no idea of how to face my 'rents on this.
I've experienced failure before but nothing like this... i just crashed to the ground and couldn't move for hours, i still don't know what to do and while i feel like absolute abominable ****, my bigger thing is how the hell am i gonna face my folks and tell them I've failed them... I can't exactly talk about what this is exactly but does it matter? not really, just something so importantly critical that I have no clue what to do now.
My folks have been through hell and back and then some more, they've had to deal with so much and so much of that has had to do with external forces... now to tell them that I've failed them this time... one of their own, I just can't imagine what the look will be on their faces... the hurt, **** i'm in tears writing this now and I NEVER cry (you can call bull**** on that all you want but i'm dead serious, ever...).. i know they'll be there to support but i just know exactly what's going on in their heads..
How do you folks manage to deal with something like this, like something so colossally paramount that needed to be done but couldn't and you might not get another chance... I'm really at a loss for words right now...
I've experienced failure before but nothing like this... i just crashed to the ground and couldn't move for hours, i still don't know what to do and while i feel like absolute abominable ****, my bigger thing is how the hell am i gonna face my folks and tell them I've failed them... I can't exactly talk about what this is exactly but does it matter? not really, just something so importantly critical that I have no clue what to do now.
My folks have been through hell and back and then some more, they've had to deal with so much and so much of that has had to do with external forces... now to tell them that I've failed them this time... one of their own, I just can't imagine what the look will be on their faces... the hurt, **** i'm in tears writing this now and I NEVER cry (you can call bull**** on that all you want but i'm dead serious, ever...).. i know they'll be there to support but i just know exactly what's going on in their heads..
How do you folks manage to deal with something like this, like something so colossally paramount that needed to be done but couldn't and you might not get another chance... I'm really at a loss for words right now...