XtremelyBaneful
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tl;dr at the bottom
I came to SHH! back in 2012 because I was really obsessed with DKR prior to its release, and there weren't enough people in my day to day circle to discuss it as much as I wanted. So I joined SHH! I'm also currently a member of AHH!, Section80, Kanzennshuu, and neoGAF. But I'm most active here.
However, I myself can get carried away sometimes. There are times when I post here, either making my own statement or responding to someone else, and I vehemently wait for responses. Like, I won't want to do anything else until I get a response so that I can respond back again. It's gotten really out of hand for me because I've spent a lot of time, time I could've been using much more valuably.
I don't want to say I've been wasting my time though. Because the thing is, with these message boards and the people you talk to, you may not know them, but you grow to feel like you start to get to know them on some level. That feeling began climbing with me over the summer, because that's when I've become more active than ever before on SHH!
Now without giving away my whole life's story to you, I will say this much: I do have some psychological issues. So when I run into a problem with someone, I take it seriously. And several times, I've had problems here, and it really bothers me when I'm off. Like, I think about them a lot. For instance, I once had a thread deleted because people inside were going too off the rails, and that pissed me off. Why? Because there was a ton of GOOD discussion going on in the thread, and a lot of it was completely erased because of the goons who were going off at each other. I understand a lock, but a deletion was unfair.
And of course, no one is making me come back here, no one is making me post, but I enjoy it. I enjoy the discussions, I enjoy seeing that the threads I made get 5+ pages becoming great contributions to the board, and I enjoy making a (good) name for myself among the community. However when I have a quarrel with someone, I wish instead of continuing the insinuation, that things would just cool off and the animosity be gone. It does affect my life considerable since I put a lot of time in the forums. Not too mention, some of the forums I've been on can be sooo harsh, and damaging. But the people there don't care because they're on their elitism high horse. I don't agree with the ignore option. To me that's just limiting the full experience by shutting people out. I'd rather people don't behave in a manner in which they should be ignored.
EDIT: One last thing I want to mention is that I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses. I do believe that I've contributed a lot to these forums, in news form, particularly in the video games forums. I will admit when I am wrong about certain things, but I feel like people mostly always notice my flaws and see right through the good, and that's really unfortunate to have things be that way.
In short,
1. When I'm on a posting spree, it's hard for me to not be on anymore and get SHH! off my mind. And that is a personal problem of mine since there are very important things I need to do with the time I have.
2. Posting for a good while will start to make you recognize usernames and the people in general, the running gags that go on in certain places, and it becomes a part of you.
3. I know because there have been several posters here I've come across who have been supportive. Although we may not know each other, we still do to a certain degree which also means to a certain degree we care about each other. And to be clear, with this entire thread, I'm not looking for pity or sympathy, but I just want to be understood.
3. Because I am extremely sensitive and emotional for a guy, having problems with others even on the internet severely hampers my experience here. And I don't want that to be an issue because I like being here a lot.
4. I'll admit several times when I am wrong or being irrational, but when I try to reach out to someone and make amends, very often I'll see that, most of the time, they just see that only they are right no matter what.
I came to SHH! back in 2012 because I was really obsessed with DKR prior to its release, and there weren't enough people in my day to day circle to discuss it as much as I wanted. So I joined SHH! I'm also currently a member of AHH!, Section80, Kanzennshuu, and neoGAF. But I'm most active here.
However, I myself can get carried away sometimes. There are times when I post here, either making my own statement or responding to someone else, and I vehemently wait for responses. Like, I won't want to do anything else until I get a response so that I can respond back again. It's gotten really out of hand for me because I've spent a lot of time, time I could've been using much more valuably.
I don't want to say I've been wasting my time though. Because the thing is, with these message boards and the people you talk to, you may not know them, but you grow to feel like you start to get to know them on some level. That feeling began climbing with me over the summer, because that's when I've become more active than ever before on SHH!
Now without giving away my whole life's story to you, I will say this much: I do have some psychological issues. So when I run into a problem with someone, I take it seriously. And several times, I've had problems here, and it really bothers me when I'm off. Like, I think about them a lot. For instance, I once had a thread deleted because people inside were going too off the rails, and that pissed me off. Why? Because there was a ton of GOOD discussion going on in the thread, and a lot of it was completely erased because of the goons who were going off at each other. I understand a lock, but a deletion was unfair.
And of course, no one is making me come back here, no one is making me post, but I enjoy it. I enjoy the discussions, I enjoy seeing that the threads I made get 5+ pages becoming great contributions to the board, and I enjoy making a (good) name for myself among the community. However when I have a quarrel with someone, I wish instead of continuing the insinuation, that things would just cool off and the animosity be gone. It does affect my life considerable since I put a lot of time in the forums. Not too mention, some of the forums I've been on can be sooo harsh, and damaging. But the people there don't care because they're on their elitism high horse. I don't agree with the ignore option. To me that's just limiting the full experience by shutting people out. I'd rather people don't behave in a manner in which they should be ignored.
EDIT: One last thing I want to mention is that I know my strengths and I know my weaknesses. I do believe that I've contributed a lot to these forums, in news form, particularly in the video games forums. I will admit when I am wrong about certain things, but I feel like people mostly always notice my flaws and see right through the good, and that's really unfortunate to have things be that way.
In short,
1. When I'm on a posting spree, it's hard for me to not be on anymore and get SHH! off my mind. And that is a personal problem of mine since there are very important things I need to do with the time I have.
2. Posting for a good while will start to make you recognize usernames and the people in general, the running gags that go on in certain places, and it becomes a part of you.
3. I know because there have been several posters here I've come across who have been supportive. Although we may not know each other, we still do to a certain degree which also means to a certain degree we care about each other. And to be clear, with this entire thread, I'm not looking for pity or sympathy, but I just want to be understood.
3. Because I am extremely sensitive and emotional for a guy, having problems with others even on the internet severely hampers my experience here. And I don't want that to be an issue because I like being here a lot.
4. I'll admit several times when I am wrong or being irrational, but when I try to reach out to someone and make amends, very often I'll see that, most of the time, they just see that only they are right no matter what.
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