WARNING: The end of my post becomes a little PG-13... I know a lot of kids are on this website. I'm 24 yrs old... nothing I write is THAT bad...
I have a good story to tell...so get ready for a long one! ENJOY!!!!!
I started to "like like" girls (aka, puberty began hardcore) for me in the 7th grade. At the end of the 8th grade, I met a girl (let's just call her "hottie") in my journalism class where we made the yearbook. She was my first real, full-fledge, totally obsessed "crush", the kind that makes you DEADLY EXCITED to go to school just so you can get a chance to be anywhere near her. School sucks. She made it AWESOME! Any ways, I went on a field trip (to Disney's Epcot, in FL) and she happened to get assigned the seat next to me on the bus...so we talked with her and my/her friends for 2 1/2 hours up and back (I live in South FL).... and we hung out at Epcot the whole day. So needless to say, we were friends since then....
She was the first girl for me to win her number and called on the phone and she called me, and so my parents were like "aaaaawww how cuuute! I have a little girlfriend....awwwwww!!!" So I was like 13-14 yrs old then.
"Hottie" and I remained friends, like best guy and best girl friend throughout the summer of 8th grade (middle school), throughout 9th grade too... we went to the same high school, so that was a plus.
Well, I ALWAYS wanted to be MORE than friends with her, but I kind-of had "Dawson's Creek" syndrome at the time (ironically, that show was super popular when I was in high school).... so I was like Dawson, too timid to ask out "the girl next door" aka Katie Holmes.....and "hottie" reminded me of Katie Holmes too. She was a skinny, petite, and pale brunette with an adorable face. She rocked my socks off. Oh did she!
Any ways, I hung out with her one night in my neighborhood. I had BIG PLANS in the back of my mind to take her somewhere private (I live near a large park and there's dark spots all around the baseball field and soccer field, etc.). I had big plans to "put the moves on her" (remember, I was hitting puberty hardcore then)... well, I ended up getting too nervous, so we jsut hung out, then said goodbye, and that ended that....
So, knowing I was too chicken to do it myself, instead I had my older sister call her up on the phone (my sister pretended she was doing it privately, without my knowledge)... and she told "hottie" all about how I truly felt about her.... but "hottie" wanted to "just be friends".
So, near the end of 9th grade, "hottie" and I pretty much abruptly stopped hanging out. I was totally heartbroken that she didn't want to date me. She really didn't and I just couldn't stand hanging out with her any more knowing that the girl of my dreams would never kiss me or touch me and I would never touch her intimately. I got pissy with her. I was young and dumb and basically told her it was over. So that ended that.
"Hottie" turned into a punk-rock kid later in high school, she dyed her hair all weird colors, and started to dress grungey and punk-rock....
I moved on and crushed like a thousand other girls.
I moved to Orlando and went to University of Central FL for 4 years. She stayed in South Florida and went to FAU... so...
I always kept her in my thoughts, but I never saw her again...
until...
FAST FORWARD TO PRESENT TIME: Guess what? "Hottie" can easily be found on MySpace. And guess what? BOY, HAS SHE GROWN UP!!!!
"Hottie" used to be a skinny, pale, petite brunette....
Now she looks like the type of girl who belongs at a sleezy nightclub dancing on the bar table while serving endless alcohol....
Golden, fake tan. She's "faked baked", like with very bronze skin
HUGE D CUP BREASTS (she was like a small B cup in high school, obviously she had major breast enhancement....wow, they are REALLY BIG.)
SHE WORKS OUT A LOT... which is awesome. She's totally riped. Has a six-pack. She has a ton of "sexy" photos of herself on her MySpace.
I'm not a fan of fake breasts (and honestly hers look as big as bowling balls and I don't particularly like them at all), but she does look pretty SUUUUUPER HOT now. She basically went from being the "girl next door" with the face of an angel to the "pornstar" with the face of an angel.
For a while on MySpace, she was listed as "single". She still lives in my area of Fort Lauderdale, so of course, I tried hitting on her....
Yes, this is the curse, an obsession. Yes, I would TOTALLY love to (you know what, use your imagination) with this girl. It would be like the acheivement of a lifetime... a life long goal fulfilled. Better than graduating college!!! haha! But she only messaged me a few times to update me on her life, she never reciprocated with any of my flirtations, and now she's no longer single. She's dating some beefy, jock-looking meat head and she has pictures of him and her on her MySpace (she's naked and he's standing behind her holding her breasts and bottom so she's not exposed).
So there ya have it. "Hottie" was my first crush, my first obsession, and she's an obsession I have revisted just this past year. Until I get married or get into a serious relationship (I am currently 24 yrs old and single), I will probably keep an eye out to see when this girl becomes single again.
*drool* I want her *drool* sooooo bad....
How's that for a response to "Unforgettable Crush"?
Greg
