What's my major malfunction?

[Bubonic]

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[AndThePickles]

Sounds like like in some form, you have a major social skills problem...in your case, sounds like it occurs after the initial connection with people. Have you considered getting some therapy?

 

[Bubonic]

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[Alpha and Omega]

Asking yourself about a problem, whether perceived or real, can be more damaging than you might realize. Instead of making the assumption that you are specifically to blame, observe your environment, schedule, and any tendencies or patterns that might cause you to react in a negative way. Once you've isolated those, try not to blame anyone, including yourself. That will not help. Think of ways you can alleviate, if not eliminate the feeling you have.

Is the feeling a temporary one or a permanent one? If you feel like you need professional aid, don't hesitate to consult a physician. Find one that you're comfortable with. Talk therapy is a powerful way to release inner anxiety or tension that's building up. If you do not feel comfortable speaking about it with a complete stranger, talk to your father about it, if you're okay with that.

Anyone else like this, is the solution attainable or do I have to go on some spirit journey in order to unleash myself upon the world

Ha, you do have a flair for the dramatics. The solution is definitely possible. It may not seem like it at the moment, but with the right assistance, you'll obtain it.

 

[The Guard]

Bubonic, how old are you?

 

[knowsbleed]

I don't understand why I have such a hard time maintaining relationships of any kind.

I can't remain connected to people, have no real idea on how to manage friendships... I can't even really involve myself in an internet community such as this.

I'm so very distant from everyone except myself, and the worst part is that I realize it... And people often reach out to me, I'm surprisingly good in social situations when I'm comfortable with the people concerned... And they react very well to me.

I'm even distant to my own father, basically my only living relative.

Anyone else like this, is the solution attainable or do I have to go on some spirit journey in order to unleash myself upon the world... Or...

Sounds like you are easily emotionally detached from people. I'm the same way to an extent... I am a very "out of sight out of mind" person. I don't know if that's the same way you feel but it does bother me. I often ask myself why I don't care about my friends and family more than I do... but then I get bored thinking of that and focus my attention elsewhere. Like you, I'm surprisingly good at social situations as well. I have no problem socializing and talking to people. Never had a problem picking up women. Never had a problem making friends... but keeping them has always been a problem.

Let's form a club. It would be traumatizingly awesome.

 

[Ghostvirus]

Wow, & here I just got done watching a few episodes of Dexter....

I feel you. I have trouble comforting people, because of all the crap that I have been through. I don't feel tragedy the way most do. So I have trouble empathizing.

 

[Iceman]

Having scanned your summary I'm guessing bowel.

 

[Bubonic]

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[Ghostvirus]

Not sure you mention this because you think I'm some sort of serial killer, because in some ways I fit the frame of what some diagnose as psychopaths/sociopaths, or because your self-perception due to your interest in that kind of show which contributes to you being like what I described.

I mentioned it because the Main character on the show has trouble connecting with people. But yes I also relate to that character as well.

The hardest thing is to start letting people in again after you realise what is happening. It can be quite tireing emotionally.