I know its nothing original in the slightest, but Ive resolved to stand up and become the person I see in my head and hear people say I am. In other words, I want to finally believe what people tell me, and by doing that, I need to resolve the short comings that blind me from the good qualities.
Ive got several issues to address:
Smoking. This was more of a Christmas gift to myself, but as of December 15, Ive only had TWO cigarettes. I normally smoke a pack a day. And the two that Ive had since I quit were at parties I attended (drinking makes the desire to smoke even worse). Ive been to the bar and other parties since then and have been able to keep myself from bumming a cig. Im noticing how bad smokers smell, and that realization both embarrasses me, and helps motivate me to not be stinky by smoking. Im even starting to forget to take my Nicorete lozenge, so I think that shows Im doing well.
Health. I havent been the healthiest person the past few years. After my engagement ended a few weeks before the wedding, depression and the subsequent medication made me balloon. I went from being pretty fit 145lbs (Im 56) to 210lbs. What makes it so bad emotionally for me is that Im actually a pretty attractive guy but with the extra weight, that person is lost. I need to uncover that guy again. Over the past year, Im down and hovering between 185-190lbs, but my goal for this year is to hit 160. Eating healthier and exercising more. It takes me 2.5 hours to get home from work, so by the time Im home, Im exhausted and just want to relax, so instead of sitting on the couch, I immediately change out of my work clothes and hop on the treadmill. Ill be starting P90X up again soon, too.
Music. My band has been writing our first record for almost two years. Were nearly done, but I want to be able to focus on it and get it over with Ive been dragging my feet too long.
Housing. After the wedding debacle, I had to move back into my folks house. Being a 25 year old living at home is a little embarrassing, especially when I make more than any two of my friends combined, and yet theyre the ones with apartments and houses. Lowering my student loan payments and finally paying off the expenses for the wedding that never happened this year will allow me to get my own place.
I dont think that Ive ever made new years resolutions, and I tend to roll my eyes when I hear people say this is going to be a good year
I can feel it. While I wont say that exactly, I will say that Im determined to make this a year that I can look back on and say I did everything I could to make it worthwhile, which is something I havent been able to say the past few years.
