I don't know what to do. Need some advice.

[Marvolo]

Hey, this is really lame, and I feel lame for doing it. No one probably cares. However, I don't know what to do, and just want to talk about the state of my life and get some perspective. K, long story short I had a close friend one day I said I wanted more she didn't, our friendship hit some rough waters, and we graduated on kinda bad terms. K, down the road and we've only talked a few times. Well, she asks me if I want to hang out tonight with some of the other kids from my class. I graduated with 6 other kids, and we had all been in class together for over 6 years. I went to a small private school.

Anyways, I said sure why not. I hoped I could get back on better terms with her, and possibly get another chance to move beyond just a friendship. You know sorta show her that I'm a different person. Well, we all meet up tonight. She dumped her last boyfriend a while ago. The people I went out with where 3 people and we were all close. Well, I've kind of been out of the loop for the past 6 months and tonight I pretty much discovered they've all been hanging out and gotten close. Now she is doing little things she used to do with me with this guy I graduated with. This is when it hit me that I am now sorta a tag along. That was kind of a hard hit to the balls. Then a brother of another girl who was with us says to me "dude I didn't wanna say anything but when u showed up I was like what is he doing here (that he being me)" so then I start thinking I'm there out of sympathy. That I got invited as a courtesy trip. That hurt alot cause me and the girl who invited me used to be really close, and now we are nothing.

Well, we eat and while we are eating she proceeds to do the little things she used to do with me to this other guy. Then one of her friends turns to me randomly and asks a personal and embarrassing question and I kind of blew it off but then my once good friend realizes that this was awkward for me and tries to explain how her friend fdound out bout this personal issue and says something even more embarrassing basicly making me look like a side show freak. I was pissed off, but just stayed calm as I could. Then we start talking about our jobs. I Have a IQ that ranks me as genius. Everyone always thought I would go do something big and be the first out of all of us to do something exoctic. However, I'm working two jobs both of which are fast food. The guy who was with us is making twice as much as me and he has a physically demanding job. He starts talmking about hwo he goes to different states and the cold conditions he works in and the I can't even compete with that. This guy also has a self-pitying sense of humor that my friend eats up, and I hate this type of humor cause all it is is him wanting everyone to feel sorry for him.

Anyways, I just set there and begged for the moment when someone finallyt would say 'let's go'. Finally the time came to leave, and we headed back to one of my firends houses, and everyone was laughing and the topics didn't really change so even at the house I felt like a child compared to everyone else. Then there was an awkward moment where I had to tell this one close friend why I couldn't go to college for a good while cause lack of money, and my financial crises. Her desire to pretend to be concerned wasn't too good and I could see right threw it. Once again, the self-pitying guy started doing his thing and my once close friend began fawning over him. Then he has to go and suddenly my once close friend has to be home by midnight. Well, I wanted to get outa there so I left too. I told the girl who's house I was at bye and she didn't say a thing and right as i am walking out the door she turns real fast and says oh yeah thanks for coming, but in that attempted sincere way that just comes across as an after thought and fake way.

Well, me and that suppossed friend live really close so I was in front of her on my way home. Well, I was going the speed limit and I noticed she was slowing way down, and she would slow down even more so I figured something was up, and then she turns off on a road that doesn't go anywhere near her house. The time is 15 til midnight so I know she didn't have a curfew. She was just wanting to go cause the guy she was fawning over was gone and she wanted to get outa there. And apparently, she had told her mom and dad she was staying the night at the friends house and was gonna do something else that night. This wouldn't be so bad if she didn't fuss at me for doing stuff like this. K, I was like whatever, but I started thinking. I haven't achieved anything since I graduated. I've not met anyone's expectations least of all my own. I am stuck in 2 dead end jobs, and haven't had any luck finding a better one. I dont make enough money to pay what I owe and get myself out of here. I can't get out of here til I have enough money. To my suppossed friends I'm a side show freak who is pityed. I'm stuck on a loop. I am now depressed, and don't know what to do. I feel like I need to something rash, but I am afraid its gonna be something I can't come back from. Since all this happed tonigth I'm confused, and feel like a failure. I just want to talk.

 

[Eggyman]

08:05 on a Monday morning and there isn't a chance in hell I'm reading th^t. Make some paragraphs out of it, please.

 

[black_dust]

Hey, this is really lame, and I feel lame for doing it. No one probably cares. However, I don't know what to do, and just want to talk about the state of my life and get some perspective. K, long story short I had a close friend one day I said I wanted more she didn't, our friendship hit some rough waters, and we graduated on kinda bad terms. K, down the road and we've only talked a few times. Well, she asks me if I want to hang out tonight with some of the other kids from my class. I graduated with 6 other kids, and we had all been in class together for over 6 years. I went to a small private school. Anyways, I said sure why not. I hoped I could get back on better terms with her, and possibly get anotehr chance to move beyond just a friendship. You know sorta show her that I'm a different person. Well, we all meet up tonight. She dumped her last boyfriend a while ago. The people I went out with where 3 people and we were all close. Well, I've kind of been out of the loop for the past 6 months and tonight I pretty much discovered they've all been hanging out and gotten close. Now she is doing little things she used to do with me with this guy I graduated with. This is when it hit me that I am now sorta a tag along. That was kind of a hard hit to the balls. Then a brother of another girl who was with us says to me "dude I didn't wanna say anything but when u showed up I was like what is he doing here (that he being me)" so then I start thinking I'm there out of sympathy. That I got invited as a courtesy trip. That hurt alot cause me and the girl who invited me used to be really close, and now we are nothing. Well, we eat and while we are eating she proceeds to do the little things she used to do with me to this otehr guy. Then one of her friends turns to me randomly and asks a personal and embarrassing question and I kind of blew it off but then my once good friend realizes that this was awkward for me and trys to explain how her friend fdound out bout this personal issue and says something even more embarrassing basicly making me look like a side show freak. I was pissed off, but just stayed calm as I could. Then we start talking about our jobs. I Have a IQ that ranks me as genius. Everyone always thought I would go do something big and be the first out of all of us to do something exoctic. However, I'm working two jobs both of which are fast food. The guy who was with us is making twice as much as me and he has a physically demanding job. He starts talmking about hwo he goes to different states and the cold conditions he works in and the I can't even compete with that. This guy also has a self-pitying sense of humor that my friend eats up, and I hate this type of humor cause all it is is him wanting everyone to feel sorry for him. Anyways, I just set there and begged for the moment when someone finallyt would say 'let's go'. Finally the time came to leave, and we headed back to one of my firends houses, and everyone was laughing and the topics didn't really change so even at the house I felt like a child compared to everyone else. Then there was an awkward moment where I had to tell this one close friend why I couldn't go to college for a good while cause lack of money, and my financial crises. Her desire to pretend to be concerned wasn't too good and I could see right threw it. Once again, the self-pitying guy started doing his thing and my once close friend began fawning over him. Then he has to go and suddenly my once close frined has to be home by midnight. Well, I wanted to get outa there so I left too. I told the girl who's house I was at bye and she didn't say a thing and right as i am walking out the door she turns real fast and says oh yeah thanks for coming, but in that attempted sincere way that just comes across as an after thought and fake way. Well, me and that suppossed friend live really close so I was in front of her on my way home. Well, I was going the speed limit and I noticed she was slowing way down, and wshe would slow down even more so I figured something was up, and then she turns off on a road that doesn't go anywhere near her house. The time is 15 til midnight so I know she didn't have a curfew. She was just wanting to go cause the guy she was fawning over was gone and she wanted to get outa there. And apparently, she had told her mom and dad she was staying the night at the friends house and was gonna do something else that night. This wouldn't be so bad if she didn't fuss at me for doing stuff like this. K, I was like whatever, but I started thinking. I haven't achieved anything since I graduated. I've not met anyone's expectations least of all my own. I am stuck in 2 dead end jobs, and haven't had any luck finding a better one. I dont make enough money to pay what I owe and get myself out of here. I can't get out of here til I have enough money. To my suppossed friends I'm a side show freak who is pityed. I'm stuck on a loop. I am now depressed, and don't know what to do. I feel like I need to something rash, but I am afraid its gonna be something I can't come back from. Since all this happed tonigth I'm confused, and feel like a failure. I just want to talk.

Yet you dont know what a paragraph looks like.... WALL OF TEXT!!!

Get some new friends go out and party your socks off.

 

[Marvolo]

Sorry about the lack of paragraphs. I just started spilling my emotions, and didn't really write in a paragraph form, but I broke it up somewhat.

 

[JLBats]

I read your whole post.
All I can do is assure you (and if you really are entering a depression it will sound insane, not very comforting, and almost unbelievable) but I can assure you that things will get better, and that you should not do anything rash.
Please.

Last year, I went through an extended period of depression, in which I could not relate to friends or family or even really my own body physically anymore. Somehow, I survived. Somehow, I woke up one morning and it was gone. I'm still here. I thank God I am still here no matter how many times I start to feel it creeping back.

Your situation is ****.
Simply ****.

You have surrounded yourself with people who obviously do not relate to you or feel much empathy.

**** them. They're not your friends.
They are not your friends.

What drives me in that sort of situation, as ****ed up as this sounds, is need for revenge.

And here, dude, is the best revenge possible:
Find new friends. Stop talking to her. Change stuff in your life however minor. I grew a thick shaggy beard and something about it, something about just changing my appearance even in such a stupid way, seemed freeing and powerful and wonderful to me.

*shrug*

Don't do anything rash.
Don't hurt yourself.
You have a bright future beyond two ****** jobs and a bunch of *******s who have crushed your spirit and filled your life with dread.

 

[Marvolo]

Yet you dont know what a paragraph looks like.... WALL OF TEXT!!!

Get some new friends go out and party your socks off.

I know I just started typing. Sorry about that. I have friends that I party with weekly. I'm sick of it. Coming back to reality hurts more and more every time.

 

[The Battousai]

It's healthy to get it out like this

My suggestion is to distance yourself from these people ('cause they seem like a waste of time, to be honest). Try to meet new people - move away from that previous life. In all honesty, the only way you're going to get out of this place you're in right now is to find REAL friends.

In regards to your financial/job situation, it's hard to say - there's only so much you can do given the current economic situation (if you're in the US, anyway). All I can say is, "Keep looking." When it comes to employment, you can only go up from where you are now, and if you consistently try to find something better, chances are you will at one point or another.

I know it's tough - the hardest part is to keep yourself going when things are getting you down. However, it's the thing you need to do to get past this.

Good luck - hope I helped at least a little <'D

 

[Marvolo]

I read your whole post.
All I can do is assure you (and if you really are entering a depression it will sound insane, not very comforting, and almost unbelievable) but I can assure you that things will get better, and that you should not do anything rash.
Please.

Last year, I went through an extended period of depression, in which I could not relate to friends or family or even really my own body physically anymore. Somehow, I survived. Somehow, I woke up one morning and it was gone. I'm still here. I thank God I am still here no matter how many times I start to feel it creeping back.

Your situation is ****.
Simply ****.

You have surrounded yourself with people who obviously do not relate to you or feel much empathy.

**** them. They're not your friends.
They are not your friends.

What drives me in that sort of situation, as ****ed up as this sounds, is need for revenge.

And here, dude, is the best revenge possible:
Find new friends. Stop talking to her. Change stuff in your life however minor. I grew a thick shaggy beard and something about it, something about just changing my appearance even in such a stupid way, seemed freeing and powerful and wonderful to me.

*shrug*

Don't do anything rash.
Don't hurt yourself.
You have a bright future beyond two ****** jobs and a bunch of *******s who have crushed your spirit and filled your life with dread.

I would love to find new friends, but lately every time things go good with someone new I meet especially if its a girl, reality comes crashing back when I find out what I thought wasn't the case and these people are being fake with me. I'm a really nice guy, I'm respectful, but somehow I get thrown under a bus or some lie gets around or I screw up somehow no matter how small and then **** gets bad.

I know some would say well maybe your just too nice and no one takes you serious, and that could be the case, but it's not that. I have always been more marriage material than the kind of guy you have a fling with. At my age its hard to find a girl that wants more than just a fling. Then you throw in the fact I have always been slender, and not muscular and well its hard to compete with some of the macho tough guys out there.

 

[Heretic]

Come on Eggyman, the guy has a genius level IQ...he doesnt need paragraphs.


Seriously though dude, I doubt they brought you along to be a sideshow freak. More than likely she invited you out...maybe out of nostalgia...but not any intentionally hurtful reason. However, your obvious insecurities about yourself probably showed through, which weirds people out. This isnt meant to put you down, but one problem when people who are in your position have is not being able to hide their misery,which either freaks people out or makes them not want to be around you. Im guessing that this is what happened. You probably just came off as very insecure and so people didnt want to talk to you. I mean...seriously...who cares if the girl didnt go home? The fact that you do probably revealed itself early in the night and ruined your chance for fun.

(break for a paragraph)

As far as changing your lot in life. Get a different job. You dont have to be a brain surgeon, but its hard to be cool when talking about how your coworker forgot to drop the fries again. There are some cheap ways (or small lies) to make your life seem interesting. You can write in your free time and legitimately call yourself a writer (dont mention that it doesnt pay).

 

[Joker]

Man, you and your life both suck. You should just kill yourself. Like, seriously. I mean really, how can you live with yourself knowing you've drifted away from people you were friends with in high school? That's like, crushing man, and totally not something that happens to EVERY SINGLE PERSON ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH. Stop your whining, you bloody baby.

 

[black_dust]

I know I just started typing. Sorry about that. I have friends that I party with weekly. I'm sick of it. Coming back to reality hurts more and more every time.

If you are unhappy in your work, just leave and do something you enjoy. Think about what your interests are and peruse them!

 

[JLBats]

I would love to find new friends, but lately every time things go good with someone new I meet especially if its a girl, reality comes crashing back when I find out what I thought wasn't the case and these people are being fake with me. I'm a really nice guy, I'm respectful, but somehow I get thrown under a bus or some lie gets around or I screw up somehow no matter how small and then **** gets bad.

I know some would say well maybe your just too nice and no one takes you serious, and that could be the case, but it's not that. I have always been more marriage material than the kind of guy you have a fling with. At my age its hard to find a girl that wants more than just a fling. Then you throw in the fact I have always been slender, and not muscular and well its hard to compete with some of the macho tough guys out there.

I would say that you need to find a way to justify your own existence without considering yourself in terms of a relationship. Relationships will come a lot easier when you do, as well.

Right now, I think you place so much emphasis on getting a girlfriend that you are judging your self-worth and level of accomplishment through it. Enrich yourself on any other number of levels and find some joy in that.

****, that's really the most useful advice I can give. As dead as every neuron probably often feels and as numb as all the nerve-endings seem to be...

FIND SOME JOY IN IT!

Like in that movie Amelie where she takes joy in simple things like how it feels when she sticks her hand in the bucket of assorted nuts.

For a while, don't worry about what you've accomplished on a bigger level or in terms of having a relationship.
There are things that, while not being more important, will, if you allow them to, bring you an unparalleled level of simple joy.

And as crazy and useless as that advice sounds
it's really your only permanent way out of this.

**** jobs and girls will come and go.
Simple joys, you can choose to immerse yourself in entirely always.

Find some joy in it.

 

[Marvolo]

I would say that you need to find a way to justify your own existence without considering yourself in terms of a relationship. Relationships will come a lot easier when you do, as well.

Right now, I think you place so much emphasis on getting a girlfriend that you are judging your self-worth and level of accomplishment through it. Enrich yourself on any other number of levels and find some joy in that.

****, that's really the most useful advice I can give. As dead as every neuron probably often feels and as numb as all the nerve-endings seem to be...

FIND SOME JOY IN IT!

Like in that movie Amelie where she takes joy in simple things like how it feels when she sticks her hand in the bucket of assorted nuts.

For a while, don't worry about what you've accomplished on a bigger level or in terms of having a relationship.
There are things that, while not being more important, will, if you allow them to, bring you an unparalleled level of simple joy.

And as crazy and useless as that advice sounds
it's really your only permanent way out of this.

**** jobs and girls will come and go.
Simple joys, you can choose to immerse yourself in entirely always.

Find some joy in it.

Thanks for your advice. Your right I gotta stop worrying about a girl, and just live the moment.

 

[JLBats]

Man, you and your life both suck. You should just kill yourself. Like, seriously. I mean really, how can you live with yourself knowing you've drifted away from people you were friends with in high school? That's like, crushing man, and totally not something that happens to EVERY SINGLE PERSON ON THE FACE OF THE EARTH. Stop your whining, you bloody baby.

Ugh, while I'm sure this reflects your uniquely bitter worldview, can't you see how ultimately cruel and useless and small and laaaame it is to express to someone who is experiencing a huge level of pain,

-pain, by the way, is subjective and can only really be judged based upon the dude's own experiences-

that even their PAIN is worthless and commonplace and not worth YOUR time?

Like, come on. Whatever you ultimately think of these kinds of threads and thoughts, can you not see how that's just kind of petty and not at all what we should aspire to when it would take much less effort to just show a modicum of interest and a willingness to empathize with how it makes HIM feel?

Like, it's the collective human experience, dude.

Or, you know, even less to just not post.

 

[Eggyman]

Sorry about the lack of paragraphs. I just started spilling my emotions, and didn't really write in a paragraph form, but I broke it up somewhat.

Alright man. Thanks for the paragraphs.

What you've said is the basics of growing up. Some people do keep their school friends... most people don't. Brush it off. It just sounds like you need to adjust to adult life. News flash: Life can be tough. You're not the first this has happened to; you won't be the last.

I mean this in the nicest possible way. Toughen up and lighten up. You don't think that people can see what's happening in your head as you disect what happens around you? It's etched all over your lil face, my friend.

Cheer up and have a good time. Advertise yourself as a fun person to be friends with... not a sad sack. Put a positive spin on things and it'll change how you feel and also how you're seen by others.

Say it with me now: 'It's not that bad.'

 

[Joker]

Ugh, while I'm sure this reflects your uniquely bitter worldview, can't you see how ultimately cruel and useless and small and laaaame it is to express to someone who is experiencing a huge level of pain,

-pain, by the way, is subjective and can only really be judged based upon the dude's own experiences-

that even their PAIN is worthless and commonplace and not worth YOUR time?

Like, come on. Whatever you ultimately think of these kinds of threads and thoughts, can you not see how that's just kind of petty and not at all what we should aspire to when it would take much less effort to just show a modicum of interest and a willingness to empathize with how it makes HIM feel?

Like, it's the collective human experience, dude.

Or, you know, even less to just not post.

Life is pain. That's all it is. The sooner he realizes this, the sooner he'll stop making emo posts about common issues that happen to everyone in the world. Everyone hates there job. No one talks to their high school friends after a few years. Everyone has had relationship problems. He is not special. He is another person in pain, just like the other 6 billion people on the planet earth. If his worst problems are "I think I am boring and this girl from high school embarassed me!" then he should consider himself lucky that he's not addicted to heroin sucking guys off for another hit and living on the streets.

Also, you should all feel ashamed for enabling this kind of behavior.

 

[Drakon]

All I'm gonna say is that if you really have such a high IQ, apply for MENSA. Then you can't say you've done nothing with your life.

 

[The Apocalypse]

1) Find new people to hangout with
2) Your talking about a guy who wants sympathy from these girls, but it seems like you want our sympathy.
3) If you are as smart as you say, don't worry about it. Something will fall through eventually. Strive to get what you want. It seems like you are a hard worker since you have two jobs.
4) From someone who has obsessed over a same girl for a long time, stop doing it. There are women everywhere and one is always better then the other.

Sorry that you couldn't afford to go to college for a while, I have a friend who is in the same situation.

 

[Marvolo]

Alright man. Thanks for the paragraphs.

What you've said is the basics of growing up. Some people do keep their school friends... most people don't. Brush it off. It just sounds like you need to adjust to adult life. News flash: Life can be tough. You're not the first this has happened to; you won't be the last.

I mean this in the nicest possible way. Toughen up and lighten up. You don't think that people can see what's happening in your head as you disect what happens around you? It's etched all over your lil face, my friend.

Cheer up and have a good time. Advertise yourself as a fun person to be friends with... not a sad sack. Put a positive spin on things and it'll change how you feel and also how you're seen by others.

Say it with me now: 'It's not that bad.'

Thanks, man. It means alot hearing rational advice. Something that is bothering me the worst is that I am living at home. I want to grow up. However, I feel like I can't until I get out on my own. However, my bills aren't allowing for that, and its really bothering me. Moving out on my own at my age is not easy, and I get that, its just for me not making this fact any easier. My sister is 2 years older than me and her recent marriage also didn't help cause she has been out of the house since she was 17. The guy she has married shes been with for 7 years. Life kind of fell into her lap, and I want that. I just want an opportunity to make it on my own. Being at home isn't allowing for that.

 

[JLBats]

Life is pain. That's all it is. The sooner he realizes this, the sooner he'll stop making emo posts about common issues that happen to everyone in the world. Everyone hates there job. No one talks to their high school friends after a few years. Everyone has had relationship problems. He is not special. He is another person in pain, just like the other 6 billion people on the planet earth. If his worst problems are "I think I am boring and this girl from high school embarassed me!" then he should consider himself lucky that he's not addicted to heroin sucking guys off for another hit and living on the streets.

Also, you should all feel ashamed for enabling this kind of behavior.

Bullll****.

Yes. Every one of those 6 billion people is in pain. No, it is not unique that he is in pain.
But, first of all, all he knows is his own pain. And the idea that a kid in Africa right now is starving to death or being forced to be a soldier, to me, does not invalidate the pain of, say, a mother of 2 whose husband leaves her after 15 years of marriage.

We're not in pain competition here.
That's where you and I disagree.
We're not working on a sliding scale.
His pain is equally valid.

And yes, yes Joker, he does have to learn that pain is not unique and that everyone is feeling some form of pain at any time, but the fact is, knowing that does not invalidate his OWN pain.

Nor should knowing it invalidate the pain of any single individual in that faceless mass. Otherwise we've missed the point of the lesson.

Who gives a **** if you KNOW that 6 billion people are in pain?
It is far more useful and potent and worthwhile to be able to empathize with ONE person's pain, however MEDIOCRE you find it in the grand scheme of things.

Don't use that as an excuse to shrug and do nothing and think that the useless advice of "Pfft, grow up" is adequate or meaningful.

I'm not ashamed. Because I am not enabling a behaviour I consider evil or destructive. And I'm not trying to convince him that his pain is unique and special and that he is a special individual snowflake. On the contrary.

 

[Dew k. Mosi]

I totally agree with you JLBats. This evening I was at a party for a little girl who got overtired, overstimulated, and overcranky and the party ended in tears for her. Did I tell her to suck it up? Did I tell her life was only going to get worse? Did I tell her that she was bad or stupid or silly for crying? No. Because at that moment, she just wanted someone to listen to her, and to feel that her pain was valid, even if she was too young to express it. Everyone feels pain, sure, but part of the human experience is to help each other through it. The Joker, I think you are the one who needs to grow up, frankly, and stay out of this thread if it offends you so.

As for Marvelo, look, I get the impression that you aren't very old, so this is all very immediate and very right now, that is part of being young. I'm an old lady so I am going to pass on the advice my grandmother gave me when things looked at their most unfair and miserable. "It'll get better before you get married." In other words, this too shall pass. If you want change in your life, then, change it, and you'll find out in a couple years that this was not the mountain you made it.

 

[Silverstein]

Marvolo, you deserve so much MORE. And not in a pathetic sense of money or better friends, to sound cool to make you feel better. You deserve peace of mind. To ACTUALLY feel better.

These ex-friends are *******s and act this way because they were always *******s. You seem like an honest person who cares about what actually matters like love and friendship, caring and honor. They seem like people who are caught up with the material and with their own arrogant ********.

-The Self-pity guy would have a different personality if he were actually feeling that way. So you are right about him. Thus, you don't need him and honestly he seems boring as hell anyway. I would not want to be around him, you are not missing much.

-Awkward Question Girl seems like a *****. She seems like the kind of person who would bring up something like that on purpose so that they can all make fun of you later. But honestly, they are the losers. More on that in a moment....

-Close Friend Woman honestly seems like a ****, no offense. And the story seems like she was heading to this kid's house to do some more stuff with him that she either did/didn't do with you. Not that it matters, because from her...you might get something. No offense.

-Other people..Eh!! They are the definition of the word "Meh". Do you really want "meh" friends? Nope. Didn't think so.


These people are losers, not you. Your life is perfectly normal. No one has money like that normally, and people who do have other things to deal with. Their situations are not better than yours, in fact, bringing you along was probably proof of this. If they feel so less of you, so little of you...Why invite you to hang out? Why...I mean if I was a millionaire and doing AWESOME I would not call the people from highschool that I don't care about now.


Life goes on. Friends go on. You have to move on. **** them. **** them for treating you like that.


You work two jobs and are doing what you can to stay afloat. That is not lowly. That's not losery. That's America, bro! That's the heart and soul of this bloody country! The founding fathers define you as a hero and as an example of what a true American can be.


So you don't drive a porche 911. Neither do I. So you don't have an awesome high paying job. I don't have ANY job. So you're in debt....I live with my parents who are a story for another time. We all have got problems, but your outlook. Your outlook is what changes the world.


Two jobs is experience. Try applying for manager somewhere else. Try places that you didn't think of: Bed, Bath and Beyond is 9.00/hour starting...Best Buy can go as high as 12 bucks without even being a manager or anyone in charge of anything. If it was easy to find the perfect job, we'd all be happy. But you work hard, you can do it.

My friend just got hired making 150k a year, he's only 19. Actually just turned 20. He sells insurance. Why don't you apply for a job like that. The kid's only credintials is that he has like 2 years of sales experience. You've got that times two!!!


Honor and integrity is something that you can't buy. It's something you can't find. And it's rare to just have. You have it. Don't think low of yourself because of *****ebags. **** them! You being the person you are are worth more than anything they can ever become.

Not everyone is destined for greatness. But as long as one person loves you, one person cares and wants to help you move forward, that's all that matters. Do you know who I'm talking about? That one is YOU. Nobody else.

Girlfriends and wives can leave or cheat. Friends are *******s, as you just saw and can leave or forget you. Family only goes so far. Only one person will always be by your side no matter what, and that guy is more important than any cash or jobs or housing. That guy is you.


With integrity, honor and pride....Everything blossoms from there. Apply for jobs that you don't think you can get. Take out loans to set yourself up. Live for you, but within your means enough that you still have ground to stand on and just wait.


I used to believe that the best thing that can happen will happen. But then crazy **** happened to me that I'd rather not get into. I thought of suicide and lots of other things. But you know what? What I told myself? I'd rather drink a Jack and Coke and watch the sunrise, then give up. And I will gladly drink it with you, bro.....


****. Them.

 

[Knightsaber Priss]

It's odd but this is sort of similar to an experience I'm going through right now. Strange thing though is that some crazy old man predicted it would happen 12 or so years ago, true story. So far he was spot on with certain things that have come to pass already. I'm just waiting for the rest of his predictions to come to light since I, never knowing him (I merely just told him he couldn't smoke in the laundromat I was working in at the time.) knew an awful lot about me. And there's the fact as I posted above he predicted things that have come to pass.

Marvolo, listen to the song Overcome by Within Temptation if you need inspiration.

 

[Silverstein]

It's odd but this is sort of similar to an experience I'm going through right now. Strange thing though is that some crazy old man predicted it would happen 12 or so years ago, true story. So far he was spot on with certain things that have come to pass already. I'm just waiting for the rest of his predictions to come to light since I, never knowing him (I merely just told him he couldn't smoke in the laundromat I was working in at the time.) knew an awful lot about me. And there's the fact as I posted above he predicted things that have come to pass.

Try to remember the time and day and go back to that Laundromat, and go back everyday until you find him.

 

[Knightsaber Priss]

Try to remember the time and day and go back to that Laundromat, and go back everyday until you find him.

Now that I think about it, that guy I know wasn't from where I live. I honestly don't even know where he came from at all. He'd told me himself we'd never see each other again but he told me through all the pain I will endure in the future he told me I was still a queen and that I would become something far greater than I am now after going through a lot of tears. Now that I do look back on it I just wonder why this old man was thrown my way. I can recall the oddest feeling of time standing still as he took my hand and gave me his predictions. There was literally no one in there besides me and him which was odd for the day shift hours I was working there. Not even my overly strict female boss came out and bothered us. He had eerily predicted that a man I was going to love deep down in my soul would betray me but not to worry because he wasn't the one, and yes, that has come to pass. I realize it now and I will overcome all the odds, I just know it.