Hey, thanks for sharing this. There's many people that go through a similar process. I know I had my fears of hell when I was having serious doubts. And for me, one of the things that had me doubting was the sorts of passages you've shared, the image I had in my mind of an all loving god was not able to stand up against that.
Here's another one.
2 Kings 2:23 And he went up from thence unto Bethel: and as he was going up by the way, there came forth little children out of the city, and mocked him, and said unto him, Go up, thou bald head; go up, thou bald head.
2:24 And he turned back, and looked on them, and cursed them in the name of the LORD.
And there came forth two she bears out of the wood, and tare forty and two children of them.
Think of it this way - God's kind of like a North Korean dictator, isn't he?
Hitchens described god that way.
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"I don't in myself have any desire to live under a permanent unalterable dictatorship".
The good news is that there's no good reason to believe its true. There's no evidence. It becomes obvious that the bible was written this way to control people. You look at the posts of Harvest in the Jesus thread, and ya think, now there's a guy firmly under the control of a 2000 year old book.
I've been watching the new series of Cosmos with Neil deGrass Tyson, and the way that science can allow people to ask questions, and give us tools that work for examining reality, its so much more illuminating and satisfying than anything from any religion. The most recent episode is aptly titled, 'When Knowledge Conquered Fear'. You can't blame ancient people for thinking comets are omens from god. But when people later understand gravity and mathematics, we work out that the comets that pass the Earth are actually caught in the gravity of the sun and pass us by like clockwork. Nothing to be afraid of there.
The episodes are actually online. It's an informative, beautiful series that for me frankly makes god seem like such a petty concept.
http://www.cosmosontv.com/watch/203380803583
You may find, when you have doubts about god, that when you really sit back and think about the arguments for god that the arguments are full of bad logic, special pleading, circular reasoning, and no evidence. Fear is no reason to believe. "Believe or x will happen" is an empty threat, and today it holds no power over me. I'm no more afraid of god's punishment than I am of ending up on santa's naughty list. It's literally THAT absurd to me. (And when you think about it, isn't god just santa for the grown ups?)
This animation sums up the absurdity brilliantly.
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The bottom line, the beginning and the end of the discussion when it comes to good reasons for believing if god exists, is the burden of proof.
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If you have any questions or want to discuss anything, feel free.