Dear Hypester,
You should stop pretending to be someone you are not. Fakeness does nothing but bring friends who are only into the caricature that you present, and can never trust you if they ever find out who you really are and how you think. You're probably old enough to realize this anyway, but I think you're clinging to some kind of hope from the last remnants of your childhood. This is not from hate but rather concern. Your posts read less like they come from a real person and more like from a hollow idea without much merit besides wanting the appearance of being a good person.