i never forgot about that "superbstupid" girl with wide bright green eyes always making eye contact with me
she was sitting in front of me in my french classroom
always turn her head to make eye contact and i would never lower my eyes or turn my my head away untill she does
in my head i would think how dare she looking at my person like that (back in the day I was so freaking arrogant and for a 200 pounds muscular teenager believe me i could afford it)
it would be the same crap all the time, making continious eye contact.
and one day she told me she loves me
and of course being a teenager i didn't know what to say.
what was i supossed to do !?
jump on her and start kissing her in the classroom ?
so i shut my mouth and said nothing while i was still staring at her
and that was the last time i ever saw her because she never came back
but don't worry she's not dead because decades later i saw her on face book (married with children)
but the thing now, i see a quite a few girls even older women making faces and sticking out their tongue at me
and i don't know what it means
and you have to know that i have never been a "sensitive person" throughout my whole life
and sometimes i wonder... am i really human
I think i am ,i just pour my emotion towards other things and there's not much left for other people arounds me.