I'm gonig to be a senior this fall, thank god.
High School has absoloutely sucked, and it's safe to say that it is WITHOUT A DOUBT the absoloute worse thing that has happened to me in life. Freshman year wasn't too bad. I didn't socialize alot, but i did have friends. The end of the year was okay. However, Sophmore was f****** terrible! I didn't socialize with anyone. My teachers were way too serious and some were way too much like the snobby w***** and jocks in my classes. I hate them with so much passion. A couple of my friends were in my gym class sophmore year, which was nice, but still.
My friends mainly had long hair and wore metal shirts like Metallica, such as myself. Though, I didn't have long hair back then. My hair is pretty damn long now. It's touching my shoulders, but not resting on them. So, it's still got some ways to go, but it's defeniteley considered long.
Summer 2009 = amazing. 'nuff said.
Junior year felt better in terms of friends because moreo f my friends were in there, but that didn't help much. I look back at it and cringe. I had a stuck up teacher who was stubborn as all hell. He pretty much lvoed making fun of me, even though that's not how he looked at it. I hated the students. I really did and it sucks that i'll be graduating with them. Thp roblem? My friends just graduated in june. I pretty much have nobody now except for a bulls*** artist of a friend that i met in junior high school, who isn't even honest. the firnds that graduated left me so sad the last week of school that i spent alone with nobody. I felt on the edge to breaking down into tears because of what was coming and that meant senior year with nobody. It actually kind of felt like they died. That's how I felt inside. They are the reason I whent to school, even though I didn't want to. We loved heavy metal music which was great. They were just so funny. I was and still am a bit anti social though. I don't have many friends if any at all.
Now, Senior year. You have ot have acertain amount of credits in order to graduate. I don't. My only chance was summer school, but that didn't happen. So, guess what? I don't think I can graduate. I might be able to, but i don't know. To top it all off, we have this thing called senior project. We have to do a project which takes MONTHS to do. Write an 8 page eassay, do field work on that topic, get a mentor, meet up with that person each day of the week, actually do something about your topic such as building a computer in front of judges. You actually have to do it in front of the judges. There are about 5 judges. you actually ahve to stand up in front of judges and talk for about 8 -15 minutes. If you mess up on 1 or 2 things when presnting, you have to do it over during the summer. If you can't do it, you don't graduate.
I'm sorry, but I think it's bulls**** and I don't support it. I really don't. I hate my school. I look at it as hell, tbh. You don't go to school for 3 days? They send people to your house. Happened to me. I stayed up all night, so they didn't take me to school in their car, and they let me stay home, but still. I don't support this. If it means not graduating, then so be it. The stress is way too great. It's funny, I've been called one of the best students because i never talk back, I don't hang around in crowds, i'm nice to teachers and I'm cooperative, yet, they still treat me like s***. That's why, when people tell me "High school isn't that bad" I get very upset and angry because they don't know what it has become.
High school has made me upset 24/7 even on vacations. I try to keep the days I have off as long as possible, fighting the urge to sleep so that my days last longer. I stayed up until 5 Am and all night sometimes last year. It was amazing. Sadly, so far, that has happened this summer and I'm gonig to regret it. I really am. Trust me, if high school is making it so that I will stay up and affect my health just to make it so that my days away from there last longer then there's a serious problem there. I honestly can't take it anymore.
I have a feeling my senior year this year is going to be horrible, and if I find out in september that i can't graduate, i'm not even going to bother finishing the year. I will literally leave the second day.
Trust me, I have alot more I can say, so if you guys want to hear it, just ask.
Pretty much nothing that interests me. My buddies and I talked about to just show up to chess club and get our pictures taken just to say we were in chess club. I mean they bake more than play chess anyway. I'm taking good electives, it's just they have pretty much nothing that interests me in after school stuff. I mean they have freaking Bible Studies. Math Club, Foreign Language Club. *Yaaawwwwwnnnn*
