Eddie Brock
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"We're going to Fort Benning," I answer. I point down the road at Rick, Shane, and Glenn. "Those three are going to get gas for the RV. Shane's going to sacrifice his Jeep." Sacrificing the Jeep so the rest of the convoy can go on. Is that what I should've done for Andrea? Should I have sacrificed her to spare her the pain?Even after we stop, I don't get out of the truck of a while. I just sit behind the wheel, my hands tight on in. My mind's a crazy jumble, and I just don't feel like talking to anyone right now.
It's not fair. None of it. First, the city goes to hell. But we survive. And we start to get into a routine. And while nothing's normal, it was a start. We had our methods, and we were surviving. There was hope to making it through whatever was going on.
Then Rick showed up. At first, it seemed great. More people is better. And the guy's trained, just like Shane. And he had guns. That's the important part. Sure he could help keep guard, help find food. But guns. That's the priority right now.
But his arrival really screws everything up. I know it's not his fault. I like the guy. He's got balls as well heart. The last thing he wants to do is let people down. And he sure saved our asses back in Atlanta.
Yet, it sort of is his fault and Glenn's. If Glenn hadn't shown up in that car with the damn alarm blazing, the zombies wouldn't have found the camp. If Rick hadn't dropped the guns, we wouldn't have been away during the attack. If Shane had made sure more people were keeping guard, we wouldn't have lost so many people.
Who am I kidding? It's not Rick's fault. Or Glenn's. Or even Shane's. It's all of theirs. And mine. And none of ours because we shouldn't have been put into this damn situation to begin with. Jacqui shouldn't have. I smack the steering wheel with my hands in frustration.
We didn't ask for this, goddammit! It's not ****ing fair!!!
I scream silently until the rage finally passes. But all that's left is a big hole in my gut. I get out of the truck and make my way towards the others.
"So...what's the plan?"
I shift the weight of the rifle on my shoulder.
"Well, I'm going to keep watch," I announce to no one in particular. I climb up the ladder to the roof of the RV.