Disharmony

[Hades]

Oh Abba Abba.

I read your post and I'm not quite sure what you're getting at.

Are you saying you don't know who you are?

And the whole dissociate thing, I've read about that too.
I've dealt with that for a long time, I wouldn't really say it's a mental illness.
I've found with myself the more time I spend outside and the more physically active I am, seems to help a bit with that feeling. Sometimes more then others. I find finding some nice spot away from everything and everybody and just reading in some nice cool place to be the most helpfull. You should also try finding some healthy way to deal with your feelings instead of penting them up then um...posting them on a message board.

Try writing in a journal and maybe seeing a Psychotherapist.

 

[Abaddon]

In recent retrospect, Abaddon, do you feel that in your state of mind while you wrote this you overdramatized anything? I tend to do that when I pms or am stressed out and even though the points I make are somewhat valid... the things I feel are coming from somewhere, it's never as bad as I feel like it is on those vent-alicious occasions. Just a thought or question.

Nah, I'm not into histrionics. I was probably more wrapped up in it though. Like when you have a bad toothache, but then after a while you forget you ever had it.

I just wasted about 45 seconds of my life reading that post. I'm glad I'm a speed reader, but I still want those seconds of my life back...

Oh, you poor bastard.:heart:

Oh Abba Abba.

I read your post and I'm not quite sure what you're getting at.

Are you saying you don't know who you are?

And the whole dissociate thing, I've read about that too.
I've dealt with that for a long time, I wouldn't really say it's a mental illness.
I've found with myself the more time I spend outside and the more physically active I am, seems to help a bit with that feeling. Sometimes more then others. I find finding some nice spot away from everything and everybody and just reading in some nice cool place to be the most helpfull. You should also try finding some healthy way to deal with your feelings instead of penting them up then um...posting them on a message board.

Try writing in a journal and maybe seeing a Psychotherapist.

It's not that I don't who I am. I'm very much aware of who I am, but I think of who I am in pieces that don't seem to belong together. It's like looking at yourself through a microscoe, or better yet that ink blot thing I mentioned a page ago.

I probably wasn't clear enough, but it makes sense if you read it 3 times, and think about it for 5 minutes.

I wish I'd thrown in a sledgehammer storyheart, but yes Hades, those are very practical solutions that I have no interest in.

 

[Mr Sparkle]

Ok, this is the thing.
you're trying to use logic to cope with what is pretty much an emotional problem.
you'll fail, and or end up in denial.
I won't say everyone goes through this. because that's a lie, for the most part dumb people never have these questions and are rather blissfully unaware of any and all things you just mentioned.
so pat yourself on the back, you're intelligent enough to realize something is off.
but, you're not intelligent enough to vulcan ( the star trek variety) your way out of it.
these questions are the result of YEARS of development, skewed and correct.
from the minute you began to interpret stimuli.
my advice is, don't over think this.
try and pin point the more hazardous things you do and adress them, there are thousands of ways to sort out negative aspects of your life.
sometimes though, it's best to see how things turn out.
mostly, give it time, you still have to define who you are in a clear manner.
like I said at first everyone is flawed.
trust issues, self esteem issues.
we all have them, and they have to be adressed. do so before it's overwhelming, and remove the stigma from seeking outside help, like therapy.
there's an unhealthy attitude towards the mental health profession.
but, hey, when your car has problems, most people would see a mechanic.
your body gets sick, you see a doctor.
and yet your mental health should be your own concern?
nah.


oh, and start using this as your avatar

 

[Abaddon]

I reeaally want an Eddie Murphy "Party all the Time" avatar.


But yeah, I was seeing a therapist a couple of years ago. As weird as it may sound, I just don't feel confortable sharing my my personal expeirences. i can do it, but it's awkward and I don't like seeing people's reactions.

"Well, then why do it on a message board? hyuck, hyuck?"

Because I don't really know any of you, and you don't matter in my life.:heart:

When I was seeing the therapist she also said it wasn't healthy for me to bottle things to up. But I think this is a happy medium, because I can vent and not have faces staring at me.