C.F. Kane
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In spring of my senior year I fell in love with this girl. Pretty easy to love at the time, hot, sexy, talented, and she had a crush on me as well. She was the first girl I kissed. Except when she told me she had a crush on me, she took the time to immediately explain why we could never be together (geography mainly, we were going to colleges that were way to far apart to even sucessfully manage a distant relationship with). So she never wanted a strong relationship with me, yet I stayed in love with her. And yet I stayed in love with her. Even as she went of, found a boyfriend, and ignored me whenever she had to.
And it's been about a year and a half since that incident. And I've finally realized, I don't need some distant lover that I can faun over. And I definitely don't need someone like her; who can profess affection while rebuking intimacy at the same time. And shame on me for not realizing it sooner. Shame. So, I'm gonna tear whatever feelings I have for her out by the roots. I don't need this. I, C.F. Kane, no longer need to be infatuated with someone who doesn't love me back; with someone who doesn't treat me the way I want to and need to. I will have none of it.
And it's been about a year and a half since that incident. And I've finally realized, I don't need some distant lover that I can faun over. And I definitely don't need someone like her; who can profess affection while rebuking intimacy at the same time. And shame on me for not realizing it sooner. Shame. So, I'm gonna tear whatever feelings I have for her out by the roots. I don't need this. I, C.F. Kane, no longer need to be infatuated with someone who doesn't love me back; with someone who doesn't treat me the way I want to and need to. I will have none of it.