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Superman
wiegeabo said:
My expression changes to one of sympathy. It's an old story, an old tactic used to make heroes give up the fight. "Believe me, that's not the first time I've heard that."
I walk up to Superman and put a hand on his shoulder. "Listen son, I know you think what you're doing is right. That it will save lives. But was in Chicago after the attack, helping some and watching others..." the events are still sharp in my mind, "and not being able to help others. But you didn't do that. No matter what Zod says, it wasn't your fault. He did it. He's the one that is responsible. And his claims that your father, that your family are criminals have no bearing here. All you have ever done is help. While Zod, the self-proclaimed Kryptonian hero, is the one doing harm. Zod is the villain here, not you."
I don't look at him. I
can't look at him. Especially after he mentions the people he wasn't able to help.
The problem is, I
know that I wasn't the one who killed them. I know I didn't commit those unspeakable acts of violence and destruction. But he did it all in my name.
Because of me, and what I've chosen to stand for. I may not have pulled the trigger, but I was the reason it was pulled in the first place.
Either way, I'm not going to ignore my part in it. I was the reason. He executed on my name. My
people's name, when he claimed that he was acting on Kryptonian order. I still don't feel any less responsible, no matter how much more that Zod had a hand in it.
I give the words a moment to sink in. "If you give yourself up, how can you be certain he will leave the innocents alone? What...who will stop him if decides to go back on his word? Maybe he could be stopped, but how many would be hurt trying to do that? It may not feel like it, but you have a lot of people, powered and unpowered, behind you. I trust you Superman. I believe in you."
I look back at him, slowly. Something about what he just said... "I trust you Superman. I believe in you." They actually caught my attention.
I'm standing infront of a
legend. A man who's saved many more lives than I have, for longer than most of us. I remember reading about this man as a
kid, growing up on a farmland in Kansas. I knew that someday, I wanted to be just like him, and the rest of the Justice Society of America.
And now... He believes in
me? To say that I feel overwhelmed by that is an understatement.
But he's right about something else, aswell. Something that's been troubling me for quite some time. The possibilty of Zod going against his word. He's right about it, and I've known it since Zod made his initial threat. I can't be sure. And that in itself is a bigger risk than the lives I wanted to save by giving myself up.
His words are starting to bring back that same conflict that I had earlier... Only now, I may have an even stronger argument not to.
"There's an old saying: 'Freedon isn't free.' And it's true. If we don't fight for our liberties, we lose them. Well, the same can be said for truth, and for life. If we don't fight for them, then they are worthless. And your life is far from worthless."
"I'm not going to lie to you. If you fight, people may be hurt. People may be killed. And that is tragic, and trust me, it hurts. But if the villains win, what was the point of it all? When Darkseid came, we could have given up. It's possible nobody would have been killed. So why did we fight so hard, why did we sacrifice? Why did ordinary people, without any powers, put their own lives on the line, and lose those lives, when they could have surrendered lived?"
I answer for him. "Because a life lived in fear is no life. We would only have been shells, bodies under the rule of a tyrant. We would have lost our souls. And everytime we give in to a villain, we give up on what really matters."
...
Lord... He's right. He's absolutely right.
I can see that he is contemplating what I've said. I turn and look out over the city, putting one foot on the ledge and my hand on my knee. "I know it's a tough choice. But be sure to consider all sides of the story. You can't trust Zod because he has done nothing to earn any trust." I turn my head to look at him. "You're the one who's proven himself a hero."
I'm confused. Honestly, truthfully...
utterly confused.
I had been so set on my decision to turn myself in. I was ready to say goodbye to those that had raised me on all of my ideals, and built me into the man I've become today. Ma and Pa... Lana, Pete... Jor-El... Perry White... even Lois... They've all helped mature me from a lost survivor of a long dead race, to... well, whatever I am at this moment. I've changed, even from the first day that I arrived in Metropolis. And I owe it to them. But I was ready to leave that behind? Suddenly, my own reasoning escapes me. Why? Why would I want to do that? Am I not grateful for what this world has given me?
And now, I find myself contemplating his words over the ones I told myself just hours ago. He brings up some valid points. I can't trust Zod. I still don't want to endanger any lives, but at the same time, if I have fight for this world... even if there are casualties, would the end result save far more lives than if I surrendered? Is that not my goal?
There are good points supporting arguments. But in the end, I guess I'm really the only one that can truly decide. And right now, I'm at an indecision. Even though I hate to be.
I walk back up to him. "Whatever your decision is, I'll respect it. If you give yourself up to him, know that there will still be people here to do the work. And if you don't, if Zod tries to make good on his threat...well, I'm working on putting a team of heroes together, and we'll be at your disposal if you need us. Infact, we'd be honored if you would join the team. You don't have to face Zod alone."
I look at him, eyes slightly widened. A team... An entire team devised of costumed heroes like us? I remember when I had once contemplated this myself, after the invasion. I only abandoned the idea because I had no time to assemble one. But he
has been. And now there is going to be one, ready to take on threats like Zod...
This both eases and worsens the decision of what I'm going to do. I can either fight against Zod, and die trying to defend Earth, and everyone I've grown to care about. Or, I can surrender, and leave the possibility of Zod going against his word to them. But on that side of the decision, Zod's return is only a possibility... they may not even have to deal with him.
And if they died, of
all people on this world, I don't think I'd be able to forgive myself for allowing it. Flash just told me that I've proven myself to be a hero. But in my eyes, they're equally as such, if not moreso.
Odd. I never would've considered that, before. I initially remember thinking them to be nothing but glory seekers, or lunatics. I
have changed. But maybe for the better...
I decide to finally speak up, after what feels like an eternity of silence.
"You can't stop me from going to Zod."
I can see the disappointment begin to surface on his face. But I respond to him with a smile. To think...
He actually thinks that I'm a hero.
"But I'm not saying that I'm going to surrender, when I do."