Being Dumped

[millennium movies]

Im in the middle of a crappy situation right now! It's really a weird relationship we got i guess. We've been going out for "4 years" tomorrow and we've been living together for 2 years. Lately we've been on and off more than a few times (4 times?). Now she wants to see this other guy who she has been talking to, friend of a friend and she saw him 3 times, no dates, just hung out. She didnt tell me this at first cause she was afraid of how i'd react...lol
Just recently she sent me an email before going to work, while i was asleep telling me she wants us to try again. The day before she found her old journal with all the cute stories about us and it made her remember how good it could be. Here i was happy again...next day she wants us to see other people...wtf??

 

[bullets]

I was dating this korean girl when i was 13 and she was 15. She asked me out and we dated for a couple of weeks. Some random kid in my school comes up to me and says "welcome to dumpsville , population you" . Afterword her friend came up to me and asked me how i felt . I didnt like the girl enough to be sad about it or that affected. It was kind of insulting though.

 

[bullets]

Here i was happy again...next day she wants us to see other people...wtf??

That's brutal.

 

[millennium movies]

It's a fricking rollercoaster ride! I don't get women sometimes, one day they can be attached to you, the next, bam they are cold as ice, ready to move on. I'm somewhat lucky that my girl is nice and super cool other than the facts. Often i have wanted to go out and try with other women, and now here i have the opportunity and i dont want to take it? It's really complicated, feels like a lot more is at play and there's no going back so i'm really not sure which way to go.

 

[bullets]

You probably love her and the fact that she might move on would most likely make you want her more.

 

[millennium movies]

The thing that has always put me in doubt is the fact that im way to easily distracted by another chick anytime. I never had that problem with any of my past girlfriends. That feeling is what always makes me in doubt when i think of our relationship but then moments like these come along and im not liking the idea of another guy getting her. Could it be just because we're used to one another, for such a long time?

 

[bullets]

That makes more sense. I don't think she is the love of your life.

 

[millennium movies]

Perhaps your right, this sucks so much though! We got pets together for Christ's sake!!!

PS: I think i should keep the apartment!

 

[bullets]

You might miss the pets more than you do her. That happened to a buddy of mine . He was through with his ex but wished he could of kept the dog.

 

[millennium movies]

LOL! Well i was more joking about that issue, but i'm most likely keeping this appartment seeing as how it's me that pays most (90%) of everything around here. I think i'm going to keep the dog as well. We also have 2 cats, yeah it's a real Zoo here! t:

What bugs me the most is that she's hot, lol, well i'm really attracted to her and desire her a lot. It's gonna kills me to see another schmoe get the goods.

 

[Silverstein]

What do you do to afford such an apartment?

*is parent mooching college kid*

 

[millennium movies]

I wish it was something important but it's not just your basic vage job. Well i have 2 jobs, but that doesn't mean im not struggling with my bills at times.

 

[Silverstein]

Sometimes I feel like college is not for me. I want to drop out. Or at least find something I'd rather be doing. Like I'm an artist/writer I wish it was easy to find a publisher. Or get my work out there AND be paid for it. Anyone that can piss a stick figure can get a deviant art account or make a website or webcomic. And anyone with apposable thumbs can use photoshop, but that doesn't make them good.

I'd love to get started in the field instead of doing all this bs busy work just so I can leave with more of the same skills I had previous and STILL struggle a bit to find a job. Haing a degree doesn't get you automatically hired.

It seems like a rat race.

If I could find something I'd enjoy doing until I die, I'd quit school right now and work my ass off and live with my chick my car (black Toyota Celica 2007 GT-S...which I don't get until my birthday) and maybe a black cat.

 

[Silverstein]

...I might get a TC....maybe....celicas are better..

 

[millennium movies]

Well i was much like you except i kinda dropped out because of work. Ever since i've been working and like you again, i have skills i could put to good use (graphics/filmmaking) and make money off. I'm just too lazy/busy working just to pay off bills.