I was working and got a text message : Heath Ledger Is Dead.
I had to pull over when I saw it but I was hoping it wasnt real
=(
Still somehow I had a sick feeling in my stomach that it was.
Now I just got home to visit you guys on the boards.
It feels like weve all lost a friend =(
I was so looking forward to his performance in TDK and I was really starting to turn into a big Ledger fan while researching everything hed done before in anticipation for TDK.
I listened to all these audio and video interviews with him, and he seemed just like the next generation of actors like Johnny Depp and Christian Bale who take risks and are brilliant actors and rebel against the pretty-body-teen-idol trap of Hollywood. I so admired him for that, and for not taking the easy way or the boring roles
being willing to get flack for Brokeback and Joker because he wanted to challenge himself and do something different. Heath took control of his career and refused to be managed and have someone else tell him what parts to play.
He was willing to give his all as an artist . . . just like the rare, brilliant actors are willing to do. He was so talented. Its such a shock to see this happen, and I know we wont know more until later but I hope its not a depression related suicide/intentional overdose. That would make it all the worse to think he was unhappy in the midst of such success and brilliant creative work. I hope everyone is wrong about the drugs and it was an accidental overdose or a freak accident / chemical reaction like Bruce Lee's death.
The whole situation just reminds me of Brandon Lee and Marylin Monroe.
No one should die so young. No matter how great the parts they played, no matter how immortalized they will become by the tragedy, its never worth it
its always tragic and horrible to be remembered for an early death rather than a long and prolific life.
I wonder if I will be able to enjoy any of his films now, knowing the sad ending to his story. Ill probably be crying during TDK now, even in the midst of Jokers glee. His life completely overshadows anything a film could be.
And I keep thinking back to all these audio clips Ive heard him say, that are so haunting and creepy now. The Joker is the most fun Ive ever had in a movie.
Probably the most fun Ill ever have. Its just horrible! I cant stop thinking about it. And I keep thinking about all the fans who said they better not kill of the Joker in this one, or Id be so pissed, blah blah
now it just seems so bitterly ironic, no matter what they do with the Joker, Heath is gone forever and that performance will never be touched.
And I cant stop hearing the Brokeback Mtn themesong in my head because its the most bitterly somber and tragic piece of music
it just seems to fit the moment. Do you know what I mean?
I feel like I cant do anything now. Its strange to grieve for a person youve never met, but I think we all are =(


RIP Heath.