How many times have you been heartbroken?

[tzarinna]

:heart:
I'm still bitter.

 

[Fran]

My avatar owns all.

 

[tzarinna]

It's so sexy. :heart:

 

[Strong Guy]

Wow..just look at how something funny can mend a broken heart.It's so sweet.

 

[X-Chick]

Spider-Man 3 + trailers = discussion(newbies).

No, these "newbies" feel familiar. At least one of them does, anyway.

 

[November Rain]

jesus, I can't believed i read all this...

 

[X-Chick]

I have another fun story. My assistant manager, Rosa, is awesome and gorgeous. Her daughter found out that her fiance was cheating on her just days before the wedding. Then, a couple weeks later, Rosa discovers that her husband, who she's still crazy in love with, has been cheating on her for nearly a year. She found out he got another cell phone she knew nothing about just to talk to his other women, and there's lots of them. We spent a day at work calling these women and pretending we had something they needed to pick up or something just so we could covertly drill them for information. You know, it'd be one thing if it just was woman that he genuinely had feelings for. But it was numerous women who he doesn't give a damn about. And he claims he still loves Rosa and will do anything for her to forgive him. I don't get it.

 

[Darren Daring]

Wait, so you'd rahter your fiance was cheating on you wiht someone he loved than random hoes?

 

[X-Chick]

No, I'd rather him not cheat at all. I'm just saying its more understandable to cheat on someone you love with someone you actually have feelings for than just some random piece of ass.

 

[Darren Daring]

I dunno, I think I'd prefer the random ass. I could accept it if she didn't wnat to **** me, unlikely should that be, but I don't know if I could take her being in love with another man.

 

[Erzengel]

No, I'd rather him not cheat at all. I'm just saying its more understandable to cheat on someone you love with someone you actually have feelings for than just some random piece of ass.

Maybe, maybe not. The whole, it's just sex but I make love to you excuse.

LOL Eddie Murphy.

 

[November Rain]

Having realised at an early age that I probably was never going to be able to enter a married relationship, I've been realistic in seeing an end to all relationships. Every encounter is finite, i don't have any ambitions of having long life lasting love or as some believe eternal love.

This is probably due to the fact that if i really truelly like someone, i tend to push them away for their own benefit. This evidentally comes down to my low self opinion of my potential true self.

So in order to get a grip on this scenario, I have made a deal with myself for the rational side of me to deal with relationships and keep the emotional side of me out of these affairs for his/her own protection which can lead to me perhaps being slightly unattached when i do enter such scenarios and i can also come across as quite cold.

This generally means that when i do enter into a relationship, I can handle the ends relatively well since they are mostly my fault and if they aren't, i'm well capable to handle anything people can throw at me simply because i don't allow myself to be emotionally attached.

So i'm guess i sell myself short.


Unfortunately, I wasn't always immune to the unrequited love and in my youth i spent a large proportion of my time having one female object of desire that i would lust after for years at a time.

This brings me to the topic at hand. I believe that i've only ever had it broken once when there was a moment that i dared to believe I would be good enough to keep someone for along time. I would think about us together when we were old, perhaps sitting on a bench, holding hands, she would still have that ability to make me smile, I would be able to fall in love with her again on a daily basis for countless reasons. Even thinking about it makes me feel somewhat weak, she offered hope, something no one prior or since had managed to capture within myself.

That ended, not really in a bad way but I just took it badly and made things difficult by cutting off all forms of communication even though we lived so close to one another and practically saw each other daily. There were numerous times she would sit infront of me during a meal and talk to me and i simply wouldn't make any eye contact what so ever.

I would curl up into a ball in my room and just lie there with janet jackson's velvet rope on repeat, I couldn't tell you how many times i've heard the song 'I get lonely'. A shame really.

For a long time afterward, i would use her as a comparison to other people which didn't work well since there isn't anyone that can compare to her. On getting to Uni, i discovered a whole new way or life with fresh batches of people. The notion of how seriously attractive people could simply like you without the huff and buff was somewhat beyond me.

This caught me off guard with my 'second' heartbreak which was with a girl that I was told liked me but i couldnt see the signs and went and dumped my emotional baggage right on her lap about my ex. In all honesty, I wasn't ready to let go of the grief of the last relationship and it had tainted my ability to start another one. This drove this girl into the hands of my best friend at uni and they were happy for a couple of years together. Again i retreated to the ball curling position i had found so comfortably previously (toni braxton had replaced janet jackson as well as usher's 'u remind me' and jlo's 'ain't it funny'.

this time it was more to do with how i let another relationship taint a present one and also how i could be so mean to someone who took it all on the chin. I felt really bad as to the depths i would go to to sabotage my own well being, it was self terrorism of the highest order.


I spoke to her after they had split up and I apologised for my behaviour. There was a spark there infact her words were

'I love you, and you love me but we both love *insert friend's name* so...'

It was one of those things that i don't think was worth the spoiling of the friendship triangle, normally i don't care about exes or the whole 'unspoken friendship rule' but it was clear it was more complex than so. Especially when at the end of the day, i would end up hurting her again by a less than graceful breakup.

but yeah, that's my real big WHAT IF. I think i would have changed for her.

saying this, it had the desired affect of helping me get to grips with myself and moving forward with life not letting past experiences taint future ones but unfortunatley the whole process has perhaps made me a little dead inside and I haven't really had a lady of desire in ages, everyone is pretty much the same now.

apologies for the babble folks.

 

[terry78]

^You really should write for Esquire.

 

[Darren Daring]

Having realised at an early age that I probably was never going to be able to enter a married relationship,

8 year old November Rain: Well, that's it, I'm an inhuman monster.


Seriously, though, your problem seesm to be that you're a whiny *****. Suck it up and get over yourself.

 

[November Rain]

compliment or insult?

 

[Erzengel]

At least you give an explanation of why you are the way you are and have come to terms of it.

Better than some of the posters on here, "I like this girl who has no idea that I exist. She turned me down. Let me listen to Green Day on repeat."

 

[November Rain]

8 year old November Rain: Well, that's it, I'm an inhuman monster.


Seriously, though, your problem seesm to be that you're a whiny *****. Suck it up and get over yourself.

8 is fairly late in the day to realise you're a monster

Whiney? I haven't complained about anything....

 

[terry78]

compliment or insult?

Hey, it's a quality mag. Unlike that GQ rag.

 

[November Rain]

Hey, it's a quality mag. Unlike that GQ rag.

Twilight has complimented my writing before when i had a diary thread up.

it's fairly long but if you are interested into delving more into my psyche through my own self biographical literature, i would be more than welcome to provide you with a post.

take warning, it's looooooong

 

[BizarroAids]

Well I'm currently in the middle of being heartbroken. Which is, like the worse feeling in the world. It just makes you feel...empty.

I've liked this girl since I was 13. We were friends throughout junior high, and High School. We were actually pretty close. Lost touch after school, she got married, I went off to college. Ran into her last year, went out, and from that point, just talked every few weeks, then months. This past August she called, we started talking more, seeing each other more. Then eventually started being exclusive. I swear, I've never liked a girl so much. She is the only girl I've ever told " I love you".

I figured I would give a breif background, so you get a sense of how bad this hurts.

We both have myspace, and a few weeks back, a young guy she use to work with sent her a message. At first it was harmless. A simple hey how are you type of message. Then, it became more then that. I would find her always on there first thing in the morning talking to him, he always calls. Which I can overlook, but her sister saw some of their emails, and told me they were sharing feelings and talking about how I was going to be gradually faded out.

Fast forward to now, he's come back from the military for a visit, and she left me. She never talks to me, she's always busy and just put our whole 12 year friendship behind. I'm at a total loss, everything I see reminds me of her. Movies, games, scents, photos... How do you recover from something like this? Why do some women just throw the "love" word around like it's nothing?

Any suggestions on how to get over this pain? Aside from taking many Precocets a day.

 

[X-Chick]

Sadly, you never really get over it. Time lessens it, but if it was the real deal, it'll always be there.

 

[Strong Guy]

At least you give an explanation of why you are the way you are and have come to terms of it.

Better than some of the posters on here, "I like this girl who has no idea that I exist. She turned me down. Let me listen to Green Day on repeat."

I agree.There's nothing wrong in getting everybody know how you feel about it.You just can't say that you're sad and then you don't have a reason for being sad.LAME!

Erzengal,i liked that statement of yours.It's kinda funny.

 

[BizarroAids]

Sadly, you never really get over it. Time lessens it, but if it was the real deal, it'll always be there.

See that's what I was worried about. I'm now totally convinced that myspace is a portal to hell. If she hadn't got that message from him, this never would have happened. Luckily the Hype is one thing I can come to and not have a constant reminder of her.

Should I try and win her back? Pretend like everythings peachy in my world? Or just show her how much she hurt me?

 

[Darren Daring]

You should move on.

 

[Erzengel]

Sadly, you never really get over it. Time lessens it, but if it was the real deal, it'll always be there.

Quoting X-Chick because her post is shorter and she's right.

I think you will eventually get over her. But there will be a bitterness, jadedness there that I hope won't sour any future relationships. Remember not all girls are like that and as trite as it sounds, just try and remember the good times you had together.