Thebumwhowalks
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I would just go with the theory that she was nuts, and leave it at that. Makes it easier to just forget about it.
I wouldn't discount factors of mental anguish/illness, stress, extreme unusual sickness over a long period of time(ie not the usual flu kind of thing) all playing a part in a person acting in a way that would seem unthinkable to them under more normal circumstances.
But of course there are other factors, paranoia, misunderstanding, bs in the head that you need to take care of that you did not know you had to, that the mental and physical illness excacerbates. To the point where the mind just wants some rest, and will follow a line of thought, no matter how stupid or crazy, that will give it some peace, so they don't have that anguish tearing into them.
It's only after the fact sometimes, that you can piece together how you arrived at behaviour you would think was out of your scope of behaviour.
It's not a case of saying 'i was going nuts' and looking for absolution along the lines of a sanity plea, but more along the lines of diminished responsibility, ie not the usual circumstances when the events takes place.
You can have many, many thoughts and notions going through your mind causing all sorts of anguish while you are sick, clashing togther and causing you to come up with crazy notions and theories.
When you look back and try to piece together how you could act in an unthinkable way, and realise yes, they did play a factor, you must be brutally honest with yourself and admit they were not the only things of course, you were also at fault, and bear a lot of responsibility too. It's not a case of trying to avoid guilt, you have to be fair to yourself too, just as you should also be very hard on yourself for the bs you had in your mind in the first place that the mental illness/sickness exacerbated.
Just talking in general terms about mental and physical illness as I have experienced it. Just tossing off the line 'yeah, they were going nuts', with a shrug, could be construed as you saying the person is pretending or trying to get away with behaviour that is unacceptable. It could also suggest that you don't have any insight into what they were going through, or that you do, but just don't care.
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