(IC:
Superman)
It isn't even an hour after I left the Fortress that I find myself descending from the sky, once more. I've... I've had alot of time to think. To reflect, on what I wanted to accomplish in my time here, on Earth. And in order to fully realise one thing that truly stood out, amongst my more... personal desires, I had to come back to Metropolis.
I float, slowly, still hiding myself in the clouds as I scan the rooftops and skycrapers below me. All of those people, down there... What if Zod targeted them? Hundreds... Thousands of lives already destroyed, wouldn't even register in comparison to the chaos he could inflict with true effort. I'm a living example of that.
I lower myself from the clouds, spotting the globe beneath me. The Daily Planet. I haven't worked here for very long at all... Many legends in journalism have been spawned here. I smile as much as I can, under the circumstances, as I read the bold lettering appearing on the scrolling globe.
I've been... fortunate. Fortune to have this life. To have reached as many goals as I have. I look back, still floating in the air. Metropolis is in view.
Fortunate to live on this world.
As I land on the Planet's roof, My hearing picks up the mechanics of the elevator. I turn, scanning it with my x-ray vision. It's...
Oh no. No... not her. Not now, of all times. How could I face her, after all that's happened? I turn back around, looking at Metropolis. It only reminds me of the sacrifice I may have to make... Abandoning this world, and ceasing my life as Clark Kent.
Now, of all times, is the best time to do this.
I don't even look back as the door opens, and Lois steps forward. I hear a faint gasp, as I lower my head. I'm still not sure if I can face her.
"Superman?"
I look back, seeing her. She looks at me with uncertainty, at first. But it slowly fades, as she slowly walks forward. I turn around, fully, silent for as many moments as I can bare.
"Hello, Ms. Lane.", I say, trying my best to work up another smile.
"I... I wasn't sure if you'd be here.", She begins.
"I kept watch for you. This is probably my fifth trip up here in the last hour. I thought... maybe if I kept looking to the sky..."
I look at her, curiously.
"Why?"
She crosses her arms.
"To see what you were really going to do."
I sigh.
"You were at the press conference. What you heard is... well, that's the geist of it. I'm still going to turn myself in to Zod.", I say.
I can tell the look of disappointment on her face. The same look from New York, after I hadn't given an interview after the attack towards The Fantastic Four. Only this one is much deeper. And... quite honestly, I can't really blame her.
"I'm sorry."
She shakes her head.
"No... Don't be. It's... I know you only want to do what's right.", She says, looking back up at me.
I gaze back into her eyes, serious.
"Lois... the way you defended me from Luthor... I can't even begin to tell you how much I appreciated that. It must've taken alot of guts to-"
"Oh, believe me. That wasn't hard at all.", She says, with a bit of bitterness after I've mentioned Luthor.
"I should've known better than to try. If there's anything he's good at, it's twisting one's words and making his own sound legitimate. But...", She says, looking back up at me.
"I couldn't let you walk out of it without someone standing up for everything you've done."
I smile.
"You didn't have to."
"No, Superman... That's the point. Someone had to. You've saved so many lives... Put your own on the line numerous times since you've came here... I just couldn't watch that account for nothing. It wasn't right then, and it isn't right now.", She continues.
I can't help but feel guilty. I don't know why, at first. But it slowly dawns on me: I never would've found the courage to. I can be alot of things. Determined. Stubborn. Happy. Sad. Angry. Every human trait that I've picked up from my time here has made me as human as the people I swore to protect, internally. But never once could I allow myself to be arrogant... Overly proud of everything I had done. I never saw myself as a God. I saw myself... and still see myself, as someone who was simply willing to help.
And because of this, I had to force her to defend me, instead of fighting my own battle. Maybe that's why I couldn't tell Luthor off. I couldn't find the courage to allow myself to be put above anyone else.
It's at that moment that I realise I've wandered off in my thoughts, as I look back at Lois, who looks at me, confused.
"Are you alright?", She asks.
I don't know how to answer. But somehow, words escape my lips...
"I'm trying to be.", I answer, before stepping forward.
All of this power... All of these gifts, and wonders I've been given over the years. These amazing things. And I've never been able to share them with anyone. What it's like, to float over Metropolis. The view of Earth's atmosphere. The cold winds... But the gentle feeling of freedom.
"Lois..."
I reach out my hand.
"There's something I want to show you. Something I've... never been able to share with anyone else."
She looks slightly shocked, as she looks at my hand, and back at me. She didn't expect that. Quite frankly, it didn't spring to mind immediatley on my part, either. But if this is how I'm to say goodbye to anyone who's defended my abilities and actions as much as she has... I can't think of anything more fitting. The minute she takes my hand, I step forward, slowly pulling her closer to me. She wraps her arms around my neck, as I wrap one of mine around her waist.
"And what would that be?", She asks.
"You'll see. But in the meantime... try not to look down.", I respond.
She looks at me, questionably, before managing a glance downward. The sudden fear in her eyes tells me that she didn't notice our ascension. She pulls closer to me, as I look up at the sky, determining how far up I should go, as to not harm her. After all... my skin is much more durable than her's.
By the time we've passed the first set of clouds, I've stopped. We float among the moonlit skyline of Metropolis, as she keeps her eyes closed, not wanting to look down again.
"It's alright now.", I say, as she re-opens her eyes in response. Looking down, her gaze isn't of horror anymore. It's... well, similar to the first time that I saw it myself. A gaze of awe.
"Every day since I first came to Metropolis, I've found myself at this height.", I begin.
"At first, it meant nothing. But as I began protecting... helping those in need, I began to see why I kept coming up here. It was because it reminded me of how many needed their cries for help to be answered."
She looks back up at me.
"I see thousands down there. Thousands of people that I don't want to see destroyed, because I wanted to stay.", I continue.
"That's why I'm leaving, Lois. So that one day... if mankind ever reaches the stars, like I have... They can see the same thing that I've shown you, and know that it was worth it.", I finish.
Lois finally manages to speak.
"But what if it isn't worth it? What if, when you leave, everyone is destroyed irregardless?", she questions.
I lower my head. A question I was hoping that I wouldn't have to answer.
"Then I will have made a mistake.", I say.
"But if it is... it's worth risking."
Lois lowers her own head, as we decend, again. I don't think she even notices when we land back on the Daily Planet rooftop. I ease my grip, as she lowers her arms from my neck.
I want to tell her. I want to say how sorry I am for all of the times I've never told her... about me. Being both Superman and Clark Kent. Ma and Pa would understand, if I did. And yet... I can't find those words. Instead, says something else I wanted to say
for me, as she puts her hands to the side of my face, slowly pulling me forward...
There's no denying it, any longer. But it doesn't even matter. Nothing else matters, the moment I turn myself in to Zod. Except the fate of the world that I'm leaving behind.
As our lips part, I wrap my arms around her, as a final goodbye. The longer it lasts... The longer I'm reminded of my humanity. And the more I don't want to leave.
If there's ever a time I've questioned the decision more... it's now. More than ever.