The song I'm learning it's do-able for me but it's so difficult I can't believe how mind numbing and frustrating it is I'm not sure If it's really worth it and then I'm writing this story so I can use photoshop with a stylus pen and make sprites so I can use this program to make an RPG game with the story I made and I'm not sure why I'm doing that either it's super difficult it's not even 100% serious. As far music, it's so hard but I keep thinking about the positive things that could come from this but yet it's just hard for me to feel happy and content in myself these days just overwhelmed. The weather is awful amongst other rthings, that guy is out there somewhere.
I keep worrying about how I'll finish this story I decided to read a bunch of books first which isn't that hard so like I was re-watching and re-reading Lord of the Rings which is kind of difficult plus I have all this other stuff regular things I need to do and that big guy plus I'm overwhelmed by grief lately all the time. I'm just sad.