@spiderman2 , you really are hard work, you know that? However, in the festive spirit. I'm going to have to snip your posts down too, and try to focus on the core elements, cause there's just too much (respectful) nonsense and irrelevant information to cover otherwise.
Mine depression/anxienty is like 95% caused by my work. I hate my job and have been trying to find a new job for around 8 years and 4 months with no luck and I was already burned out of work for about a year before that but wasn't looking yet has I didn't have my drivers licences that first year.
Sticking to the facts,
what exactly have you tried regarding a new career path? I don't want to hear about how much you hate your job, I already know that. I don't want to know what hasn't worked either, or where you've not been treated fairly because of experience or qualifications etc.
I want the facts from you, the bullet-points if you will - at this point, I'm only interested in what you've done to change your circumstances, not whether it has or hasn't worked. Try not to go off on a tangent.
I am tried of having to suppress my feelings all the time and I am not good at hiding how I fell either dont have a poker face.
Why do you feel the need to hide and/or suppress your feelings? This is where therapy would be useful to you I think; an opportunity for you to actually speak to someone who's unbiased and can read your body language as well as what you're saying.
I am tired of sacrificing my physical and mental healthily but got to have money to live and if I cant find a new job what choice do I have? I cant sleep like at all and its destroying my memory my memory has a result of being so sleep deprived has gotten really bad and that scares me. I am worried at some point I am going to cause my self to have a heart attack. I mean how long can a body go with 24/7 anxiety/depression and little to no sleep? I need to lose weight to but its hard to stay motivated has 1 depression makes it hard to be motivated in any way. 2 its hard to exercise when you are so physically tired from such little sleep. 3 its getting to.the point where at times I fell physically sick to my stomic because of the lack of sleep.
Exercise isn't the only solution here. Sure, it'll burn calories and with any luck, you'll get a mental buzz about it, but the biggest obsticle when wanting to lose weight is diet, and I'm not talking (or suggesting) that you follow a diet; when I say diet, I mean control what you're eating - less sugar intake, more fruit, nuts, beans, white meat and vegetables.
If you eat right and avoid the snacking, within a few months (yes months, there's no quick fix for this) you'll be amazed in how different you look. I don't know what you're like with snacking, but every time you think about eating a chocolate bar or packet of crisps, do 15 press-ups instead. If you need something to eat, then grab something with natural sugar rather than refined; an apple, a handful of grapes etc.
Life just fells pointless right now and hopeless. I would have killed my self a long long time ago if not for my believing in god its the only thing keeping me going from day to day week to week month to month year to year.
I'm not remotely religious, and I don't believe in God, but if you do, then somewhere there's a plan for you, right? In your case, God has given you the tools to work your way through life, it's up to you how you choose to use them.
Lastly woman and being a single guy. I am 31 never had a GF heck never even been on a date and it fells like all the woman around my age are married or have a bf or are engaged.
I knew this was going to come up...
I cannot stress enough that a relationship isn't going to be a magical cure. If you have as much hate about the world as you seem to now, that's going to transition to your relationship and it'll break down because of it - and then you'll have something else to feel resentful of. You really need to sort yourself out before you dwell on relationship goals.
You're 31, I'm 33. I've been on a few dates, but I can't say I've ever been in a relationship myself either. I accept that. Sometimes life just doesn't throw you that bone, sometimes until later in life, or sometimes (as much as you're not going to want to accept it) at all. If that is indeed the case, then in order for a fulfilling life, you need to fill your life with other things.
I have I think messaged like 150 woman over the last 8-9 years between like match, pof etc and had like 1-2 message me back and it was like 1 message and than nothing. I think the lack of success online has also hurt my self esteem.
Online dating as you've been told before doesn't work for everyone, and a lot of it is down to whether the user looks the part, not about who they are.
Whether it's Tinder, Plenty of Fish, Match etc, they're all the same, and they are, to be frank, toxic. You're doing yourself no favours being on them as you've rightfully acknowledged, it's knocking down your self esteem. I don't wish to sound harsh either, but if you're portraying yourself on them as you are here, can you really blame women that don't respond or run a mile? You're probably coming across as very needy and/or desperate, and that's never a good look.
I'm going to skip the rest of your first post because, quite frankly, you're blabbering on about women that wont return interest in you, and it's kinda' cringe-worthy to read.
I cannot stress this enough either, but
please use paragraphs. If you're making a long post, write it in such a way that you're speaking. Every time you pause to take a breath or think, that's where you hit return on your keyboard and start a new paragraph. Reading a block wall of text is severely taxing on the eyes.
I also urge you to be specific with your replies too and not simply quote this and reply to everything as one reply, even if that means multiple posts.
incarnate. Big love fella.
..but why? I mean, did you suddenly feel different, did you gradually find yourself changing, or did you wake up one day and realise you'd changed?
). None of us can control certain risk factors affecting our lives but worrying never helped anyone. The best thing to do is focus on the positives and take what precautions you can and then not concern yourself with the part that you can't control. Just try and enjoy all the things you have historically enjoyed without letting external things get you down, which is the kind of thing people probably mean when they say to live in the moment.
