Ah, i thought of a good one, a time when I was bullied, this is the only time I was ever scared of a bully, the only time i was ever genuinely scared of going to class because of their taunting, and it was not a guy, it was a girl, haha.
In the third year of our secondary school we amalgamated with the all female catholic school.
I would have been 14 at the time, yeah, i had kissed a few girls by that time, but nothing much, i didn't like them, they didn't like me, rites of passage kind of crap, I was still very insecure about that type of thing, felt really unattractive and repressed and all that.
So, in our English class there was this tall, beautiful, smart girl who had a viscous tongue like no-one else, she was totally the queen bee of our year, and one of the top queen bees of our whole school, no-one, guy or gal, ever messed with her, she was tough as nails, total ice queen.
Well, our English teacher used to leave the class for extended periods of time, and she would weigh in on me, she could sense all of my insecurities and repressed nature, she was one smart baddie, haha.
She would talk to me really sarcastically in this horrible mocking voice about how she wants to go out with me, really awful for me, I mean, it was like I was totally exposed for the whole class to see, all my insecurities, I had no defence against this woman, she had me in this ice-y grip and there was nothing I could do about it. I just sat there and took it, totally paralyzed with fear and humiliation.
this went on for a while, a regular thing that everyone knew would happen when the teacher left the room, I don't recall how it stopped, maybe the teacher stopped leaving the room so much, lol.
actually, I had made a new friend and it was not so bad then, I was developing my sense of humour, so maybe that helped too, I don't recall.
anyway...the years passed, and my confidence grew, my sense of humour developed, and i became the top comedian , or at least one of the two top ones(the other being my best friend), and this did not go unnoticed by this bully ice-queen girl.
So, in our sixth year of school, a couple of things happened, I snogged this girl in our english class at the weekend, and the ice-queen made some bitter comments about it, I did not realise it at the time, but she was jealous, haha.
We all went on this school trip for 5 days, and I was on a total comedy roll, and I think that was when it happened, she fell for me hard, like really frickin hard, haha.
and the thing was, I did not realise it at the time rightaway, but, I fell for her too.
I did not know what the hell was going on, everyone else knew before me, there were some girls wo were not as popular, and they sat at our 6 man/woman table at English, and they would all take the piss and giggle whenever she spoke to me, they finally had the ice-queen where they wanted her, haha, she had fallen for the class freak!
I mean, when they did this, i did not know she fancied me at this point, I was clueless.
She ended up asking me out, haha, i had been put at another table in English, and, y'know, all power to her, she walked right up to me in the middle of class, in front of everyone, and asked me if I would want to go to this horse racing night with her, haha, for real this time.
i didn't realise it was a double date thing, and so it didn't go that way, so i asked her out again later.
anyway, long story short, I blew it with her, we tried getting it together a couple of times, but due to a combination of her having to withstand the verbal slaggings and laughs due to fancying me(from all of her enemies she'd built up over the years from being an ice-queen), and me still being an insecure repressed madman(which was the biggest reason i think, i couldn't get my head round the fact she was really into me, so it was the usual insecurity in excelsis), we never got it together.
But, it just goes to show, anyone can fancy anyone, you never know, haha.
edit: and actually, at the end of it all, she wrote me this serious letter, saying how she couldn't go out with me, she was real decent about that. Because, you know what, folk talk about teen romance and all that, but, I do think there was something quite serious emotionally that went on between us, and that was why she wrote the letter, cause she knew i was real down about it not working out. She turned out to be very decent, the whole ice queen persona was a front to protect herself from folk getting to her real self.
A friend of mine snogged her years later, haha, i was of course a bit jealous, but he said to me, 'aye, we might have snogged, but it wasn't anything serious, like what went down between you two.'
madman that i am, i still have that letter somewhere, haha, felt sad to throw it out.
