Hades
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Yeah, that's basically what I believe. But only because that's all we really have, not because it matters. Honestly, I think life is just one big cosmic joke. I don't take anything seriously anymore, but I wasn't always like this either.JLBats said:If there is no great glorious end to all this, if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do. Because that's all there is. What we do, now, today.
I mean, I tried to accept christ, and I tried going to church.
They told me, If I accept Christ he'll help me with my anxiety, he'll help me accept my dad, etc etc. And you know, I really did try. I tried to help my dad with his alchohalism, I tried really hard with school, I stopped drinking, I even tried really hard to make friends with all the christian kids. But in the end, nothing really helped, and I got more depressed and sick then I've ever been, and when I got sent to the institution...it was one of the worst experiences of my life, but I thought, "no, I'll try and and maybe this'll make everything better" but in the end when I got back everything was the same. So I just stopped caring. So, that's basically why I have arrived at my outcome. I might as well just spend the rest of my life drunk, at least I won't have to think about anything.