I'm gonna make some changes

[kainedamo]

I've decided I'm gonna take a big ass break off the Internet. Similar reasons to Lee's actually as to why. I spend entirely too much time on the net, and I don't even do an awful lot. I check LSP, I check the Hype, I check to see if theres any new news about Mass Effect, I check comicboards, and then I repeat :???:

Sure, yesterday I did watch the last episode of Star Trek: Next Generation off the Internet, but I don't to watch much anymore on the computer since the computer is now in the kitchen.

And besides, I spend too much time farting around. I don't DO anything with my free time. I don't accomplish anything. I want to be a writer. I've never had any particular skills that stand out during my life... except my imagination. And I really need to begin to nurture that ****, and REALLY seriously focus on writing. I have a long way to go before I'm good. Like with anything, getting good at it will require time and hard work. But I have to do it. I never stick with anything. I bought a guitar two years ago, and I can only play one song on the thing 'cause I never practice. I started going to the gym this year, I went 4 times a week for a couple of months, and then I just... stopped going. It seems the only thing I stick with to the very end is video games and that is just... no good.

So I gotta change my priorities, change my hobbies. Instead of video games, I'll be reading and writing. Instead of the Internet, I'll be reading and writing. I think I'm gonna buy a small writing book in town, so I can write in it between calls at work.

I have to get out of this mindset that its alright to settle with jobs I'm not happy in, like call centre work and office work, just to get by.. If I don't focus on my writing, if I don't get good at it... I'll be working in call centres for the rest of my life. And the thought of that terrifies me. I want to achieve something. I want my life to have meaning. I want to look back, and say "look at all the **** I've done". And so far, the closest thing I've done to showing to the public is my "Blood Sisters" comic book. And look at it! Its incredibly sub-standard. Littered with mistakes and... just the whole thing feels half assed. I can do better. But I need to work at it.

It's just strange, the Internet persona I've created for myself. The other night was partly a wake up call for me. I spent literally hours, coming back to the LSP to argue with people, to justify myself. I don't like being called a loser, or being called pathetic. And quite frankly, the people that keep on and on and on at it - hippy fascist is the best example, guy responds to everything I post with some lame comment, seriously, its just sad. They're no better than me. There isn't anything witty or funny about calling a guy a loser. It's like, back when I originally posted my problems about Vicki, I ****ing laughed my ass off at the witty comments people were leaving. And yeah, I began to play up to it. And I began posting more and more about my personal life. I partly felt some measure of therapy in telling **** about me, partly thought "heres something interesting people will get a kick out of". Some people take it a bit too seriously, that is their problem.

So yeah, what I'm going to do after posting this is, I'm not even gonna check for replies, because quite frankly if I did I might get caught in "the trap" again, and feel that I have to respond to negative comments when I REALLY don't. I'm gonna sign out of the LSP, I'm gonna sign out of the Hype, I'm gonna take my ethernet cable and just put it away somewhere.

Now this is the big thing. This is the thing I thought of last night to ensure that I stick to this. I'm gonna try to not come back until I have achieved something I'm truely proud of. I'm gonna write something, a comic book, I'm gonna find someone to draw it, I'm gonna feel like "this is something I could really show to people", and then I'm gonna come back and say "look what I've achieved". A better way of getting attention than "look at what crazy mad things are happening in my personal life".

Thanks to everyone who's been cool. Raybia's just a very cool guy, very laid back. ShadowBoxing is a very, very intelligent guy. Wil is frickin' hilarious, very witty. And thanks to everyone who has given me advice or shown support. I'll see ya when I see ya.

 

[Electrix]

Go achieve!

 

[Drakon]

Start with your underwear.

Seriously, though. Get busy

 

[Lord Valumart]

i only read parts of that but yeh sure go do your thing and hope it works out for you

but remember...leaving the hype carries a terrible curse!! mwwwahahahaha! mine is an evil laugh!!

also if you're writing post some stuff on here so we can read...??

 

[FaT_tONle]

I tried the "hide the cable" thing.... but I ended up plugging it right back in.... it was like putting the needle right back in my veins... the best solution is to cut the cord... but yeah I should probably spend a lot less time on the net too... same goes for a lot of people here... but me especially... o well...

 

[Lightning Strykez!]

Dude!

Well, you'll be missed but what you're trying to do is respectable...and it does make sense. There are probably a lot more of us that need to do the same thing--to a greater or lesser extent.

 

[PhotoJones]

No one thinks it's weird that some people have a problem managing their time?

 

[04nbod]

yep over the next 2 weeks i should spend all my time on uni stuff and my final show for my art course but i know the hype will draw me in

 

[Ghostvirus]

The Hype is the eater of Dreams, & the occasional Soul.

 

[Movies205]

LSP isn't the nicest place in the world but that's the point, there all just having fun, there not calling you a loser since they don't know YOU, there making fun of a fake internet persona and seeing if you can keep up. Anyway as for the writing, I don't know why you have to sign off the Hype, my writing is the reason I'm on here more now a days simply because I write all the time, and half the time to fill in gaps of writer's block, is posting on the hype... And then hitting up the story again... Which reminds me...

 

[arachnid-guy]

I have my first A2 exam on Thursday.

AND I AM ON THIS THING!

 

[Lightning Strykez!]

No one thinks it's weird that some people have a problem managing their time?

Not necessarily. The internet is addictive for some people in general--not just the Hype.

I think it's admirable that he recognizes the root of his problem and is willing to address it.

 

[Immortalfire]

Go for it!

 

[November Rain]

he'll be back...

 

[PhotoJones]

Not necessarily. The internet is addictive for some people in general--not just the Hype.

I think it's admirable that he recognizes the root of his problem and is willing to address it.

I suppose. I just find it a little strange that some people are so incapable of managing their lives that they get to a point (like KD's here) where they have to completely eliminate things. It's kinda sad.

 

[moraldeficiency]

I suppose. I just find it a little strange that some people are so incapable of managing their lives that they get to a point (like KD's here) where they have to completely eliminate things. It's kinda sad.

I gotta agree. This is the internet not heroin.

 

[Erzengel]

Kaine's gonna make a change, for once in his life
It's gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right...

As he, turns up the collar on his favorite leather coat
This wind is blowin' his mind
He sees the kids in the street, singing the Spider-Man beat
Who is he, to be blind? Pretending not to see their needs
A summer's disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why he wants you to know

Kaine's starting with the man in the mirror
He's asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)
(Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah)

 

[Wilhelm-Scream]

Let's start the betting on how long the "break" will last.
*grabs ledger and chewed up pencil*

 

[Fran]

I've decided I'm gonna take a big ass break off the Internet. Similar reasons to Lee's actually as to why. I spend entirely too much time on the net, and I don't even do an awful lot. I check LSP, I check the Hype, I check to see if theres any new news about Mass Effect, I check comicboards, and then I repeat :???:

Sure, yesterday I did watch the last episode of Star Trek: Next Generation off the Internet, but I don't to watch much anymore on the computer since the computer is now in the kitchen.

And besides, I spend too much time farting around. I don't DO anything with my free time. I don't accomplish anything. I want to be a writer. I've never had any particular skills that stand out during my life... except my imagination. And I really need to begin to nurture that ****, and REALLY seriously focus on writing. I have a long way to go before I'm good. Like with anything, getting good at it will require time and hard work. But I have to do it. I never stick with anything. I bought a guitar two years ago, and I can only play one song on the thing 'cause I never practice. I started going to the gym this year, I went 4 times a week for a couple of months, and then I just... stopped going. It seems the only thing I stick with to the very end is video games and that is just... no good.

So I gotta change my priorities, change my hobbies. Instead of video games, I'll be reading and writing. Instead of the Internet, I'll be reading and writing. I think I'm gonna buy a small writing book in town, so I can write in it between calls at work.

I have to get out of this mindset that its alright to settle with jobs I'm not happy in, like call centre work and office work, just to get by.. If I don't focus on my writing, if I don't get good at it... I'll be working in call centres for the rest of my life. And the thought of that terrifies me. I want to achieve something. I want my life to have meaning. I want to look back, and say "look at all the **** I've done". And so far, the closest thing I've done to showing to the public is my "Blood Sisters" comic book. And look at it! Its incredibly sub-standard. Littered with mistakes and... just the whole thing feels half assed. I can do better. But I need to work at it.

It's just strange, the Internet persona I've created for myself. The other night was partly a wake up call for me. I spent literally hours, coming back to the LSP to argue with people, to justify myself. I don't like being called a loser, or being called pathetic. And quite frankly, the people that keep on and on and on at it - hippy fascist is the best example, guy responds to everything I post with some lame comment, seriously, its just sad. They're no better than me. There isn't anything witty or funny about calling a guy a loser. It's like, back when I originally posted my problems about Vicki, I ****ing laughed my ass off at the witty comments people were leaving. And yeah, I began to play up to it. And I began posting more and more about my personal life. I partly felt some measure of therapy in telling **** about me, partly thought "heres something interesting people will get a kick out of". Some people take it a bit too seriously, that is their problem.

So yeah, what I'm going to do after posting this is, I'm not even gonna check for replies, because quite frankly if I did I might get caught in "the trap" again, and feel that I have to respond to negative comments when I REALLY don't. I'm gonna sign out of the LSP, I'm gonna sign out of the Hype, I'm gonna take my ethernet cable and just put it away somewhere.

Now this is the big thing. This is the thing I thought of last night to ensure that I stick to this. I'm gonna try to not come back until I have achieved something I'm truely proud of. I'm gonna write something, a comic book, I'm gonna find someone to draw it, I'm gonna feel like "this is something I could really show to people", and then I'm gonna come back and say "look what I've achieved". A better way of getting attention than "look at what crazy mad things are happening in my personal life".

Thanks to everyone who's been cool. Raybia's just a very cool guy, very laid back. ShadowBoxing is a very, very intelligent guy. Wil is frickin' hilarious, very witty. And thanks to everyone who has given me advice or shown support. I'll see ya when I see ya.

Kaine's gonna make a change, for once in his life
It's gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right...

As he, turns up the collar on his favorite leather coat
This wind is blowin' his mind
He sees the kids in the street, singing the Spider-Man beat
Who is he, to be blind? Pretending not to see their needs
A summer's disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got nowhere to go
That's why he wants you to know

Kaine's starting with the man in the mirror
He's asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)
(Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah)

Copied and pasted.

 

[Movies205]

Let's start the betting on how long the "break" will last.
*grabs ledger and chewed up pencil*

4 Days and that's being generous

 

[Darthphere]

KD left because he realized that more people hated him than me.

 

[Wilhelm-Scream]

I always wonder with these, "I'm LEAVING! 'cause I waste too much time on the internet!" Threads....

1) Isn't the idea that they want to resolve to leave? So, having come to that decision...the first thing they do, is GET BACK ON to say "I'm not getting back on anymore."

or,

2) Do they actually think, "I'm gonna quit, just ONE last blow-out bash of a fix. I'll make a goodbye thread and then we're done!"

Well of course they want to read everyone else's response to their leaving.
So that means...hanging on the internet, coming back from lunch and checking it again to see if anyone else has said anything about how much they'll be missed, etc.

So, I guess what they really do is say, "Okay, as SOON as this thread dies down, THEN.....no more internet! YEaH!"




As absurd as the people who decide, on November 12th, that they're going to stop drinking for New Year's, so they plan a big Drinking Orgy/Rager-To-End-All-Ragers for New Year's Eve, as a "farewell".

If quitting is a good idea, and your true desire, on January 1st, then it is on November 12th.

The fact is, they don't want to quit, so they put it off until some future date, half hoping it'll somehow be easier "someday", and half hoping that "someday" will never come.

 

[Darthphere]

I always wonder with these, "I'm LEAVING! 'cause I waste too much time on the internet!" Threads....

1) Isn't the idea that they want to resolve to leave? So, having come to that decision...the first thing they do, is GET BACK ON to say "I'm not getting back on anymore."

or,

2) Do they actually think, "I'm gonna quit, just ONE last blow-out bash of a fix. I'll make a goodbye thread and then we're done!"

Well of course they want to read everyone else's response to their leaving.
So that means...hanging on the internet, coming back from lunch and checking it again to see if anyone else has said anything about how much they'll be missed, etc.

So, I guess what they really do is say, "Okay, as SOON as this thread dies down, THEN.....no more internet! YEaH!"




As absurd as the people who decide, on November 12th, that they're going to stop drinking for New Year's, so they plan a big Drinking Orgy/Rager-To-End-All-Ragers for New Year's Eve, as a "farewell".

If quitting is a good idea, and your true desire, on January 1st, then it is on November 12th.

The fact is, they don't want to quit, so they put it off until some future date, half hoping it'll somehow be easier "someday", and half hoping that "someday" will never come.

Yes.

 

[raybia]

I've decided I'm gonna take a big ass break off the Internet. Similar reasons to Lee's actually as to why. I spend entirely too much time on the net, and I don't even do an awful lot. I check LSP, I check the Hype, I check to see if theres any new news about Mass Effect, I check comicboards, and then I repeat :???:

Sure, yesterday I did watch the last episode of Star Trek: Next Generation off the Internet, but I don't to watch much anymore on the computer since the computer is now in the kitchen.

And besides, I spend too much time farting around. I don't DO anything with my free time. I don't accomplish anything. I want to be a writer. I've never had any particular skills that stand out during my life... except my imagination. And I really need to begin to nurture that ****, and REALLY seriously focus on writing. I have a long way to go before I'm good. Like with anything, getting good at it will require time and hard work. But I have to do it. I never stick with anything. I bought a guitar two years ago, and I can only play one song on the thing 'cause I never practice. I started going to the gym this year, I went 4 times a week for a couple of months, and then I just... stopped going. It seems the only thing I stick with to the very end is video games and that is just... no good.

So I gotta change my priorities, change my hobbies. Instead of video games, I'll be reading and writing. Instead of the Internet, I'll be reading and writing. I think I'm gonna buy a small writing book in town, so I can write in it between calls at work.

I have to get out of this mindset that its alright to settle with jobs I'm not happy in, like call centre work and office work, just to get by.. If I don't focus on my writing, if I don't get good at it... I'll be working in call centres for the rest of my life. And the thought of that terrifies me. I want to achieve something. I want my life to have meaning. I want to look back, and say "look at all the **** I've done". And so far, the closest thing I've done to showing to the public is my "Blood Sisters" comic book. And look at it! Its incredibly sub-standard. Littered with mistakes and... just the whole thing feels half assed. I can do better. But I need to work at it.

It's just strange, the Internet persona I've created for myself. The other night was partly a wake up call for me. I spent literally hours, coming back to the LSP to argue with people, to justify myself. I don't like being called a loser, or being called pathetic. And quite frankly, the people that keep on and on and on at it - hippy fascist is the best example, guy responds to everything I post with some lame comment, seriously, its just sad. They're no better than me. There isn't anything witty or funny about calling a guy a loser. It's like, back when I originally posted my problems about Vicki, I ****ing laughed my ass off at the witty comments people were leaving. And yeah, I began to play up to it. And I began posting more and more about my personal life. I partly felt some measure of therapy in telling **** about me, partly thought "heres something interesting people will get a kick out of". Some people take it a bit too seriously, that is their problem.

So yeah, what I'm going to do after posting this is, I'm not even gonna check for replies, because quite frankly if I did I might get caught in "the trap" again, and feel that I have to respond to negative comments when I REALLY don't. I'm gonna sign out of the LSP, I'm gonna sign out of the Hype, I'm gonna take my ethernet cable and just put it away somewhere.

Now this is the big thing. This is the thing I thought of last night to ensure that I stick to this. I'm gonna try to not come back until I have achieved something I'm truely proud of. I'm gonna write something, a comic book, I'm gonna find someone to draw it, I'm gonna feel like "this is something I could really show to people", and then I'm gonna come back and say "look what I've achieved". A better way of getting attention than "look at what crazy mad things are happening in my personal life".

Thanks to everyone who's been cool. Raybia's just a very cool guy, very laid back. ShadowBoxing is a very, very intelligent guy. Wil is frickin' hilarious, very witty. And thanks to everyone who has given me advice or shown support. I'll see ya when I see ya.

Thanks for the kind comments.

I think its great that first of all, your recognize there is a problem within your life and you have the insight to see that your hours spent on the Internet is a contributing factor.

I think the approach you are going to take is perfect. The longer you are away from the internet in general the more you will be able to handle your addiction to it and the more time you will be able to put into your own personal development.

One suggestion that I have for you is to begin a personal journal of your experiences as you do this. Try to find out as much about yourself as possible and even write down the dreams you have at night. Dreams can give you great insight into your subconscious.

Also, I see that you are going to be doing more reading. This is an wonderful idea. Develop a gameplan on what types of books you are going to read and don't limit yourself to just one genre, but also keep in mind what interests you and go from there. I would also keep a Book Journal too.

Write down the name of the book, the author, the date you read it, a brief description of what the book is about, and then write down 3 things about it: The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

You are a writer, so try to experience more things to give yourself more things to write about.

Try and travel more, do volunteer work with things you have an interest in. Start watching more older classic movies. Maybe volunteer to work on a political campaign. Experience more of the diversity of people by learning more about different cultures along with their customs and cuisines. Read books on various religions. Visit different churches, synagogues, mosques, etc. Attend various public educational events.

The more you enrich your life with various experiences the more fulfilling it will be.

It sounds like you are on the right track. Good luck to you and maybe sometime in the future you can share some of your experiences and advise some of us on how to get the most out of life.


Raybia

 

[raybia]

I always wonder with these, "I'm LEAVING! 'cause I waste too much time on the internet!" Threads....

1) Isn't the idea that they want to resolve to leave? So, having come to that decision...the first thing they do, is GET BACK ON to say "I'm not getting back on anymore."

or,

2) Do they actually think, "I'm gonna quit, just ONE last blow-out bash of a fix. I'll make a goodbye thread and then we're done!"

Well of course they want to read everyone else's response to their leaving.
So that means...hanging on the internet, coming back from lunch and checking it again to see if anyone else has said anything about how much they'll be missed, etc.

So, I guess what they really do is say, "Okay, as SOON as this thread dies down, THEN.....no more internet! YEaH!"




As absurd as the people who decide, on November 12th, that they're going to stop drinking for New Year's, so they plan a big Drinking Orgy/Rager-To-End-All-Ragers for New Year's Eve, as a "farewell".

If quitting is a good idea, and your true desire, on January 1st, then it is on November 12th.

The fact is, they don't want to quit, so they put it off until some future date, half hoping it'll somehow be easier "someday", and half hoping that "someday" will never come.

Or you just could have told kainedamo good luck with your pursuits!



Raybia