LV - now a bloody emo bastard

[Lord Valumart]

yeh...thats right...

i don;t care if mods close this or delete it i just need a place to say whats on my mind and the hype hasn;t really been good for advice or anything like that at any point during my time here but i can atleast hope that you all care a tiny little bit and understand what it's like to lose the one person you ever loved.

it just really got to me, the way she did it...by text. everyone says that it was gutless and that if she cared about me atall she would have atleast called. they say i'm better off without her. how can you be better off without the woman you love? there was also no real reason that she gave, jsut that she thought it wouldn;t work out and that she still wanted to be freinds(we were freinds before for like 4/5 years). i said sure, but i can't even look at a pic of here with out feeling empty inside.

i suppose the way i deal with things isn;t the best way either. i tend to keep stuff to myself and try to be constant with the way i appear to others. i'm al hyper and not caring to them, but i hurt inside all the time.

anyhow, we split about a month ago and i decided i wanted my stuff back. now, i didn;t want to see her or talk to her cause she's caused me more pain than i ever though possible. so i ask my mates sister to ask her since they be freinds. she told me that i give my ex's stuff to her and she'd give it to my ex and my ex does the same, but she also said that my ex has someone else. this made me die inside. i then spent the night watching films and crying.

people say i should just forget about her. get back out there. but she was the first person i ever loved. i guess it was jsut one of those things, you know, you finaly get the thing you've dreamed about for so long and you don;t know what to do with it. maybe thats why she dumped me. or maybe its something totally different. i don;t know. i don;t want to know. if i did i'd only hurt more, and i don;t want to hurt more.

so...i dunno...this sorta makes me feel better, letting it all out...but i still have this amazing pain in my heart. for a time i wished pain upon her...but i still love her and even though she isn;t with me i don;t want her to be hurt, even if she is a total ***** for doing things the way she did

 

[Immortalfire]

Sucks man, sorry

 

[Boom]

Things happen for a reason. That's the way I look at it.

 

[Lord Valumart]

Things happen for a reason. That's the way I look at it.

all this pain is for a reason?

what reason? a punishment? a laugh? is god some sick twisted bastard who gets his jollies from watching others suffer??

 

[Gotendbz-2]

How old are you?

And I'm sure you'll find another person, maybe someone you like better.



...Stupid little emu's or whatever they call 'em...

 

[Immortalfire]

...Stupid little emu's or whatever they call 'em...

Emu is an ostrich, lol

 

[Calvin]

Well, it sucks now, but at least this sucky moment will one day have solidarity among many other similar moments. Trust me, it'll happen again. Every time it happens you think it's the big one, but really, it's not. It'll happen again and again and it'll suck just as much each time. Maybe even more so. So you've got a lot to look forward to

 

[November Rain]

Best song to cry to when you been dumped near christmas

 

[Not Jake]

When I was feeling depressed about a month or so ago I started taking some leftover Oxycodin and cutting my wrists. I suggest it! You know, cutting gets a bad rap. If it's so bad, then why do so many people do it, that's how I feel. Because it rules. It helps! I quit doing it too, it's not addictive like some of the really dangerous stuff out there, like cigarettes.

 

[Lord Valumart]

Best song to cry to when you been dumped near christmas

balls....i need to send back her christmas present...thanks for that

 

[Lord Valumart]

When I was feeling depressed about a month or so ago I started taking some leftover Oxycodin and cutting my wrists. I suggest it! You know, cutting gets a bad rap. If it's so bad, then why do so many people do it, that's how I feel. Because it rules. It helps! I quit doing it too, it's not addictive like some of the really dangerous stuff out there, like cigarettes.

cutting you say....sounds good....i feel like cutting.....

but whats Oxycodin?

 

[November Rain]

This is probably the inferior dirty yanky equivalent but what can you do

 

[The Amazing Lee]

there there LV.

You may rest your head on my boobie, and I will stroke you.

 

[Lord Valumart]

there there LV.

You may rest your head on my boobie, and I will stroke you.

you enrage and disgust me

 

[Gotendbz-2]

So now Lored Valumart is a suicidal little emu....

 

[Not Jake]

cutting you say....sounds good....i feel like cutting.....

but whats Oxycodin?

I meant oxycontin. I have codeine sitting right here in front of me (cough medicine) though so I guess my brain farted them together.

 

[Gotendbz-2]

there there LV.

You may rest your head on my boobie, and I will stroke you.

EW! Don't do it Lored! He's got moobs!

 

[Lord Valumart]

I meant oxycontin. I have codeine sitting right here in front of me (cough medicine) though so I guess my brain farted them together.

ah right...i'll look into that stuff...i thought about booze but it just made me happy and laughy...

 

[The Amazing Lee]

you enrage and disgust me

But seriously. These things happen, and like it was mentioned in the thread, for a reason.

You will find someone LV. You're not ugly (I'd take you if I wasn't taken. **GROWL** )

You've just gotta get on with things. I know how hard it can be. One break up, I would cry, like every day for a month.

I think it's one of the reasons I started drinking.

To get it off my mind.

Just keep your chin up and put a smile on that pretty little face of yours. t:









































You scottish Bastard! t:

 

[Lord Valumart]

But seriously. These things happen, and like it was mentioned in the thread, for a reason.

You will find someone LV. You're not ugly (I'd take you if I wasn't taken. **GROWL** )

You've just gotta get on with things. I know how hard it can be. One break up, I would cry, like every day for a month.

I think it's one of the reasons I started drinking.

To get it off my mind.

Just keep your chin up and put a smile on that pretty little face of yours. t:

You scottish Bastard! t:

for some reason that little comment made the entire post really good advice.

it's also good to know i'm not ugly.

 

[arachnid-guy]

Things play out like a book.

Do you want your story to be a happy or sad ending?

Think of this as but another chapter in your life...there are many chapters to go yet.

Dont give up. Things will get better...they always do.

Chin up. Stiff upper lip, man.

Go out there and show you wont get beaten.

Go out there and KICK SOME ASS!

You should proabably ignore that last statement.

 

[StrainedEyes]

yeh...thats right...

i don;t care if mods close this or delete it i just need a place to say whats on my mind and the hype hasn;t really been good for advice or anything like that at any point during my time here but i can atleast hope that you all care a tiny little bit and understand what it's like to lose the one person you ever loved.

it just really got to me, the way she did it...by text. everyone says that it was gutless and that if she cared about me atall she would have atleast called. they say i'm better off without her. how can you be better off without the woman you love? there was also no real reason that she gave, jsut that she thought it wouldn;t work out and that she still wanted to be freinds(we were freinds before for like 4/5 years). i said sure, but i can't even look at a pic of here with out feeling empty inside.

i suppose the way i deal with things isn;t the best way either. i tend to keep stuff to myself and try to be constant with the way i appear to others. i'm al hyper and not caring to them, but i hurt inside all the time.

anyhow, we split about a month ago and i decided i wanted my stuff back. now, i didn;t want to see her or talk to her cause she's caused me more pain than i ever though possible. so i ask my mates sister to ask her since they be freinds. she told me that i give my ex's stuff to her and she'd give it to my ex and my ex does the same, but she also said that my ex has someone else. this made me die inside. i then spent the night watching films and crying.

people say i should just forget about her. get back out there. but she was the first person i ever loved. i guess it was jsut one of those things, you know, you finaly get the thing you've dreamed about for so long and you don;t know what to do with it. maybe thats why she dumped me. or maybe its something totally different. i don;t know. i don;t want to know. if i did i'd only hurt more, and i don;t want to hurt more.

so...i dunno...this sorta makes me feel better, letting it all out...but i still have this amazing pain in my heart. for a time i wished pain upon her...but i still love her and even though she isn;t with me i don;t want her to be hurt, even if she is a total ***** for doing things the way she did

First K-Fed... Now you... and I still don't care Stop whining. **** happens, move on.

 

[Darthphere]

A razor blade would solve all these problems.

 

[Erzengel]

Eh it's your first real heartbreak. It will put some hair on your chest. Chalk it up as experience and move on.

Do not become some jaded a'hole.
You are 18, it's not the end of the world.
You will find someone else and look back at this and just shrug.

 

[SpideyLad]

I'm so sorry LV

Thing's will get better, I'm sure.