you don;t think i've already burried myself in that stuff?Iceman/Psylocke said:Sorry to hear that LV.
I can recommend quality comics, porn and films that will help you get over this![]()
Lord Valumart said:all this pain is for a reason?
what reason? a punishment? a laugh? is god some sick twisted bastard who gets his jollies from watching others suffer??
New hobby?Lord Valumart said:you don;t think i've already burried myself in that stuff?
i can now say i've watched my dvd collection in whole(except 24 season 1)
sounds fun....it'd be good for the side of me that wishes to feel something other than this pain...and it looks like a laugh...Iceman/Psylocke said:
Kevin Roegele said:You need to know the pain of a failed relationship so you can appreciate the joy of the beginning of the next one. Peaks and troughs.
Lord Valumart said:yeh...thats right...
i don;t care if mods close this or delete it i just need a place to say whats on my mind and the hype hasn;t really been good for advice or anything like that at any point during my time here but i can atleast hope that you all care a tiny little bit and understand what it's like to lose the one person you ever loved.
it just really got to me, the way she did it...by text. everyone says that it was gutless and that if she cared about me atall she would have atleast called. they say i'm better off without her. how can you be better off without the woman you love? there was also no real reason that she gave, jsut that she thought it wouldn;t work out and that she still wanted to be freinds(we were freinds before for like 4/5 years). i said sure, but i can't even look at a pic of here with out feeling empty inside.
i suppose the way i deal with things isn;t the best way either. i tend to keep stuff to myself and try to be constant with the way i appear to others. i'm al hyper and not caring to them, but i hurt inside all the time.
anyhow, we split about a month ago and i decided i wanted my stuff back. now, i didn;t want to see her or talk to her cause she's caused me more pain than i ever though possible. so i ask my mates sister to ask her since they be freinds. she told me that i give my ex's stuff to her and she'd give it to my ex and my ex does the same, but she also said that my ex has someone else. this made me die inside. i then spent the night watching films and crying.
people say i should just forget about her. get back out there. but she was the first person i ever loved. i guess it was jsut one of those things, you know, you finaly get the thing you've dreamed about for so long and you don;t know what to do with it. maybe thats why she dumped me. or maybe its something totally different. i don;t know. i don;t want to know. if i did i'd only hurt more, and i don;t want to hurt more.
so...i dunno...this sorta makes me feel better, letting it all out...but i still have this amazing pain in my heart. for a time i wished pain upon her...but i still love her and even though she isn;t with me i don;t want her to be hurt, even if she is a total ***** for doing things the way she did![]()
since you know....what helped you more...cutting, base jumping or porn?bored said:sadly, i have a pretty good idea of what you're going through. it sucks.
Pick up a guitar and channel your sorrow into song, duh.Lord Valumart said:since you know....what helped you more...cutting, base jumping or porn?
three things wrong with thatWilhelm-Scream said:Pick up a guitar and channel your sorrow into song, duh.
You stand to make millions.
Then when you're huge, she'll want to meet you back stage and you can let her know that the only way in is through servicing the roadies.
You don't have to choose...Lord Valumart said:since you know....what helped you more...cutting, base jumping or porn?
Lord Valumart said:three things wrong with that
1. can't play
i find that offencive and in bad tasteGotendbz-2 said:Then play it on the Bag-Pipes!
not only was that true it was also one of the worst songs inthe history of the world. it made me giggle.Babs Gordon said:I have some very important directions for you LV:
1. Click this link: http://www.myspace.com/kellylikesshoes
2. Click the song "Text Message Breakup"
3. Proceed to laugh because dammit, it's true.
so...rebound....good....As far as feeling better... give it time. I've been in your shoes before. I didn't eat for ten days the first time... I called in the break up diet in retrospect... I just didn't have an appetite I was so depressed. It gets easier the next time because you've already felt the worst. The first time is the worst. You never see it coming and even if you do you have no clue how it's going to go down.
Don't underestimate the power of rebound either. They don't have to be meaningful. They're there to put you back on your feet. A nice little ego boost.
You don't have friends with benefits yet?Lord Valumart said:so...rebound....good....
your tellling me to go out and have casual sex![]()
sadly i only know about 4 female outside of my work...my ex, my mates sister, another mates brothers gf and the lady at the bar in my pub....Majik1387 said:You don't have friends with benefits yet?
Lord Valumart said:i find that offencive and in bad taste![]()
well jokes can be hurtful....think before you act.Gotendbz-2 said:Sorry. It was just a joke.
Lord Valumart said:well jokes can be hurtful....think before you act.
normal i wouldn;t have minded but at this time it just was a good time for that sort of joke