Wilhelm-Scream said:
Because alcohol is truth serum and deep down you're gay.
lol. Best missadvice i've ever seen.
Anyway, I've been diagnosed with (not suprisingly) depression and add for quite some time. I was heavily medicated for years but as of about 2 years I have been clean (as I don't trust the validity of medication for these psychological disorders, especially ADD or ADHD since it's still debatable wether or not they have any physical side to them at all).
Hmmm...maybe I should go back on treatment for depression though, that's largely physical.
Anyway, I think some other diseases I might have are hypomania, pychosis, and marxism (or whimpyiasm). I'm not sure, though. Futher diagnosis is required.
I can be very unemotional and cold sometimes, is that a mental disorder?
Carter, the only place i've seen the deadening of emotions as a symptom is psychopathy, which would make you a psychopath. I feel like I never had the illness from the beginning, but have since developed a couple of traits of the psychopath, but I totally do not have some of the other traits. I think the traits I do have come from an increasing lack of trust in people, and perhaps some kind of smearing of my perceptions of the possibilities for interpersonal connection (I see less of a connection than I feel there should be on almost all levels in almost everyone I know, and it grows as I do).
Deadening emotions is probably linked with other things, but I'd like to find out what those are.
The weird thing that might support my claim to have developed it stems from the wikipedia article, and it's probably completely bogus as a childs world is so different from an adults world anyway, but to have a quick look:
Childhood precursors
* A longer-than-usual period of bedwetting
* Cruelty to animals
* Firesetting and other vandalism.
* Lies
* Truancy
* Theft
* Aggression to peers
* Defiance of authority
None of these describe me as my child self. I wasn't the kid to be involved with any of these things, not even setting things on fire amused me, and as far as cruelty to animals, I was made fun of for protecting insects and crying when people killed them.
Now, definitions of pyschopathy
1. Superficial charm and average intelligence - not really, maybe...
2. Absence of delusions and other signs of irrational thinking - nope
3. Absence of nervousness or neurotic manifestation - nope
4. Unreliability. - totally no (I get extremely angry at other people when they are unreliable).
5. Untruthfulness and insincerity. - no
6. Lack of remorse or shame. -yes
7. Antisocial behavior without apparent compunction. - yes
8. Poor judgement and failure to learn from experience. -yes and sometimes
9. Pathological egocentricity and incapacity to love. - yes (not when I was younger)
10. General poverty in major affective reactions. - yes
11. Specific loss of insight. - maybe (but who would I be to know, lol)
12. Unresponsiveness in general interpersonal relations. - yes
13. Fantastic and uninviting behavior with drink, and sometimes without. - no
14. Suicide threats rarely carried out. - no
15. Sex life impersonal, trivial, and poorly integrated. -yes
16. Failure to follow any life plan. -YES majorly
When I was younger I would talk on the phone with girls for sometimes 3 or more hours. That's pretty much how I kept girlfriends, but of course being a good listener doesn't seal the deal in the long run in the absence of some other things. Nowadays I get agitated when a girl keeps talking to me and talking and talking and talking. I pretty much don't find it worth it to have a steady girlfriend anymore, and cannot stand to have to "listen". I just don't find people interesting and rarely talk about even myself, I usually only enter a conversation if it has some kind of existential concern.