My life is falling apart!!

[Colossal Spoons]

I'll have to go consult my friends first, is there a "maybe" box?

Would I be out of line to call you a "poopy head"?

Girls stink and boyz rule!

 

[Erzengel]

Neil Diamond! I want to see the divorce rate cut in HALF!

TODAY!!!!!

 

[Space Moose]

Okay, I am currently engaged, as many of you know… I love my girl to death, she is everything to me, she is probably the only reason I am alive and well today (whole other story)…… this last Friday was almost the end of me… I was getting mad, because she just finished up with school (took summer classes to finish early), and she stayed out this past Thursday after work, to just hang with some co-workers (play darts), I was mad because she never told me where she was (we live together BTW), well she got home around midnight, which is really late for her, she told me where she was, but I was still mad…. Well Friday came, I never gave her a kiss or hug goodbye, I was still mad at her, later that day I messaged her “so how was “playing’” darts, I’m not an idiot BTW”… well that Friday night came, she was working again (waitressing), I went out with my friends, I got home at about 1am, and she wasn’t home, so I got furious (I was drinking to much that night too) and drove down to her work, where I ordered her outside, and yelled at her like no other, I was in her face… some of her co-workers came out, and I started yelling at them…. Katie pleaded with me to calm down, and that she was just about done, and was going to come home, she asked me to wait with her…..I said I would wait by her car… well I waited about 2 minutes, then grabbed a piece of paper and wrote “I’m done with you, don’t expect to see me ever again”… well needless to say, she never came home that night….. when I realized she wasn’t coming home at around 4am, I freaked out (amazing what you realize when you sober up)… I tried calling her over and over again… I was literally breaking apart… she only messaged me once, saying she was fine, and that she would talk to me tomorrow night when she got home from work…

Well, that Saturday, I was a wreck, I haven’t cried in about 10 years, but I was breaking down like no other that day….. I couldn’t eat anything, I felt like puking… I finally got her to message me again, she said that she still loved me, but she’s need some time right now to figure things out……. Well, after reading that, I knew that she was concerned about me, and if I really did love her… so I went out, and bought her a big thing of flowers, and wrote a short note saying that I was so sorry, and that I love her more then anything…. I then had my friend drop them off at her work that night….. well, she finally did come home that night, and we talked, cried, but I could sense that what I did, caused more then a flesh wound to her, I hurt her deep inside…… just knowing that is killing me right now… I still haven’t ate anything… it’s been 2.5 days since my last meal….

I told her yesterday, that I am going to go back to counseling, and that I want her to come along… that I want to change (my temper on Friday was only the tip of the ice-berg. I have belittled her so much in the past, made fun of her meanly, ripped on her family, I have been tearing at her insides for awhile now),

I told her that she makes me want to be a better person… I told her, from now on, I will treat her like I first did when we dated, like a princess…. This past weekend has been so hard on me, harder then my accident a few months ago, harder then anything….. but I also think this weekend was the best thing for us… I finally realized what I have become.. that I have been nothing but a superb jack-@ss to her… but the thing is, I can still tell she his hurt deep inside… do you think her wounds will heal overtime… is there something I can do to reassure her that I am going to change…..???

What a baby.

 

[Colossal Spoons]

No I don't have a negative outlook on life. I do however have a negative outlook on people who verbally abuse females and be little them in pubic.

I agree, but I'm really trying to give JN the benfit of the doubt in that he wants to change and that this story can end happily. Now, if I give him my suppport and he goes to therapy but reverts back to his old ways, then I'll feel like an ass.

 

[AndThePickles]

Would I be out of line to call you a "poopy head"?

Girls stink and boyz rule!

That's no way to get me to go out with you.

 

[JokerNick]

What a baby.

nothing like the comments of a 19 year old.....

 

[Wilhelm-Scream]

"poopy head"

*Cyber-Bully*

 

[JokerNick]

No I don't have a negative outlook on life. I do however have a negative outlook on people who verbally abuse females and be little them in pubic.

did someone hurt you bad or something in the past..... it seems that you don't realize that people **** up... i ****ed up.... people change all the time,. and I think the fact that I'm telling you I'm going to change over and over again, should show you that I am serious about that... and that iv'e called a shrink already...

 

[Erzengel]

I'm not a big believer in change. I think people can grow but not really capable of a 180 change.

 

[Colossal Spoons]

That's no way to get me to go out with you.

Cobra Commander > You

 

[Space Moose]

nothing like the comments of a 19 year old.....

Thanks. I'll try not to cry about it...

 

[Colossal Spoons]

I'm not a big believer in change. I think people can grow but not really capable of a 180 change.

It wouldn't be a 180 though. Public belittling could turn into private criticism. Contol freak check-ins could become routine calls to ensure safety. Stuff like that. It'd be like a 120

 

[Ultimate_Superman]

did someone hurt you bad or something in the past..... it seems that you don't realize that people **** up... i ****ed up.... people change all the time,. and I think the fact that I'm telling you I'm going to change over and over again, should show you that I am serious about that... and that iv'e called a shrink already...

I can tell you over and over again that I am going to get a million dollars but am I going to get it? Look here you are spending hours trying to explain yourself to the board when that time can be spent looking for and calling around for people who maybe able to help you.

 

[Ultimate_Superman]

If you are really going to change then do so and prove me wrong until then I will think what I think.

 

[Wilhelm-Scream]

I want to add that thread title is cracking me up.
It's beyond Emo, screaming out at me..."MY LIFE IS FALLING APART!" hahaha

 

[Erzengel]

It wouldn't be a 180 though. Public belittling could turn into private criticism. Contol freak check-ins could become routine calls to ensure safety. Stuff like that. It'd be like a 120

I sometimes till grab a gf by the arm in public and say "You wait til we get home." or "What have I told you about talking back." just so I can hear strangers say "That poor girl."

 

[Space Moose]

I want to add that thread title is cracking me up.
It's beyond Emo, screaming out at me..."MY LIFE IS FALLING APART!" hahaha

Hahahaha!!

Oh, hilarity...

 

[JokerNick]

Thanks. I'll try not to cry about it...

but you'll comment on it... ahhh nothing like people, who complain about people complianing

 

[Boom]

I sometimes till grab a gf by the arm in public and say "You wait til we get home." or "What have I told you about talking back." just so I can hear strangers say "That poor girl."

Hahahahahahahahaha.

 

[Colossal Spoons]

I sometimes till grab a gf by the arm in public and say "You wait til we get home." or "What have I told you about talking back." just so I can hear strangers say "That poor girl."

Reminds me of an episode of Curb Your Enthusiasm where Larry pretended to beat Sheryl in their car after a party. People saw it, and thought he was an abuser for a while. The bruise she got on her arm(from something totally unrelated) didn't help either.

 

[Ultimate_Superman]

I sometimes till grab a gf by the arm in public and say "You wait til we get home." or "What have I told you about talking back." just so I can hear strangers say "That poor girl."

see in your case your joking around in his case he means it.

 

[Ultimate_Superman]

Reminds me of an episode of Curb Your Enthusiasm where Larry pretended to beat Sheryl in their car after a party. People saw it, and thought he was an abuser for a while. The bruise she got on her arm(from something totally unrelated) didn't help either.

I love that show it is funny as hell. I just wonder why Jerry never been up there yet.

 

[Space Moose]

but you'll comment on it... ahhh nothing like people, who complain about people complianing

D'oh.... Curse your wit and wisdom!

 

[Erzengel]

Reminds me of an episode of Curb Your Enthusiasm where Larry pretended to beat Sheryl in their car after a party. People saw it, and thought he was an abuser for a while. The bruise she got on her arm(from something totally unrelated) didn't help either.

One time "messing" around I grabbed my gf so that she had 5 finger printed bruises around her arm and she had to explain to her co-workers that I do not in fact beat her. Good times.

 

[Space Moose]

One time "messing" around I grabbed my gf so that she had 5 finger printed bruises around her arm and she had to explain to her co-workers that I do not in fact beat her. Good times.

Good times to roll on!!!