I need to vent a little, and this is the first place I thought of.
Heres my situation.
Im 20 years old, and I am in deeply love with a girl. Shes beautiful, like
AMAZINGLY gorgeous
and shes also my best friend in the whole world. Ive loved her since 6th grade
back before I even knew what love was. She doesnt know how I feel about her.
The problem is, she has a boyfriend, and he is also my friend.
He treats her like absolute garbage.
He calls her trash.
He wont return her calls.
Hes always too busy to be with her.
He never makes time for her.
He has cheated on her numerous times (and we know this).
He has been demanding her to have sex with him since the first month they were dating, and shes been saying no ever since (which is why he cheats).
Theyve been together for 3 ½ years.
She wont dump him. Shes afraid of being alone. She was abused as a child, so the abuse from her boyfriend makes her feel normal, because being treated like garbage is the only thing shes ever known since childhood. If she were to be treated like gold... it would be a very different experience for her, and it would almost feel strange, since its against everything she was treated like when she was little.
The three of us go to separate colleges
but she is transferring to my college next year.
That makes me happy, but at the same time, it makes me nervous that I wont be able to hide my feelings for her any more.
She calls me every day, and every night
and we talk for roughly 3 hours a day. She talks to her boyfriend for about 10 minutes everyday (or some days not at all, because he doesnt feel like it).
She and I have a strong connection. She means the world to me (although Im not sure the feeling is mutual). Ive spent the night at her house numerous times (without her boyfriend knowing), and I am always there for her when she is down (and just there, period).
Honestly, I love her.
Id do anything for her. I wish she could know that I would treat her way better than this guy ever would. I would hold her, cherish her, kiss her, cuddle with her when shes having a bad day
I would freakin love her until it made her sick. I would love her TOO MUCH... lol.
I wish she could know that she doesnt have to be treated like garbage. I wish she could know that there is a guy right here who is head over heels for her.
She doesnt know I feel this way. She doesnt know that she would be treated like the queen she is if I was with her
and that I would put her high on her pedestal, and show off to the world that Im the luckiest man in the universe for having such a gift from God.
But you see, the thing is
I cant tell her these things.
Shes my best friend.
Two things could happen if I told her:
1.) She feels the same way, she dumps her boyfriend, and her and I live happily ever after.
2.) She DOESNT feel the same way, and our friendship is strange forever, and possibly destroyed... because she now knows how I feel about her.
So, because I cant tell her how I feel, she will remain to be treated like crap, and I will remain to have a heart that aches because I cant be with her. Every time she calls me, and I see her name on my phone, my heart just ACHES at the fact that I have to listen to how this queen is being treated like garbage
and I cant do a damn thing about it.
Nice guys finish last
and my life is a living hell because of it.
My question is
what would you do? Would you risk 8 years of friendship to tell her how you feel? Or would you keep it a secret forever and always be her best friend, without any consequences?
Help me.
EDIT: So I had to edit some stuff because some people aren't mature enough to read it seriously. They'd rather call me a creepy stalker, as opposed to just a normal guy who has feelings for a girl. For christ's sakes.
Seriously.
