I'm finished.
I stand in the penthouse apartment in a recently-constructed high rise building, the apartments inside not yet on the public market. One of several properties peppered throughout the city that my newly-made contacts have enabled me to acquire. The police is looking for me, I know that. Gordon's new MCU is heading the hunt. But I'm not hiding. I'm right here, in the heart of Gotham, looking out my window at the city festering below.
Gotham City is a monster. It eats people up, good people, and spits them out. It drains all the good right out of you. It seems like an eternity ago now, when that plane took me from New York into Gotham for that mutant benefit. I should never have come back here, it was hard enough escaping the first time round. It's like... it's like this city doesn't want to let any of its souls go. You work hard, try to be a better person, try and get the hell out... and it's like the city rises up to drag you back down to the gutter, back down to it's level.
But not only did I come back, I
stayed. Because in spite of it all, I was in the thrall of the cruelest of human conditions. Hope. I had hope for a better Gotham. I believed in this city. And crazy as it might be, a part of me still does. There are good people here, people like Jim Gordon, people like Batman. It is possible to save this city from itself, I was so close to doing it.
So close...
Now look at me. I've lost everything. I've lost my face. I've lost my reputation. I've lost my wife. I've lost my moral compass. I... I crossed a line when I killed Maroni. When I killed for the first time, when I became a murderer, it's like something broke inside me, something I can never fix. And from there, I feel like I've left nothing but corpses in my wake.
What have I done? What have I become? The monster that is Gotham City has made a monster out of me. When I unleashed a side of myself that I'd kept buried for decades, when I... when I let Two-Face out of the basement, that was it for me. I had no choice. I needed... I need to save Gotham City, and Maroni showed me I could never do that through the impotent legal system. I had to end it. I had to
end it! I had to end it, but I couldn't. Only Two-Face could,
his way.
I thought that, once I wiped out Gotham's organised crime infrastructure, I would free the city from the malevolent force that has been suffocating it for generations, that finally I would see a light at the end of the tunnel. I thought it would be over. But more and more, I see that's not the case. Gordon saw it too. It never ends. It will never be over. Crime and corruption is too entrenched in Gotham to ever be fully purged, it's in the foundations. You scew with the foundations, and you risk the whole deck of cards coming toppling down. That's what almost happened, without the gang leaders. Anarchy, chaos on the streets. There always has to be someone in charge, someone ruling the criminal underworld. There always has to be someone...
I am in blood stepp'd in so far, that should I wade no more, returning would be as tedious as go o'er.
I don't think I really got Shakespeare when I was a kid. But now I know what Macbeth was going through. I know how it feels to compromise yourself, to step over the line and get blood on your hands, and all of a sudden find yourself king. What do you do then? Confess your crimes to make yourself feel better, and let the kingdom you sacrificed so much to get go to hell? No, you keep on going, wading deeper and deeper into that pool of blood you're making for yourself, voyaging deeper and deeper into damnation to preserve an idea, to keep that shred of hope that you can make things better alive.
Two-Face is a golem, I can see that now. I let him out of his box to fix things, but now I'm stuck with him. Because I need to be that someone. I need to be king, so I can make things better. I'm Maroni now, I'm Falcone. But I'm not. I can be better than them, I can use their power the right way, to try and save Gotham. That's still all I want to do. Now it's the only thing I have left. Gotham City.
My home.
My burden.
"My city."
THE END