IC:
Batman/Bruce Wayne
I speed past the holographic entrance to the cave, and enter the tunnels. The roar of the engine being the only thing to take my mind off of everything that's went wrong tonight. And
that's a list that could go on. Reaching the end of the tunnels, I slow the cycle down, before coming to a stop in the main part of the cavern area. Shutting off the cycle, I stand, removing my helmet, before letting it drop to the ground. I'd pick it up... but right now, I'm at a bit of a loss for
morality.
Walking up the trail that leads to the computer and labratory area that Alfred and I built, I stop, coming across a photo of the last people I want to see, right now. My parents.
They look so happy. So carefree of everything. I can't help but think of how quickly those smiles would fade if they knew how detiererated the city had become. And worse... I'm beginning to think of how much faster they'd fade if they knew about what I had become. I pick up the photo, and touch it. The only thing I see is the reflection of myself, in the cowl. A lost soul trying to make himself a new one.
Damn it all. This isn't right. None of it is right.
I put the photo down, and quickly pull off my mask. The only thing that makes a sound for the next few moments are the chittering Bats roosted above me. But even they barely make a sound. Then, I do something I know I'll regret.
I kick over the table infront of me, in anger. Test tubes shatter on the cavern ground. Papers go flying. Batarangs sprawl across spilled chemicals. My work laid out infront of me... Literally. I imagine the table as The Creeper... as Dent... as Luthor. But then, I imagine it as myself. And the pathetic prentender I tried to be tonight. I almost kick it again, but I know that's not going to do any good.
I have to rise above this. I know I should. But too many people have died because of my compassion for humanity. And I know this wasn't the only path I could've taken... But it was the most logical. Now it just seems like all I've made is one big mistake. This wouldn't honor my parents; This would shame them.
"...Maybe this is a bad time."
I turn, hearing a voice that detracts me from the anger screaming in my head. Rachel stands at the cave's Souteast corridor. Great. She's seen me like this. As if the night couldn't get any worse.
"You stayed?", I ask, looking at the table again.
"Yeah. After the way you left... I wanted to make sure you were alright.", She begins, before looking at the table.
"I guess I know that answer now."
I remember the reasoning behind our partnership. I was going to find and provide her with incriminating evidence towards Falcone. We were going to take him down through the legal system. And now-
-And now he's dead. And it's my fault.
"I failed.", I finally say, after a moment of silence.
"I failed you. I failed them. I failed everyone."
"You can't honestly believe that."
"No. You don't understand.", I say, angrily, turning to her.
"Falcone's dead. That madman murdered him. And I couldn't stop him in time."
She pauses, for a moment. I can't even tell her reaction at first.
"W-What? How? When did he...", She begins, before finally stopping and staring at me, point blank.
"Falcone's dead? He's really dead?"
I turn away. I can't even face her, this was so closely tied to what our alliance was based off of. I feel like I betrayed that.
"His head was wiped clean off of his neck. His brains are splattered all over the inside of a candy factory in the East End, if you want to see it yourself.", I respond.
She visibly pieces the information together in her mind. I don't think it's really sunk in until now.
"Oh my god..."
The Roman died tonight. His reign as Gotham's number one crimelord has come to an end. The man wasn't decent in any form of the word; He was evil. Plain and simple. The fact that he died doesn't win any remorse for me. It's the
way he died. And the way he should've died not reaching fruition.
Rachel looks back up at me.
"Now what?"
I walk past her, heading towards the area where I store my costume.
"Don't ask me.", I say.
"I'm obviously not capable of handling a situation like this."
She follows me, slowly.
"You tried, didn't you?", She argues.
"That's all that anyone would've asked, Bruce. Don't blame yourself for something that was beyond your control."
"That's the problem.", I respond, stopping in my tracks.
"What do you mean?"
"I arrived there a minute before Falcone was killed. I was right infront of the man that did it. And instead of doing what should've been done, I ...threatened him. Because I was too afraid to do what Luthor would've done."
"Lex Luthor?"
"He was there. Had The Creeper at point blank range with a gun, ready to kill him. Would've done it too, had I not burst through the skylight and stopped him.", I respond.
She raises an eyebrow.
"You're saying that killing him is what you should've done?"
I sigh.
"It would've saved Falcone, wouldn't it?"
"And made you as bad as him.", She says, a little angrily.
"Look, I know you're not feeling too good about yourself right now... But you did do the right thing. You didn't kill anyone, which still makes you better than many of the people I've come across in this city."
"And Falcone's dead.", I argue.
"The right thing would've been to prevent that. No matter what the cost."
"Even your morality?"
"My morality kills people!", I yell.
My eyes widen, realising the tone I took. I almost expect to scare her off... But Rachel simply crosses her arms, narrowing her eyes at me.
"Don't look at me like that. You of all people know it's true. Vernon Fields died because I couldn't kill Two-Face. Falcone died because I couldn't kill Creeper.", I say, finally turning around.
"Maybe my parents died because I couldn't kill their murderer."
"You were eight years old, Bruce! Eight! Just a kid.", She snaps, catching me off guard.
"You're wrong in blaming yourself for their deaths just like you're wrong in blaming yourself for Falcone's, and I damn well am not going to stand by and let you tear yourself apart for it."
I remain silent, for a moment. She doesn't understand. How
could she understand? And why does she even care? Falcone's dead. The only real reason we even know eachother is because we were going to take him down through the justice system. Now that can't happen... She has almost no reason to care anymore.
"Why do you care?", I finally ask, in a softer tone.
"About wha-"
"-About me.", I continue.
"Why do you care about whether or not I tear myself apart? Falcone's dead, taking possibly the biggest case of your career with him.", I say.
"Why should what I do even matter to you right now?"
She walks up to me. We're barely even inches apart, as she looks into my eyes, preventing me to look away. Which... I definatley want to do, right now.
"Why did you risk your life to help a person I considered a best friend?", She asks.
"Why did you trust me with your identity? Why invite me to your party, even offering to take me home when Harvey came back? Maybe my answer's the same as your's, Bruce. Maybe it isn't. But in the short time I've known you, you've shown me something that no one else has, in my entire life. You've shown me that there are genuninely good people in this world. And in all places for it to be, it shows it up to save the worst city in the world.", She says.
"And now you're beating yourself up for that. It just goes to show me how messed up this city can be, to where even the good people lose hope."
I try to look away, but she stops me, stepping into my path of vision.
"Sure, you dress up like a giant Bat. Your motives were questionable from day one... Alot of people thought you were just insane as some like the Creeper. Even I thought so, before I met you.", She admits.
"But you know what you're doing. Or at least you did. I don't know if you still do, seeing how you're acting now. But Bruce... Batman is what this city has needed for years. If you can't see that, then you really are insane."
I slowly shake my head.
"But what about Falc-"
"-You also make mistakes. We all do it. Because we're human. You're not like that Flash or Nazi-Superman that I've heard about... You're just a man.", She continues, cutting me off.
"But that doesn't mean you can't make just as big of a difference. You're already getting there, with all of the people you have stopped and brought to justice.", She says, looking up at me.
"Remember them?"
She... No. She's wrong. Doesn't understand. Doesn't have blood on her hands... How could she ever under-
She's right. Damn it. I shouldn't give up just because I failed... I knew failures to be inevitable, even though I told myself they weren't an option. But what now?
"So what now?", I ask.
She manages one thing that I could've never imagined, in this moment: A smile.
"You could start by changing out of this suit and having a cup of coffee.", She says. I raise an eyebrow at that.
"It'll help you relax a little more... not be as tense about tonight. Maybe even take your mind off of it."
"That's... a bit doubtful, wouldn't you say?", I ask.
"There's no harm in trying.", She answers.
I stare at her. This isn't a side I've ever seen of her before. I don't really know how to feel about it... But... somehow, I end up nodding my head, in agreement.
"Alright. I'll go upstairs and leave you alone to... well, however you take this stuff off.", She says, a little confused at the arrangement of the armor, before turning.
"Rachel..."
She turns, looking at me.
"You really think all of that?", I ask.
"Well... Yes. Actually, I do.", She says.
I nod, and she leaves leaving me alone in the darkness. Huh. A protector and firm believer in the good of Gotham City, an idealist, and a temper to match her dedication. Sounds like someone I used to know.
Maybe someone I need to find again...