What's on your mind?

[Hobgoblin]

I was diagnosed as bipolar when I was 22 years old. I have scoliosis and it has given me really painful arthritis in my lower back. There is also the issue of my hyperlipidemia.

I recently earned my masters degree but still have had trouble finding work. This month is 9 years that I have been working retail. I work in a supermarket deli and the long hours of standing kills my arthritis.

I do get depressed at times but at least it isnt like the old days. Those got pretty damn dark at times.

 

[Rodrigo90]

I hope you get the right job that suits you one day
I have physical problems as well and I know how bad it can be to have a job that adds pain.
I used to work in a shop delivering furniture and it had to completely stop because it was adding strain to my body and heart.

 

[FrozenBanana00]

I'm just down right now. My job sucks. I've been there a year but right now there's hardly any work coming in for me to do. So, each day I walk into work with nothing to do, and things that take me 10/20minutes I have to drag out to an hour. It's been like this since before June.

 

[Rodrigo90]

A work place is supposed to be a place of satisfaction!
What are your options? Think a change of career might work?l better?

 

[Sundancer]

I was diagnosed as bipolar when I was 22 years old. I have scoliosis and it has given me really painful arthritis in my lower back. There is also the issue of my hyperlipidemia.

I recently earned my masters degree but still have had trouble finding work. This month is 9 years that I have been working retail. I work in a supermarket deli and the long hours of standing kills my arthritis.

I do get depressed at times but at least it isnt like the old days. Those got pretty damn dark at times.

We sound similar except for the bipolar aspect. I have thoracic outlet syndrome, and symptoms are similar to arthritis and tendinitis. I think we even have the same Masters' degree, and I'm still looking as well.

 

[FrozenBanana00]

A work place is supposed to be a place of satisfaction!
What are your options? Think a change of career might work?l better?

I just hate being quiet. I like being busy and it's not like I can mess around on my phone or anything. I work in an office, a Junior Secretary you could say. The rest complain about how busy they are and I'm sitting there wondering why I'm even there. The other woman I work with, the two of us the only ones there full time, she's applied for another job and got an interview today. So, I feel that she's going to be leaving soon, and I can't exactly leave as well. I hate it, really. It's bringing me down so much.

 

[Rodrigo90]

I just hate being quiet. I like being busy and it's not like I can mess around on my phone or anything. I work in an office, a Junior Secretary you could say. The rest complain about how busy they are and I'm sitting there wondering why I'm even there. The other woman I work with, the two of us the only ones there full time, she's applied for another job and got an interview today. So, I feel that she's going to be leaving soon, and I can't exactly leave as well. I hate it, really. It's bringing me down so much.

I think you should start looking for a new career if it doesn't pick up.
See what other options are available.

If it's dragging you down, you really shouldn't stay.

 

[FrozenBanana00]

I think you should start looking for a new career if it doesn't pick up.
See what other options are available.

If it's dragging you down, you really shouldn't stay.

Thank you. I used to quite enjoy it, till recently. Now I hate it and dread going. I just don't know what other job I'd like. I like the idea of a 9-5 job, but in a more laid back office. Where you can wear what you want and stuff. Or is that only american companies? I just want to be able to work at my own pace instead or doing a go slow because there isn't enough work.

 

[Rodrigo90]

Thank you. I used to quite enjoy it, till recently. Now I hate it and dread going. I just don't know what other job I'd like. I like the idea of a 9-5 job, but in a more laid back office. Where you can wear what you want and stuff. Or is that only american companies? I just want to be able to work at my own pace instead or doing a go slow because there isn't enough work.

Honestly, it'll make you even more ill if you keep going. Ride it out a little longer, and if things don't improve, then start searching for something you'd really like. It's hard, but it's worth it if your health and sanity are at risk.

 

[FrozenBanana00]

Honestly, it'll make you even more ill if you keep going. Ride it out a little longer, and if things don't improve, then start searching for something you'd really like. It's hard, but it's worth it if your health and sanity are at risk.

Yeah, I think that's a good plan. Especially if my other colleague gets that job. I just don't want them to make me the new her. The amount of stress they put on her is ridiculous. I'll try and wait to see how things go, then decide from there.

 

[Rodrigo90]

Don't be afraid of change. Like I said, it's going to be difficult, but just imagine how much it'll be worth it when you're at a new place.
Just ride it out a bit, then decide

 

[FrozenBanana00]

Don't be afraid of change. Like I said, it's going to be difficult, but just imagine how much it'll be worth it when you're at a new place.
Just ride it out a bit, then decide

Thanks for the kind words. It means a lot and I just hope that things work themselves out. And hopefully I'll be feeling my usual self again.

 

[Rodrigo90]

Thanks for the kind words. It means a lot and I just hope that things work themselves out. And hopefully I'll be feeling my usual self again.

It's no problem
Just give yourself a bit of time, and you will get back to your old self. It may not seem that way right now, but just hold on and you'll see it for yourself.

 

[Tanin]

I have had to deal with Bipolar disorder as I've been diagnosed with it when I was 24. I also have to deal with my mother who has bipolar disorder and had major problems since she was twelve or so. She is at the point where she needs ECT (Electroconvulsive therapy) as nothing else works.

I am more worried I'll end up as bad as she is.

 

[Rodrigo90]

I'm really sorry to hear that.

Your mother is very lucky to have you.
I can't imagine coping with all that is any bit of easy.
Don't let yourself be consumed by those thoughts though. The worry is understandable, but don't let it put fear in you. You don't know what bridges you may have to cross in the future and you cross them when faced with them. But right now you've got to remain strong. Not just for your mother, but for yourself. Don't allow these fears to trap you from living your life. I'm guessing your mother is your life constantly and you deserve all the respect in the world for that. The sacrifices your making for her, as she probably made for you, as good mothers do for their children.
The sacrifices she made was for your well being. Made for you to live your life and your fear is holding you in a place of fear, which I can imagine stops you living your life.

You'll always be there for your mother, of course you will. But you should try to enjoy yourself as much as you can. Take your mind of those fears. It will probably be hard for you, but don't let the voice that forces you stay behind to hold you. You'll have bad days AND good days. When you have just a shred of that good feeling, make the most of it the best you can. It can be horrible, but it's important for you to remember that you CAN enjoy yourself, no matter how rare it is. That's what I did in my depression. I had the memories of brief postivity and it gave me the will to hold on for more happy days to come. And believe me, there are good days to come, even in the darkness. Just keep waiting for that light at the end and make the most of it til you're pulled back. And when you're dragged, keep on walking that long walk again, til you reach the light once more. Do that for your mother and yourself

 

[Rodrigo90]

Giving the memory of Robin William's passing 3 years ago today, I thought it would be fitting to resurrect this thread. It was designed for our members to share their burdens and, hopefully, have them eased by other members who understand their plights.

 

[Hobgoblin]

Giving the memory of Robin William's passing 3 years ago today, I thought it would be fitting to resurrect this thread. It was designed for our members to share their burdens and, hopefully, have them eased by other members who understand their plights.

The good news is that I'm out of the supermarket deli, got married last year and we bought our house in May. I love my wife to death, as she gets me in a lot of ways most people dont. She is also bipolar so she knows my warning signs when I am in a downward mood.

I'm much less infatuated with her family, which lives 5 minutes away. They are hardcore Christian Trump supporters and I am a liberal atheist. The tension is thick, but I've tried to be a respectful son in law. They have been rude as hell, but fortunately I have learned to talk back to them. The dad is a mega bigot and the mom is becoming a religious "fanatic" (my wife's words, not mine.) My brother in law has aspergers syndrome, and while I don't blame him for his condition, he does irritate the hell out of me. This is extra true when he starts spouting off racist bs like his dad does.

They don't really say anything to my face anymore, but they clearly talk behind my back. My mother in law left a voice mail for my wife this week suggesting a new job for me, but said it was a conservative archive and derisively said "I don't know if your LIBERAL husband would take it." (I would.)

Last night we went out to dinner for my brother in laws birthday and they started talking about Abraham Lincoln, Vampire Hunter. I was a history major, so the terrible lack of knowledge in the US about history grates on me. They know I don't like that movie but I don't make a big deal about it. They mentioned to my sister in law's bf that I don't like it and he looked at me and said if I don't like it he loves it. I have had next to no contact with this guy so I don't know where that came from, besides my in laws talking. Then again, that guy is so dumb he won't play board games with us because he is self conscious about his lack of knowledge. And that not sour grapes, my sister in law says he is dumb, too.

I don't care what these morons think, but I am concerned what they will teach our kids when we have them. Ffs, my father in law is happy when he hears about the violence in Chicago and my mother in law says the school she teaches at is haunted and needs an exorcism. Our new house has already been blessed by a pastor ( which I dealt with, if it makes my wife feel better, so be it) and they thought our apartment had a demon, too. So did the house I grew up in, I'm told.