Ultimatehero
Life is infinite
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Dude, if you're a 23 year old writer and you're already resting on the laurels that 'higher ups' love your scripts, I would quite seriously considering pulling my head out. Just sayin'.
If you mean my egotistical side (pride and vanity)? Yeah, I'm working on getting my emotional age up to where my professional age is. I sorta feel like Clark Kent in the beginning of the last season of SV shouting to Jor-El about all I've done and then being slapped across the face with "you're one arrogant S.O.B!" That's the dark side I'm currently wrestling with. I'm already hard on myself with that.
As to it actually happening? As said, it's a HIGH UP company that I can not name since I feel like that is privileged information. My last script, the VP stated he wanted to buy and everyone in the office loved. If they weren't working on something similar, they've all said - they would have bought it. I never expected that script to go that far. Just a reading sample. I just expected, "it's ok, entertaining, more work - you could be good" - but not that by a long shot lol. And ever since then they've been on my ass interested in what I'm working on next. I don't even bring it up, they automatically go "what are you working on? Let me read it! Can't wait." I'm not fooling you. They're currently interested in more than two of my screenplays and are awaiting the finalized scripts. And this is a MAJOR studio lol. I have no idea how I got here. Getting here and getting that response so fast from them was an ego booster in both a good and bad way (bad in that it showed me how vanity can get the worst of me) and I'm working on that part.
I'm my own worst critic too. Super low self esteem, wallowing in self loathing, getting out of it via sarcasm. That's why I relate to the webhead. Basically this super high up company evidently believes in me more than I do. As said, I go in expecting them to knock me down - they just raise me further up. It's... surreal is the only word for it.
Long story short. Head is not up my ass in regards to the studio, that still feels unreal to me. I have no idea how it's happening so fast. But, egotistically - yes my head is very far up my ass it's unreal. And, as said, I hate that side of me and I'm trying to work on it. I don't want to become fake.
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