Eddie Brock
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Season I - Part 70
You know those days that just sort of seem to drag on? When your good friend Time betrays you, and the clock ticks mercilessly - mockingly, even - on the wall. Every hour feels like a lifetime, and every second drains a little more of your soul. You know the kind? Yeah, I'm having one of those days. It sure as Hell doesn't help that I'm stuck in European History. Of all the classes to drag, Fate chose this one. It's yet another practical joke that the universe decided to pull on me. Fate, it seems, has a sadistic sense of humor.
Anyway, after surviving - barely - European History, I make my way to lunch with high hopes. Like most other things in my life, hope proves to be elusive. I find myself detached from everyone around me, and despite the uproar of rowdy, joyous conversations from my classmates, I find the silence of my thoughts to be deafening. My appetite dances just beyond my reach, and I end up staring at my food more than touching it. I usually pride myself on setting new records on Grilled Cheese Day, but today will contain no milestones.
Pre-Calculus lurks around the corner to add to my woes. Now, on top of feeling melancholic and exhausted, I can throw 'confused' into the mix. My emotions stir up like one big, weird melting pot. Eventually, I can't even tell how I feel anymore. I think this is how the word 'blah' was created. That's the only possible word in the Queen's English that I can find to appropriately describe my mood. Not that I ever pay attention in Pre-Calc, but I am especially distant when my teacher begins to prattle about numerical derivatives and the like. I never liked math, anyway.
Coming down the stretch, I trudge onward to gym. A nice game of volleyball awakens me from my emotional slumber, but it is only a temporary reprieve. After the first set, I decide to sit it out. My teammates aren't exuberant about that - I'm usually one of the better players - but they can see that I'm just not in the mood to do anything. I slump down onto the bleachers and watch the next match. My attention is far from focused, however, and I end up looking around the gym. My stomach sinks when I see Brooke talking to her friends on the bleachers across from me. We make brief eye contact, but she pretends not to notice. I make my decision right then.
I'm going to talk to her tonight.
With conviction invigorating my mind and body, the last period of the day - Art - flies by with unparalleled speed. I finish my crude still life drawing of a fruit bowl with only a little time to spare before the final bell rings. I'm one of the first students out of the class, and I make my way to my locker with a noticeable gait in my walk.
Tonight's the night.
I decide to dedicate my afternoon to myself. Lord knows I have plenty of thoughts racing through my head, and I need to take some time to sort them all out. As soon as I get home, I catch a quick 20 minute nap. After shoveling some overdue food into my throat, I grab my cell phone and head out. I don't even know where I'm going until I get there. Within half an hour, I find myself standing at the water's edge at Carver Lake.
You're going to set everything straight.
I bend down and retrieve the flattest stone I can find. Clutching it softly in my palm for a moment, I stare out over the calm waters of the lake. After a deep breath, I flick my wrist and release the stone. It skips a couple of times over the surface before plummeting to the unknown depths below. I stand motionless and allow the wind to circle and embrace my body for some time after that. I notice an empty pier and make my way to it. Removing my shoes and socks, I allow my feet to glaze over the same surface that the rock violated. Something about being so intimate with nature calms my soul.
Then, as if society cannot allow the environment to go undisturbed, my phone rings. I move very slowly as I pull it from my pocket. The little screen reads, "JIM." I pull my feet out of the water and answer the phone.
"Hey."
"Yo, man, are you doing anything?" Jim asks casually.
"Right now?" I inquire back.
Jim coughs. "Yeah," he replies simply.
I look around at Carver Lake. "Technically, no," I admit, "But I'm not home right now, and I'm thinking about heading over to Brooke's house later."
"Oh, really?" Jim asks surprised. "Are you two going to finally go back to what you used to be?"
I shrug. "If all goes well," I explain uncertainly. I put my shoes and socks back on. "We'll hang tomorrow."
"That's cool. Do what you gotta do, man," Jim suggests. He's always been so supportive - especially of my relationship with Brooke. I think he enjoyed seeing his two best friends so happy. He might have lived a little vicariously through us.
"I'll call you tomorrow when I get up," I promise. After our goodbyes, I hang up the phone and return it to its proper place in my pocket. With another deep, cleansing breath, I leave Carver Lake behind. My peaceful retreat was much welcomed - even if it was only temporary.
Anyway, after surviving - barely - European History, I make my way to lunch with high hopes. Like most other things in my life, hope proves to be elusive. I find myself detached from everyone around me, and despite the uproar of rowdy, joyous conversations from my classmates, I find the silence of my thoughts to be deafening. My appetite dances just beyond my reach, and I end up staring at my food more than touching it. I usually pride myself on setting new records on Grilled Cheese Day, but today will contain no milestones.
Pre-Calculus lurks around the corner to add to my woes. Now, on top of feeling melancholic and exhausted, I can throw 'confused' into the mix. My emotions stir up like one big, weird melting pot. Eventually, I can't even tell how I feel anymore. I think this is how the word 'blah' was created. That's the only possible word in the Queen's English that I can find to appropriately describe my mood. Not that I ever pay attention in Pre-Calc, but I am especially distant when my teacher begins to prattle about numerical derivatives and the like. I never liked math, anyway.
Coming down the stretch, I trudge onward to gym. A nice game of volleyball awakens me from my emotional slumber, but it is only a temporary reprieve. After the first set, I decide to sit it out. My teammates aren't exuberant about that - I'm usually one of the better players - but they can see that I'm just not in the mood to do anything. I slump down onto the bleachers and watch the next match. My attention is far from focused, however, and I end up looking around the gym. My stomach sinks when I see Brooke talking to her friends on the bleachers across from me. We make brief eye contact, but she pretends not to notice. I make my decision right then.
I'm going to talk to her tonight.
With conviction invigorating my mind and body, the last period of the day - Art - flies by with unparalleled speed. I finish my crude still life drawing of a fruit bowl with only a little time to spare before the final bell rings. I'm one of the first students out of the class, and I make my way to my locker with a noticeable gait in my walk.
Tonight's the night.
I decide to dedicate my afternoon to myself. Lord knows I have plenty of thoughts racing through my head, and I need to take some time to sort them all out. As soon as I get home, I catch a quick 20 minute nap. After shoveling some overdue food into my throat, I grab my cell phone and head out. I don't even know where I'm going until I get there. Within half an hour, I find myself standing at the water's edge at Carver Lake.
You're going to set everything straight.
I bend down and retrieve the flattest stone I can find. Clutching it softly in my palm for a moment, I stare out over the calm waters of the lake. After a deep breath, I flick my wrist and release the stone. It skips a couple of times over the surface before plummeting to the unknown depths below. I stand motionless and allow the wind to circle and embrace my body for some time after that. I notice an empty pier and make my way to it. Removing my shoes and socks, I allow my feet to glaze over the same surface that the rock violated. Something about being so intimate with nature calms my soul.
Then, as if society cannot allow the environment to go undisturbed, my phone rings. I move very slowly as I pull it from my pocket. The little screen reads, "JIM." I pull my feet out of the water and answer the phone.
"Hey."
"Yo, man, are you doing anything?" Jim asks casually.
"Right now?" I inquire back.
Jim coughs. "Yeah," he replies simply.
I look around at Carver Lake. "Technically, no," I admit, "But I'm not home right now, and I'm thinking about heading over to Brooke's house later."
"Oh, really?" Jim asks surprised. "Are you two going to finally go back to what you used to be?"
I shrug. "If all goes well," I explain uncertainly. I put my shoes and socks back on. "We'll hang tomorrow."
"That's cool. Do what you gotta do, man," Jim suggests. He's always been so supportive - especially of my relationship with Brooke. I think he enjoyed seeing his two best friends so happy. He might have lived a little vicariously through us.
"I'll call you tomorrow when I get up," I promise. After our goodbyes, I hang up the phone and return it to its proper place in my pocket. With another deep, cleansing breath, I leave Carver Lake behind. My peaceful retreat was much welcomed - even if it was only temporary.
***
"15 dollars," the old man at the flower shop explains as I display the bouquet that I'm trying to purchase. It's at this exact moment that I remember that my financial situation isn't the greatest in the world. Smiling awkwardly at him, I rummage through my wallet. Unfortunately, I only come across $12.50.
"Heh," I chuckle uncomfortably. I begin to look around the flower shop for a cheaper alternative. I might want to start looking into a good part-time job. Crime fighting doesn't pay well - or at all, actually.
"Just take it," the old man offers.
"Really?"
He smiles. "Are you going to put them to good use?" he asks half-jokingly.
I bite my lip and shrug.
"I hope they help you...with whatever," he laughs. I try to offer him the money I do have, but he waves me off. "Go on."
I smile inwardly and outwardly. There is still kindness in the world. Sometimes, when I'm out fighting the scum of the city, I forget that there's still some humanity left on our little planet. Yet little moments like this make everything worthwhile. You never realize how small gestures can mean so much to so many people.
"Heh," I chuckle uncomfortably. I begin to look around the flower shop for a cheaper alternative. I might want to start looking into a good part-time job. Crime fighting doesn't pay well - or at all, actually.
"Just take it," the old man offers.
"Really?"
He smiles. "Are you going to put them to good use?" he asks half-jokingly.
I bite my lip and shrug.
"I hope they help you...with whatever," he laughs. I try to offer him the money I do have, but he waves me off. "Go on."
I smile inwardly and outwardly. There is still kindness in the world. Sometimes, when I'm out fighting the scum of the city, I forget that there's still some humanity left on our little planet. Yet little moments like this make everything worthwhile. You never realize how small gestures can mean so much to so many people.
***
I rap gently on Brooke's window. I don't want to give her a heart attack. The shadow of night helped me get up the old-fashioned, wall-crawling way. Even so, I sit down on a tree branch for appearances' sake. Lucky for me, Brooke has a tree so close to her house. Otherwise, I'd have to do this the bland way.
"Sean! Do you have a death wish?" Brooke exclaims when she opens her window.
I smile. "Something like that," I reply. I display the bouquet from earlier. "Peace offering?"
Brooke accepts them with a faint smile.
"May I?" I ask, motioning to her room. Brooke steps aside from the window, and I leap in. Upon landing, I realize that I may have shown off a little too much, but I don't think Brooke noticed.
"Let's get right down to it," Brooke suggests, placing her hands on her hips. "Why are you here?"
"Why do you ask questions that you already know the answers to?" I fire back playfully.
"Sean..."
I get up and put my hands gently on Brooke's shoulders. "Brooke, listen to me," I insist.
"What's there to listen to?"
I decide that words aren't going to solve this problem. I need to follow my heart and hope that I haven't overstepped my bounds already. Lowering my hands from Brooke's shoulders to her arms, I pull her in and close my eyes. Moments later, we're locked in a passionate kiss. When the embrace ends, we both exhale calmly without opening our eyes.
"I'm listening," Brooke breathes airily. We both start to laugh lightly.
As Brooke and I continue to embrace, I listen to her breathing and her heartbeat. Everything about her captivates me. I literally feel myself melting for her. She rests her head on my shoulder, and I nearly fall apart right there. I kiss her neck softly, and I feel her arms tense around my neck. I try to think of a happier moment in my life, but memory fails me.
You know those days that just sort of seem to last forever? Time slows down, and you absorb every single moment in its wonderful entirety. You know the kind? Yeah, I'm having one of those days.
"Sean! Do you have a death wish?" Brooke exclaims when she opens her window.
I smile. "Something like that," I reply. I display the bouquet from earlier. "Peace offering?"
Brooke accepts them with a faint smile.
"May I?" I ask, motioning to her room. Brooke steps aside from the window, and I leap in. Upon landing, I realize that I may have shown off a little too much, but I don't think Brooke noticed.
"Let's get right down to it," Brooke suggests, placing her hands on her hips. "Why are you here?"
"Why do you ask questions that you already know the answers to?" I fire back playfully.
"Sean..."
I get up and put my hands gently on Brooke's shoulders. "Brooke, listen to me," I insist.
"What's there to listen to?"
I decide that words aren't going to solve this problem. I need to follow my heart and hope that I haven't overstepped my bounds already. Lowering my hands from Brooke's shoulders to her arms, I pull her in and close my eyes. Moments later, we're locked in a passionate kiss. When the embrace ends, we both exhale calmly without opening our eyes.
"I'm listening," Brooke breathes airily. We both start to laugh lightly.
As Brooke and I continue to embrace, I listen to her breathing and her heartbeat. Everything about her captivates me. I literally feel myself melting for her. She rests her head on my shoulder, and I nearly fall apart right there. I kiss her neck softly, and I feel her arms tense around my neck. I try to think of a happier moment in my life, but memory fails me.
You know those days that just sort of seem to last forever? Time slows down, and you absorb every single moment in its wonderful entirety. You know the kind? Yeah, I'm having one of those days.