How do you react when something like this happens?

I thought that doing the right thing would actually make me feel better. But sadly enough, I just find myself so lonely. I have the misguided urge to just pick up the phone, and just call her. But I know better. Yet, some part of me misses her. Then, the thoughts of what she did to me come rushing back, and I'm overwhelmed to such an extent that I can't help but lie on back and stare at the ceiling sighing over and over again. How stupid could I be? The way to recovery is in the cards, but I never contemplated that it could be so difficult. It just tears me apart. I'm being rude to anyone who says even the slightest aberrant thing. I'm getting buried in depression. Shaking, coz I'm cold. Constantly flinching because of a splitting headache.

I've got my world back, but in the process I've lost my sanity.

Mask, it's not easy man . . . never said it would be; it's downright heartwrenching to go through a breakup of that caliber . . . and I feel for you man, I really do . . .

but in the long run, the depression and feelings will eventually subside and you will become a better, stronger person for it :up: whatever doesn't kill us, makes us . . . you know the rest ;)
 
I thought that doing the right thing would actually make me feel better. But sadly enough, I just find myself so lonely. I have the misguided urge to just pick up the phone, and just call her. But I know better. Yet, some part of me misses her. Then, the thoughts of what she did to me come rushing back, and I'm overwhelmed to such an extent that I can't help but lie on back and stare at the ceiling sighing over and over again. How stupid could I be? The way to recovery is in the cards, but I never contemplated that it could be so difficult. It just tears me apart. I'm being rude to anyone who says even the slightest aberrant thing. I'm getting buried in depression. Shaking, coz I'm cold. Constantly flinching because of a splitting headache.

I've got my world back, but in the process I've lost my sanity.

What you're experiencing is a natural part of the process. But don't let it go on too long. Get yourself out there and just have some fun with your friends and family. Tell them what's going on and how you're feeling, too. Just hang out (stay away from drinking if you can as that'll only exacerbate things) with them, maybe take in some movies or play some games or something with them. Something that will remind you that you're not alone. Do you exercise? That can help with the feelings of depression. You are not alone, though; you have yourself and your dignity. There's not a damn thing wrong with being single, you just need to remember how. Being in a relationship does not define you; it can add to who you already are but it should never be the foundation for who you are. You were you before you met this cheating skank. Work on getting back to who you are and who you want to be. :up:

jag
 
Agreed with everything jag said :up:

In a relationship you almost become institutionalised - like guys that have served large sentences in prison, behind bars for years on end. You need the security of those bars, the certainty that they're there in the morning. But that mindset passes and you get used to living without those bars and start to enjoy life on the outside.

:)
 

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