I'm bowing out of -

[Morg]

I wasn't apologizing!

I see you're feeling much better now because you are enjoying getting on my nerves.

You send Doglips at me when I do that

 

[DBella]

You send Doglips at me when I do that

Doggie doesn't work on you anymore coz he likes it too much when you pet and feed him.

Lately, I've been sending the firing squad to you when you annoy me. Lucky for you that they can't shoot for ****!

 

[Morg]

Doggie doesn't work on you anymore coz he likes it too much when you pet and feed him.

Lately, I've been sending the firing squad to you when you annoy me. Lucky for you that they can't shoot for ****!

So the steaks finally work? Good

and yes I noticed the squad can't hit anything, sure do hit the house next to me though

 

[The Guard]

You realize that the feds probably already know about the sites, right? They use them themselves to catch the people who make the stuff and sell children like animals.

 

[Superhobo]

You realize that the feds probably already know about the sites, right? They use them themselves to catch the people who make the stuff and sell children like animals.

You might be right, and if that's the case, then I feel like a *****ebag.

 

[Superhobo]

So, I'm seeing a therapist Monday.


This feels familiar.

 

[BlackLantern]

commendable that you're trying to clean some of the scum out of the internet, but when it starts affecting your personal health its time to re-think some things..

 

[The Guard]

You might be right, and if that's the case, then I feel like a *****ebag.

If you didn't know how sex crimes task forces work, you didn't know. You've learned something. About the world, and about yourself. Put it in perspective and let it make you stronger as a person.

 

[Superhobo]

Stronger, you say?

 

[BlackLantern]

taking out sites is one thing....if you want to take more direct action, you could go online pose as a minor log all the chats and when someone propositions you call the police....

 

[The Guard]

Stronger. Not weirder.

 

[The Guard]

taking out sites is one thing....if you want to take more direct action, you could go online pose as a minor log all the chats and when someone propositions you call the police....

That's a form of entrapment. If you're not a law enforcement official with a warrant and so forth, it would never stick.

 

[BlackLantern]

That's a form of entrapment. If you're not a law enforcement official with a warrant and so forth, it would never stick.

well then you could just lure them to your house, brain them with a shovel, and bury them alive in your yard....

 

[The Geek Vault]

Wow, That's intense man. But I'd say back down as you say you are doing.

 

[Darthphere]

So, I'm seeing a therapist Monday.


This feels familiar.

No offense, but you're sounding more and more stupid with every post.

 

[Superhobo]

How's that?

I said earlier that I was probably going to the hospital (read - therapist), but I substituted some anti-anxiety medicine for all of it.

I feel fine as yet, but it's really gotten to me, this stuff. It's eek.

 

[Darthphere]

Why exactly was this so traumatic to you?

 

[Superhobo]

Why exactly was this so traumatic to you?

Are you seriously asking this?

 

[Darthphere]

Are you seriously asking this?

I had a PM sent to me of a guy cutting his own penis off, I've seen pictures and video of people getting beheaded, I don't understand why this would cause so much turmoil and angst to the point where you're becoming suicidal and seeing a therapist. It yells of attention ****ing. Sure, you may or may have not seen terrible things, but seriously, I'm not buying for a second that you're this traumatized by it all.

 

[Superhobo]

When did I say I was suicidal?

 

[Superhobo]

I had a PM sent to me of a guy cutting his own penis off, I've seen pictures and video of people getting beheaded, I don't understand why this would cause so much turmoil and angst to the point where you're becoming suicidal and seeing a therapist. It yells of attention ****ing. Sure, you may or may have not seen terrible things, but seriously, I'm not buying for a second that you're this traumatized by it all.

I've got O.C.D., so - combined with everything on the pages, I've got them running back and forth, through my head, unending. That's why, yes, I'll admit that, on the one hand, it was extremely stupid for me to do any of this.

I also received the same picture - it's fake, dude. While it did remain with me for a while, stuff like that circulates places like Something Awful all the time.

 

[Darthphere]

Getting these taken down leads to others getting taken down, leading to others getting taken down, and so on - It is suicidal, as I well discovered last night. I had, like I mentioned before, a breakdown - leading to my mother feeding me some of her anti-anxiety medicine

 

[Superhobo]

Look at that in context. He had said that the act of doing this was 'suicidal,' in the sense that it was an extremely stupid thing to do. I agreed. That's about it, as far as that goes.



The rest of that's true. I did, in fact, have a breakdown - leading to my mother dicing up a couple of her anti-anxiety pills and giving them to me. It wasn't fun, but they did calm me down enough to get to bed.

I should probably add some backstory, because this does read a little melodramatically, reading it back. We've covered the O.C.D., thing - and all that, but this is something that, I think, has been building up for a while. It hasn't been just this - it's been everything for the past few months, this being the "final staw."

I've had some smaller 'mini-breakdowns' before, but nothing like I had last night. It was terrrr-able.

 

[StrainedEyes]

Well, I've made the decision to stop all this, last night. After my breakdown. But, the sites I've gotten down are, as I said, topsites - links upon links upon links, and these, in turn, could lead to the source from where these videos and pictures are coming from.

Getting these taken down leads to others getting taken down, leading to others getting taken down, and so on - It is suicidal, as I well discovered last night. I had, like I mentioned before, a breakdown - leading to my mother feeding me some of her anti-anxiety medicine. But, I do it because (and this is going to sound 'scripted') the first time I 'happened' onto one of those sites, linked from one of the sites I usually go to, and using what looked like a perfectly legal name, I could not let it go - probably partly due to OCD, but -

The look in those girls' eyes? You know that look you see in beaten dogs?

As far as the legal ramifications of all this, I've cleared that up, like I said.



if this post seems written funny, it's because I'm still kind of effed up from that anti-anxiety stuff

Do you honestly think you have some kind of special sleuthing ability that lead you to sites the FBI or whatever didn't know about? If you found them, they could find them too. And like you said it isn't even the site it's the start of a spiderweb of links getting to the real site, so what was even the point?

It's nice that you care, but as far as I can tell, you didn't do anything and have messed yourself up mentally and possibly done something that could come back and bite you.

Like someone said before, you could make whatever excuse you want, that you were doing it to stop the child porn of the world or that you were trying to help, but no one will believe you. I'm sure that's the #1 excuse people who get arrested for this use. "No, I was trying to find out who did it and stop them! I swear!"

 

[Superhobo]

Do you honestly think you have some kind of special sleuthing ability that lead you to sites the FBI or whatever didn't know about? If you found them, they could find them too. And like you said it isn't even the site it's the start of a spiderweb of links getting to the real site, so what was even the point?

I've no doubt that they could; but they haven't, or they'd have been down. To mark, the previous sites I'd reported were taken down nary a week afterwards. Like I've just said, I've no doubt the FBI could, but they hadn't.

Special sleuthing ability? No. That'd be cool, but no.

It's nice that you care, but as far as I can tell, you didn't do anything and have messed yourself up mentally and possibly done something that could come back and bite you.

I'll admit this hasn't helped my mental health, but it hasn't been just this alone. I've been discovering, recently, that I've had OCD since I was seven - recalling just random stuff, and it's like "oh."

Like someone said before, you could make whatever excuse you want, that you were doing it to stop the child porn of the world or that you were trying to help, but no one will believe you. I'm sure that's the #1 excuse people who get arrested for this use. "No, I was trying to find out who did it and stop them! I swear!"

You're indeed right - for all I know, the FBI could break down my door right now, and kill my dog. But, they haven't.