SEASON IX: LEVITY, PART 2
"Put me down!"
To say that my relationship with Stephanie Brown has been nothing short of a roller coaster ride would be an insult to theme parks everywhere. I've known her ever since Batman and I crossed paths with her father, The Cluemaster, all those years ago when I was just starting out as Robin. She had been motivated to become a vigilante in order to take her dad out once and for all and became The Spoiler, much to Bruce and I's shared chagrin. But unlike Bruce, who saw her from the beginning as nothing more than a nuisance, I gave her a chance and allowed her to continue developing her craft, offering my help and limited expertise whenever she needed it. But that was years ago, and through our battles, our passion, our disagreements and especially our love for eachother, I've come to know Stephanie as an inherently good person with noble intentions. For that much, I'm proud of her.
But this Spoiler stuff's gotta stop. There've been many instances where her limited skills as a combatant and an amateur tactician have put myself and others in serious danger. And at the rate she's going, The Spoiler will eventually consume her life and take it. Violently and cold, in a place where I won't be around to protect her. And with the feelings I've had for her for all of these years, thoughts like that frankly scare the hell out of me. As much as I wanna see her succeed and support everything she sets her mind to... tonight is where I draw the line.
Landing on the rooftop of the Gotham Metro building, I release her from my grip just as she starts to protest. Based off of experience, I just decide tune her complaints out as I'm reeling in the grapple line. By the time I've finished, she's just at the tail end of her little rant.
"-...AND I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW RUDE THAT WAS! What the hell is wrong with you tonight?!"
Narrowing my eyes, we stare at eachother for what feels like an eternity. She's right, in that I've never been this strict with her, but what else can I do? Almost getting herself killed threw me for a serious loop, not to mention ruining the months of preparation I spent trying to get that weapons' racket into submission.
"Steph, do you have any idea of what you're doing?"
She crosses her arms.
"Yeah, yelling at a complete jerk for treating me like his luggage!"
"That's not what I meant, and you know it."
I approach her, making no attempt to hide my irritation.
"Those men back there were trained professionals, some of Prague's most dangerous weapon smugglers. Just a notch below the KGB in terms of firearms' training. The fact that I caught them off guard is the only reason that they didn't turn me into swiss cheese."
"A guy with a gun is a guy with a gun. I'm no stranger to seeing stuff like that, especially in a town like Gotham."
"I suppose that's why people like Deadshot are so high on the FBI's Most Wanted list."
She tries to argue, but can't.
"Alright, point taken, but what does any of this have to do with me?"
I sneer back at her.
"You jumped in there without a plan. You got tripped up midway through the fight, which certainly proves that you weren't paying attention to your surroundings, and furthermore? You ruined what was supposed to be a simple intimidation tactic."
Knowing Steph as long as I have, I expect her to realize the error of her ways and back down. But to my surprise, she doesn't. Instead, she gets right in my face about it.
"That's why you freaked out on me? Because I made a few mistakes? Listen to yourself, Tim! You're so busy chastising me that you won't even acknowledge the mistakes you made!"
My eyebrow arches.
"What are you talking about? I didn't make any-..."
"You were nearly strangled to death."
"Yeah, because I was busy trying to save your-,"
"I was watching the fight. I saw what you did to the car. Do you have any idea of how many people you could've hurt pulling a stunt like that?"
Damn.
"Look, that was-,"
"And above all else, before you get onto me for apparently not knowing what I'm doing, you were the reason I was taken off guard in the first place. You didn't tell me anything about your plans. You knew that gang was dangerous - more dangerous than the normal creeps that operate in the city - and yet you went off half-cocked and tried to take them down by yourself. If you had just called and relayed your strategy, I would have totally helped you take them down! And you know I could have helped you!"
I...
As much as I want to go back at her with something that puts down the argument, I have to admit, she's got a point. Whether or not she's good at this is irrelevant, I could have easily used her for numerous parts of the strategy. Whether it was distracting the heavies from the rooftops or scoping out the fight to make sure I wasn't in danger, utilizing Steph in this should have been a no-brainer. It's not like I can't rely on her for that much, I've been relying on her for the past few months to help me move things forward to get it all pushed to a head.
So why didn't I?
"Look, you're right. I didn't include you, and I apologize."
"Thank you."
I shake my head. There's more.
"But that doesn't mean what you did was any less of a risk to my plans. You can't just go in like that and expect to be able to help me out. Whenever you enter a fight, whether you're following proceedure or not, you become an instant liability to me. You have no idea how much you simply being there throws me off, because I..."
And then I stop. Rather than indulge her with that next phrase, I simply look away. I've been thinking about the status of... "us", for awhile now, and I can't just turn back on my decision now. As hard as it is to admit, Stephanie's still apart of my life, but she can't be an intimate part of it anymore. What we had was in the past, and right now, I'm concentrated on only one thing. Taking as many people down as I can before the baby comes.
"Tim? Tim, what is it?"
She pulls off her mask, revealing a concerned expression. It's hard to look at her directly in the eye, so I start to back away.
"Steph... we need to talk."
"I thought that's what we were doing right now?"
"No, not like that. I'm not talking about the work, or this..."
I pull back my cowl aswell.
"I'm talking about... us. What we've been doing."
She can't look directly at me, either. We both know the shame of it, neither of us just chose to acknowledge it in the time since it happened. Since we consummated a relationship that was already dead from the get-go. Stephanie's got a life of her own to focus on, but my situation is entirely different now. I made a commitment to a woman that's carrying my child, and even if I may have betrayed that, I'm determined to see that commitment through. Steph knows that, and we've both known that this day was eventually going to come. I just wish it didn't have to be now, but it's already too late. It's already out in the open.
"You know how I feel about you."
"Yeah. I know."
"I'll always care, no matter happens."
"I care about you too, Tim."
"But you know what we did was unfair to Rose, no matter how you feel about her. She's the woman I love now, and if I'm going to make it work, it can't continue between you and me. Not with the baby coming."
She looks off at Gotham. I can tell she's disappointed, but she seems to be accepting. Frankly, it's not what I expected of her.
"I know."
"We'll always be friends. And maybe you can help me out on cases, from time to time, but right now I just..."
She turns back to me and places a hand on my cheek. I wish it didn't have to be like this, but I can't continue living with myself if I know that I'm hurting Rose anymore than when I'll be forced to tell her the truth. I just have to wait until everything's settled, and we're secure in our new life together.
"I understand. You need your space."
"Yeah. And I need time, too. I just bought an apartment for us, and when Rose and I settle in, I'm gonna have to tell her the truth. If I'm gonna raise my child alongside her, there can't be any secrets. Not anymore."
She nods.
"It's okay. You've got alot to deal with, and I need to get back to my own life."
Pulling the cowl back on, I nod back to her.
"Thank you. For understanding, I mean. I don't know what I'd do without you, Steph."
She pulls her mask on aswell, placing the hood over it.
"Anytime. Call me if you need anything, okay?"
"Definitely."
Stepping up to the edge, I spread my cape and look back.
"You sure you're okay about this?"
"Totally. As long as you convince Rose to let me be the godmother."
I smirk, half-heartedly.
"Don't push your luck, but I'll try. I owe you one."
"Don't worry about it. Stay safe, Tim."
I look back out at Gotham.
"You too."
And with that, I'm off, feeling like a huge weight was just lifted from my shoulders. Do I feel bad about leaving Stephanie behind? Sure. I'd do anything to do this without hurting her and still managing to keep my promise, but this isn't a fairytale. This is real life, and I've just realized that I'm beginning to come to terms with that.
* * *
The Spoiler grabs her grapple line and heads in the opposite direction, expecting to seek out another crime to foil. But she realizes by the time that she's reached the edge that she's lost the greatest guy in her entire life. She still loves him, and yet she has to let him go. Fighting back tears, Stephanie stands there in solace, her shoulders slumping and her body shivering. She tells herself that it really is the end for her and Tim, and that by the time she's made it home, Tim will be with Rose when he should be with her instead. But she brushes past those thoughts and throws the line anyway, hoping that her emotions won't put her infront of Tim's happiness.
"Stop."
Spoiler's eyes widen as she turns to face the sudden presence that appeared behind her. A horned shadow stands in the distance, it's arms folded across it's chest. Stephanie immediately tightens her fists, preparing for an argument that's been a long time coming. Where Tim motivated her, there was another man who constantly pushed her aside and never gave her the proper credit that was justly deserved. Where there was Robin, there was always...
"Batman,"
She storms ahead towards the dark figure, her sadness giving into rage as she prepares to strike out against The Cape Crusader's form.
"You just had to have the last say in all of this, didn't you? You never approved of Tim's relationship with me, and now that it's over, you're here to throw it all in my face, aren't you?! You heartless...!"
A gloved hand lashes out from the form and snatches Spoiler's wrist, catching her off guard.
"Would not do that."
Upon closer inspection, Stephanie realizes that the form of Batman is actually more womanly than usual. Then it becomes clear. Her surprise evident, Spoiler places a hand over her own mouth in regret.
"Ohmigod... Cassandra! I didn't, I mean... I didn't realize it was..."
Batgirl narrowed her gaze.
"I followed you both. Listened to conversation. About your skill."
Spoiler shrinks, feeling disgraced.
"Yeah. I guess you agree with Tim, huh? That I really am a lost cause?"
"Not at all. Infact,"
"I want to help."