24, I did the math at least a 15-16 age difference, basically a full teenager. It's a combination with the guy being divorced and my age that's really making it feel weird. Like if anything were to happen I would feel like the busty 21 year old blondie who he left his previous wife for.
Just got big discussion with my mom about life in general. She still has it in her head that she did me a favor asking me to come help her with my step-dad when he got sick.
She just doesn't understand that I left all my friends and put myself into a bad situation with my job to come live with her. She also seems to think it is my responsibility to help her out financially when she gets in a bind, but won't even cut back on her smoking and her Pepsi drinking to make sure she can meet those obligations.
Her thinking is I should be grateful to fix her food, walk her dogs, pick her up off the floor when she falls, and pay her more money once I finish paying off the credit card debt I have.
Sorry, just needed to vent. I love her to death, but sometimes her mindset is completely foreign to me.
and as much as I hate to admit it, I love her...but it's never going to work out or happen.
Hopeful,
I gave a woman a box of candy or something on V-Day in 2008 at Walmart...got her number, but it was sadly downhill.
I think I'll write a poem or song about my feelings. Got me a new notebook. Mostly will be used for Pagan poems, poetry, songs, but I'll write other poems and what not in there. Last night or early this morning I wrote a song about my self injury problems. Instead of hurting myself, I wrote a song instead. I can thank my Paganism for that, cause...well, I just like to write now since I've been a Pagan.
Really you're Pagan?
Thanks for the helpful advice, but I don't know whether to giggle or give you the tilted head "are you doing okay" look at the bolded part.Well, like I said, I had a crush on a guy who turned out to be 52, when I was 23. I would have put him at 39-40, he just completely didn't look his age! And that age would have been fine for me, it's not too old at all.
I had no idea what to do about it when I found out how old he actually was, because I knew in my head is was much to old. Old enough to be my dad old, you know?
But we'd been flirting loads and I couldn't stop feeling attracted to him.
I asked a few people about it, and i'd give you the same advice they gave me.
Just try it.
If you go out/hook up and it feels unnatural, then you end it. But you'll never know until you try.
I went out for drinks with the guy, and went back to his and we fooled around a bit. I was incredibly attracted to him, and it really is a shame he wasn't younger... but when he mentioned he might need to take some viagra I got this massive wake up call that it was most DEFINITELY too old for me
But I don't regret trying it out. I don't think you should be afraid to do something your unsure of, especially if it's because of what other people think.
It's not necessarily keeping on the down low but more so pushing it on everyone.
