Confession is good for the Hype. - Part 10

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i confess i'm sitting here eating chocolate because i have insomnia and i'm always depressed late at night when my thoughts get the best of me. /dramaticnotdramatic
 
I confess I always binge on Wednesday nights. I don't know why.
 
I voluntarily stay awake and get depressed hahah
 
that's every night for me. i'll do good all day, workout and all that jazz.

Yeah, I soldier on during the day but deep down I'm like bleehhhh. I stay up as if it'll delay a new day.
 
Ever since finding out my grandmother has cancer a few weeks ago, I think I've been coping worse and worse with each passing day. If she had suddenly passed away, I think I would've grieved for a few days and pulled myself together. But this countdown has me randomly crying every couple of days.
Is it really bad, if you don't mind me asking? Because cancer can go on for months or even years if she's responding to treatment.

My former coworker who was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer last April is still alive. We were preparing for the worst when he was diagnosed, because like, 90% of those diagnosed at stage 4, are dead 6 months in. We were literally planning a work trip to France to visit/say goodbye last October. We didn't think he'd survive until November, even. But he's still kicking. His quality of life sucks right now because of the chemo, but he's still here.

He's quite young though. It's definitely a different story for an older person. But if she wants to fight, don't plan the funeral yet! With cancer, it's always one day at a time.

Yeah? I call it annoying. Like everyday at work I have to watch my co-workers compare their rippling biceps, and listen to them lecture everyone about calorie intake. OMG it's going straight to your thighs. And on top of that, instead of doing their work, they do pushups! And the list goes on.
That's....100x worse than any of my female friends. :o

I wouldn't really call that fitness or health though. That's body image obsession. You can really do yourself damage if you diet too much.

The funny thing is that they usually complain about all the things their girlfriends make them do, and how I'm lucky I don't have kids or anything because I'm free, but yet lately they've been trying to pressure me into getting a girlfriend.
When my fiancé meets up with his friends, they talk about their girl problems too. :funny: So it's a guy thing. He's the only one who has nothing to gossip about. :hehe:

Well I mean, if he does, it's probably stuff like how I'm bad at keeping up with the dishes and how he does the laundry. But I don't tell him or make him do anything. :oldrazz:
 
Is it really bad, if you don't mind me asking? Because cancer can go on for months or even years if she's responding to treatment.

My former coworker who was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer last April is still alive. We were preparing for the worst when he was diagnosed, because like, 90% of those diagnosed at stage 4, are dead 6 months in. We were literally planning a work trip to France to visit/say goodbye last October. We didn't think he'd survive until November, even. But he's still kicking. His quality of life sucks right now because of the chemo, but he's still here.

He's quite young though. It's definitely a different story for an older person. But if she wants to fight, don't plan the funeral yet! With cancer, it's always one day at a time.

It's also stage 4 pancreatic cancer. The doctors didn't want to give her too much chemo because of her other health problems, so they told us the best we can hope for is for the chemo to simply stop the cancer from spreading any further. She was supposed to start chemo this week, but on Saturday she had to be hospitalized because a stomach ulcer started bleeding out. We thought the ulcer stopped bleeding on Tuesday, but it started up again on Wednesday. Now doctors aren't even sure if they'll be able to give her chemo at all.
 
It's also stage 4 pancreatic cancer. The doctors didn't want to give her too much chemo because of her other health problems, so they told us the best we can hope for is for the chemo to simply stop the cancer from spreading any further. She was supposed to start chemo this week, but on Saturday she had to be hospitalized because a stomach ulcer started bleeding out. We thought the ulcer stopped bleeding on Tuesday, but it started up again on Wednesday. Now doctors aren't even sure if they'll be able to give her chemo at all.
Yeah it's rough. I'm sorry. :csad: The doctors gave my coworker a fighting chance - they gave him the hardest-hitting chemo drugs they had, because he's so young (31) and they figured his body could take it. Last I heard, the cancer hadn't spread as quickly as they had originally predicted. Which is...neither good or bad, I suppose.

It's really up to your grandma. Let her dictate the shots. Take things one day at a time. For a while, my coworker was skipping chemo treatments because his white blood cell count was too low. It was frustrating but...one day at a time.

I'm not sure if it's of any comfort, but stage 4 pancreatic cancer that goes untreated....it's very likely your grandma won't suffer too long. :csad:
 
The bleeding ulcer has made things too bad. She made her choice about any further treatment today, and she's got days at most. She just wants to go without any pain.
 
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I just don't like dancing in general. Looks like a fully body dry heave to me.
 
I confess that I have some homework due by midnight tonight but I'm feeling really damn tired so I'll probably just go to sleep soon and do it tomorrow morning. My professor is pretty lax and probably won't even take any points off the assignment, but I hate turning work in late just on principle.
 
The bleeding ulcer has made things too bad. She made her choice about any further treatment today, and she's got days at most. She just wants to go without any pain.
That's the best decision then. :csad: Give her lots of love!
 
That's not what I meant at all.

i wasn't talking about you bamf. some stupid people in real life actually said that to me. i just threw it in there to be snarky since i picked at you for saying something similar
 
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