Confession is good for the Hype. - - Part 11

[enterthemadness]

I confess that I am sucking on a Magnum Gold.

I confess I thought of Magnum P.I. and that needs to be the candy's name now.

Just imaaaaaaagine the Tom Shelleck tv ads.

 

[Piper Maru]

Well it's over, what a mess it was. Sticky with cream everywhere.

 

[enterthemadness]

Well it's over, what a mess it was. Sticky with cream everywhere.

that....doens't sound right.

 

[Piper Maru]

I am definitely satisfied, like in the commercials.

 

[Piper Maru]

I confess that I am overjoyed that braincrusher has accepted my friend request. HE LIVES!

 

[SpideyVille]

I confess that I nearly had a mental breakdown today. Things haven't been all that great for me since I graduated last year, and I feel like all of the pressure from my family to get a job and be "successful" has taken a big toll on me, especially since I'm hard enough on myself. But I had a big blowup today with my mom after an incident in an attempt to finally make her see that I've been suffering, and it only made her think I was crazy and "need help".

 

[enterthemadness]

I confess that I nearly had a mental breakdown today. Things haven't been all that great for me since I graduated last year, and I feel like all of the pressure from my family to get a job and be "successful" has taken a big toll on me, especially since I'm hard enough on myself. But I had a big blowup today with my mom after an incident in an attempt to finally make her see that I've been suffering, and it only made her think I was crazy and "need help".

Was it self injury?

 

[SpideyVille]

Was it self injury?

No I would never do that. It was really dumb, but basically my mom asked me to go to the store with her, and even though I told her I had my own plans to run some errands, I said I'd put those aside and would go with her. But after I said I wanted to use the bathroom first, she started yelling at me and pushing me to hurry up until she decided she would go without me. So I decided to run my errands, only to get a call from her telling me to get back home so I can help her carry some heavy boxes upstairs. I left everything I was buying at the store and rushed back home, only to find some guys helped her carry everything.

But she was on the phone with my brother complaining about me and that was pretty much the straw that broke the camel's back, because she always talks bad about me and pretty much expects me to put all of my stuff to the side just to please her, and that gets me frustrated because I'm trying to do things on my own but she always finds some way to get in the way and make things harder for me. Not to mention she always expects me to be a man, but still talks to me like I'm not even a human being. We started yelling at each other and I started to get really frustrated because she's never tried to have a conversation with me so that we could just talk. Even when I try to talk to her about my problems, she tries to turn it into me being crazy, or that I need to go to church and treat her better or something, and it really is like talking to a wall.

 

[enterthemadness]

No I would never do that. It was really dumb, but basically my mom asked me to go to the store with her, and even though I told her I had my own plans to run some errands, I said I'd put those aside and would go with her. But after I said I wanted to use the bathroom first, she started yelling at me and pushing me to hurry up until she decided she would go without me. So I decided to run my errands, only to get a call from her telling me to get back home so I can help her carry some heavy boxes upstairs. I left everything I was buying at the store and rushed back home, only to find some guys helped her carry everything.

But she was on the phone with my brother complaining about me and that was pretty much the straw that broke the camel's back, because she always talks bad about me and pretty much expects me to put all of my stuff to the side just to please her, and that gets me frustrated because I'm trying to do things on my own but she always finds some way to get in the way and make things harder for me. Not to mention she always expects me to be a man, but still talks to me like I'm not even a human being. We started yelling at each other and I started to get really frustrated because she's never tried to have a conversation with me so that we could just talk. Even when I try to talk to her about my problems, she tries to turn it into me being crazy, or that I need to go to church and treat her better or something, and it really is like talking to a wall.

You lost me here. How did you come off as crazy? You come off as sane.

 

[SpideyVille]

You lost me here. How did you come off as crazy? You come off as sane.

It was just the intensity of the shouting match between me and my mom. It really left me feeling drained and I almost wanted to cry because of it. I've been kinda depressed lately and I've been trying to get out it on my own since I know I can't rely on my family to help or even try to understand how I'm feeling. I tried to communicate this to her, but in my frustration, things only got worse.

I told her part of the reason why I haven't been looking for a job lately is because there's something holding me back. Something I still can't understand, but its like a mental block that keeps me from even trying. But like I said, my mom never talks to me, and she always skews certain stories to make herself look like a victim, so in her eyes, and everyone else, I come across as crazy.

 

[enterthemadness]

It was just the intensity of the shouting match between me and my mom. It really left me feeling drained and I almost wanted to cry because of it. I've been kinda depressed lately and I've been trying to get out it on my own since I know I can't rely on my family to help or even try to understand how I'm feeling. I tried to communicate this to her, but in my frustration, things only got worse.

I told her part of the reason why I haven't been looking for a job lately is because there's something holding me back. Something I still can't understand, but its like a mental block that keeps me from even trying. But like I said, my mom never talks to me, and she always skews certain stories to make herself look like a victim, so in her eyes, and everyone else, I come across as crazy.

Tell her employers aren't too keen(?) on hiring anybody who has been outta the work force for 6 moths or longer, no matter if they were in school or what. And that the youth unemployment here is crappy.

 

[Spider-Aziz]

I confess that I am overjoyed that braincrusher has accepted my friend request. HE LIVES!

Great news

I confess, when I cough, my head hurts like my brains plans to burst out

 

[SpideyVille]

Tell her employers aren't too keen(?) on hiring anybody who has been outta the work force for 6 moths or longer, no matter if they were in school or what. And that the youth unemployment here is crappy.

This would only work if she had any idea of how the world worked. Every now and then she asks me "Why don't you become a doctor?" as if that's something that I can do overnight without any training or schooling.

 

[enterthemadness]

This would only work if she had any idea of how the world worked. Every now and then she asks me "Why don't you become a doctor?" as if that's something that I can do overnight without any training or schooling.

Well....at least you don't lose it when you see a bug -_-...the mantis.


-_- I was on MSN.com and they like to get me. This time it was in one of those 7 main articles. The ones where you can hit pause or flip forward. Leaf bug vs Mantis.

-_- needless to say I hallucinated for about a minute. Just seeing manties. -_- I tried to pick up Roku box -_-....but eyes kept seeing Mantis head.

-_- I bet if I did weed, I would just trip out and see human size mantises.

 

[Anita18]

No I would never do that. It was really dumb, but basically my mom asked me to go to the store with her, and even though I told her I had my own plans to run some errands, I said I'd put those aside and would go with her. But after I said I wanted to use the bathroom first, she started yelling at me and pushing me to hurry up until she decided she would go without me. So I decided to run my errands, only to get a call from her telling me to get back home so I can help her carry some heavy boxes upstairs. I left everything I was buying at the store and rushed back home, only to find some guys helped her carry everything.

But she was on the phone with my brother complaining about me and that was pretty much the straw that broke the camel's back, because she always talks bad about me and pretty much expects me to put all of my stuff to the side just to please her, and that gets me frustrated because I'm trying to do things on my own but she always finds some way to get in the way and make things harder for me. Not to mention she always expects me to be a man, but still talks to me like I'm not even a human being. We started yelling at each other and I started to get really frustrated because she's never tried to have a conversation with me so that we could just talk. Even when I try to talk to her about my problems, she tries to turn it into me being crazy, or that I need to go to church and treat her better or something, and it really is like talking to a wall.

Stop trying to please her, because you never will. I know it's hard because she's your mom and you always want to look for her approval, but doing so will eventually rip you apart. No matter what you do, it won't be good enough. Ever. Just say "screw it" and do what you want.

I told her part of the reason why I haven't been looking for a job lately is because there's something holding me back. Something I still can't understand, but its like a mental block that keeps me from even trying.

Then don't make it dependent on your getting past your mental block. Give yourself a physical goal - get a job and save up enough money so you can move out. It doesn't even have to do with your major. Money is money at this point. You can't get out from under her thumb until you get out from under her roof.

 

[Vartha]

I confess I'm out of shape and my triceps are killin' me after doing some machine exercises for my back and shoulders

 

[Piper Maru]

I confess that I never lift.

 

[jonathancrane]

After watching the GE Matrix commercial, I now wish another Matrix film was in the works.

 

[Schlosser85]

Our couch squatter ****ed around with our futon until he completely broke it, and gouged holes in our wall while he was at it, so I just sprayed spit all over the mattress where he's gonna be sleeping tonight.

 

[Piper Maru]

Our couch squatter ****ed around with our futon until he completely broke it, and gouged holes in our wall while he was at it, so I just sprayed spit all over the mattress where he's gonna be sleeping tonight.

That's just awful!

 

[enterthemadness]

Our couch squatter ****ed around with our futon until he completely broke it, and gouged holes in our wall while he was at it, so I just sprayed spit all over the mattress where he's gonna be sleeping tonight.

Kick him out.

or beat his ass in a video game, then kick him out.

 

[Bruce Banner]

I confess that I have a hard time trusting people, both family or friends, I have a lot of them, but I never put myself in a position to have to trust them/ have faith in them or know major stuff about me.

The woman I'm seeing lives less that a mile from me and I always dodge the subject. I just turned 25 and only one friend after all these years knows where I live and met my family. It just makes things more simple for me.

 

[The Squirrel]

edit.

 

[SpideyVille]

Stop trying to please her, because you never will. I know it's hard because she's your mom and you always want to look for her approval, but doing so will eventually rip you apart. No matter what you do, it won't be good enough. Ever. Just say "screw it" and do what you want.

I'd say that at this point, I'm not even trying to please her or get her approval. I'm just trying to do whatever I can to help out. A few months ago she went to the doctor and they gave her a letter saying she was "partially disabled" and shouldn't lift more than 20lbs. So yesterday, I wanted to help because I know how she is, she will try to do everything herself and then she'll strain herself and spend the rest of the day complaining. So in that sense, I'm just trying to do what I can to look after her.

Then there's also the issue of knowing how she overreacts if I don't help. Just today she had a similar argument with my brother where he yelled at her for the same things I was saying and she started to cry. The only difference is that I still live with her, so if I do something wrong, she'll threaten me in some way.

Then don't make it dependent on your getting past your mental block. Give yourself a physical goal - get a job and save up enough money so you can move out. It doesn't even have to do with your major. Money is money at this point. You can't get out from under her thumb until you get out from under her roof.

I definitely know its time to get out and that's definitely a goal of mine, but I kinda had to learn a lesson about credit cards the hard way, so I have a lot of debts to pay off first. I was actually doing some paintings for some friends and made enough money to help me get by for a while. I've been considering doing that full time, but there's still part of me that feels like that isn't what I'm supposed to be doing and I almost feel like majoring in Art was a bad idea. But I have been saving and putting money away on the side.

 

[Duke]

I confess that whenever I eat french fries, I hardly ever put ketchup on them.