Confession is good for the Hype. - - - Part 12

[Anita18]

I confess that for most of my life, I've tried to live my life in a way that would prevent me from ever walking down the same path as my father and ending up like him. But if there's something I've realized, especially in the past year, it's that I should've done more to make sure that I don't end up like my mother either. There's so much contention between us and some of the traits and things that she does that really infuriates me are the same things I hate myself for.

You can't always help the knee-jerk reaction inside your head, but you CAN learn to control your actions. Just take a deep breath, and think things through before you go barging in.

 

[Tempest]

When I was twenty, I was raped by my boyfriend at the time. I'm thirty-three now, and the scent of that cologne still sends me spiraling into a panic attack.

Isn't it supposed to get better with time?

 

[Teelie]

There are always going to be triggers to set off a traumatic memory. I don't think those ever go away but they don't have to control your life.

 

[RetrogradeOrbit]

Tempest, if you can, try to control the reaction, rather than have it control you. I know it's far easier said than done. But as you already are aware of the trigger, you're part way there already.

Speaking from my experience with traumatic events which have happened in my life. They have gotten easier to bear with the passage of time.

But mine are not as bad as your experience I have to add.

 

[Anita18]

When I was twenty, I was raped by my boyfriend at the time. I'm thirty-three now, and the scent of that cologne still sends me spiraling into a panic attack.

Isn't it supposed to get better with time?

Sometimes the little things can send us back. That's completely normal. Sucks, but is normal.

Have you seen a professional about this? Panic attacks are no minor thing - you might need someone to help you through.

 

[ComicChick]

sadly, smell is the strongest sense tied to memory. like anita suggested, have you seen a professional or sought help for this?

 

[SpideyVille]

You can't always help the knee-jerk reaction inside your head, but you CAN learn to control your actions. Just take a deep breath, and think things through before you go barging in.

Yeah, that's one of the traits that I get from her, where I don't really think through when I talk to her because I'm too emotionally.

Ironically though, I mentioned this in one of the other threads where I said I don't feel like I can truly be myself around certain people, and I realized that I am closer to being that person when I'm around my mom and its mostly because deep down inside, I'm very angry and she always manages to bring that side out of me. With most other people, I don't really have any emotion so I don't really care about things as passionately. Now I just need to find a way to channel that into positive and productive efforts.

 

[Slick]

I confess that I'm a drug addict. Currently in rehab I hate it but it's the only way I'll survive. Is there a rehab Thread you know to talk to others? It's just this year it's been rock bottom after the next. The only thing that's keeping me going is comics, movies and music.

 

[ComicChick]

I confess that I'm a drug addict. Currently in rehab I hate but it's the only way I'll survive. Is there a rehab Thread you know to talk to others? It's just this year it's been rock bottom after the next. The only thing that's keeping me going is comics, movies and music.

congrats on taking the step towards rehab.

as far as i know, there is not a thread on that subject

 

[Anita18]

I confess that I'm a drug addict. Currently in rehab I hate but it's the only way I'll survive. Is there a rehab Thread you know to talk to others? It's just this year it's been rock bottom after the next. The only thing that's keeping me going is comics, movies and music.

Good for you! I wish you well on your journey. If comics, movies, and music are your rocks, rely on them when times are tough and build from there.

 

[Slick]

Thanks that really means a lot. I wasn't going to post it at first because it's really personal but this is the confession thread. So thanks again

 

[RetrogradeOrbit]

Just take it one day at a time and one step at a time and you'll get there.

Good luck.

 

[jonathancrane]

I confess that I am becoming increasingly annoyed with my friend's worship of George Romero. I had to block his statuses because I became quite tired of reading how Romero is the best thing since nachos and microwaveable cheese dip.

 

[Teelie]

I know people like that who will harp on something endlessly. There are things I like and will talk about a lot in the right venue but I won't make everyone's ears bleed with my incessantly talking about them.

There are also subjects I get tired of hearing about and when they come up I tend to leave the room (or thread) until it has moved on.

 

[Schlosser85]

I confess I am growing very politically angry recently.

Also, I believe accentuated by financial and work-related stress, I have been carrying around a lot of pent-up inner anger for quite a while now. I don't like how venomous it makes me feel.

 

[Anubis]

So do like everybody else and kill a hooker, jeez.

 

[Harls]

Roommate says she doesn't want to room with me anymore and that she doesn't care what happens to me. Then she asks me to take her to the airport next weekend.

I confess I was free that weekend, but after you said that I suddenly had plans. Oops.

 

[Anubis]

You didn't even have to lie, shoulda just said "B***h, you must be crazy!"

 

[Harls]

I thought about it, but it would probably make things a whole lot worse.

 

[E-Man]

Roommate says she doesn't want to room with me anymore and that she doesn't care what happens to me. Then she asks me to take her to the airport next weekend.

I confess I was free that weekend, but after you said that I suddenly had plans. Oops.

I feel like she probably heard some of our spooktacular Skype calls, and then she just couldn't be associated with you because of Biz's White RAGE, my constant singing, lix saying goodbye to the people who cared for him, Manic being yet another black guy, and Kane snoring at the worst moments.

So basically if you need us to take care of her I'm down.

 

[Harls]

I feel like she probably heard some of our spooktacular Skype calls, and then she just couldn't be associated with you because of Biz's White RAGE, my constant singing, lix saying goodbye to the people who cared for him, Manic being yet another black guy, and Kane snoring at the worst moments.

So basically if you need us to take care of her I'm down.

I knew it! I knew hanging around you loonies would catch up to me some day!

Just kidding, I had you guys in earbuds the whole time t:

 

[Anubis]

I thought about it, but it would probably make things a whole lot worse.

How could it get worse? She just basically said she don't care if you go out and get run over by a bus filled with Nazi's who also have Hepatitis.

If I were you, I'd leave an Upper Decker before I kick rocks.

 

[Boy Scout]

I'd **** on her bed.

 

[Harls]

You guys are fantastic. I like you guys.

 

[E-Man]

I think it's a pretty terrible deal to just bail on a roommate. Did y'all have a contract for a set amount of time? I'm looking for a roommate, and after the crap I've been through for the past two years with roommates I'm going to put everything in writing. lol