Okay so last night we caught a late show for Invictus. During the film he kept looking over at me but as soon as I would turn to look back at him he'd quickly jerk his face forward. It was...lame.

But about halfway through the film he actually shocked me. He put his hand on my thigh and just let it rest there. The whole time he kept eating popcorn and watching the film without turning his face towards me once. I put my hand on top of his but he moved it quickly and picked up his drink with it. So I was like, "Okay fine." But a few minutes he put it back and even let it slide down towards my inner thigh. This really, really aroused me so this time I pushed his hand off. He casually started drinking soda again.
We were supposed to go back to his place but I convinced him that he could finally come to my home. When he got out of the car he was apparently surprised by the look or size of our house and he asked me "What kind of job do you have to afford a place like this?" I told him I was a stripper, and we laughed.
Once inside he tried taking off his shoes and I told him not to bother. We went into the kitchen and I chopped some fresh fruit and made some whey protein shakes for us. We stood around the kitchen island eating and talking about the movie, etc. etc. I told him that I was taken off guard by his hand movement. He blushed really bad. I said there was no reason to be embarrassed, it was a good thing. He just got really quiet and sipped his shake.
It was at that point that I just really let him know how I felt. I had addressed it the night before as you know but this time I said point blank I was interested in pursuing a relationship with him and wanted to know how he felt about that. Once again he said he had never been attracted to guys like this before but he felt something serious for me. So I was like, "We're both feeling eachother, so what are we going to do about this?" He said "Have sex?" I said that was the wrong answer and that I was not looking to be his experiment. He said that he didn't look at me that way but that he felt a need to do it with me as a way of "expressing how I feel for you". That warmed my heart. I was like, "Aw s***, that was deep."
So I came around the island and sat on one of the stools next to him. He was so nervous and to be honest I was too. He picked up his shake to drink some more but I made him put it down. I was stood up and then leaned down and I kissed him. This time, he was TOTALLY into it--it was like I took a lid off of Pandora's box. Complete abandon. He just threw his tongue in my mouth and went
graphic on it. In fact, that took me by surprise and literally took my breath away--because unlike the other night, the kissing wasn't awkward or stiff, Jason had somehow figured out how to kiss passionately. We did that forever until our lips and mouths were tired. Then he dropped the bomb.
He said "I think I might be a top." I was like, "I thought you never had sex with a guy before?" and he said "Well, I haven't but I just have no desire to be topped by you. I wanna be the one topping (and of course I'm toning down a lot of the language here because this site is PG-13--but he used other words, trust me). So I said, "Well, Houston we have a problem. LOL" Then this cat totally floored me. He stood up off his stool in front me and grabbed one of
my butt cheeks...MY butt!

And he said "I want this."
I can't even type in words how this made me feel. I have never seen Jason be this aggressive except when he is on the beat patroling the streets as a cop. I've seen him in action several times because often firefighters and cops are all called to the same incidents--and often they involve crime. Jason is very aggressive with offenders--he'll body slam your ass in a heartbeat. But in his dealings with me so far he's been...kinda soft. That move he did in my kitchen was a throwback to the Jason I'd seen in public.
So now I felt awkward. I'm not one to give up things easily if you know what I mean. SO I had to think about this because in my mind I was like, "What are we going to do? Someone has to compromise here and I'm not the one. LOL" Soooo, while he still had my right glute-cheek in a vice grip I grabbed his too and I said "Yeah, well I want this." And we just had this...like, stand-off in my kitchen. It was hilarious as f***. LOL
