I think part of this is your fault, your gave in to her every demand and set the course of the relationship at that point. That she says jump, you say how high. She seems very insecure and probably took the watch to see how you'd react, it's probably a game she's playing. She doesn't see it as an engagement ring like you do, she sees it as a prop in a game. You've said the guy been trying to get in her pants for a good long while now, if she hasn't let him in yet, she's probably not going to. Best bet is to dump her and never look back because she's going to use everything in her power to get you back, you're just to fun to play with and manipulate for her. There's little love on her side if she's still playing games like this.
To the bolded part first of all...no, she does love me, I know this, but last night I was seriously starting to think she had been conducting an affair with this guy for a while, and the you-know-watch was a signal to me to leave her, and go find someone else.
But, I think she is just concerned that I would leave her somewhere down the line, and was testing me, because I am not that exprienced in relationships.
Anyway, I did overreact, the green eyed monster rose and I honestly did feel like there was a double standard here, given what I have done to prove to her that I am not interested in anyone else.
I hope she doesn't dump me, and gives me a chance, because, I should trust her, it's just, I think that if I was wearing a watch given to me by a woman who had feelings for me, whether an ex or someone trying to break up the relationship by courting me, then it would not sit well with her either.
Because it is not like a book or a comic or whatever, it's a personal gift of jewellery, and it's like she is carrying him around with her.
Maybe i am reading too much into that side of things, but she has read lots of things into stuff I have done, and flaked out as well.
I guess we are just both scared that the other will leave or prefers someone else, because we are scared of getting hurt, cause this one would hurt more than any other, believe me, and I think it would be the same for her.
So, hopefully we can still work things out and she can forgive me for my horrible behaviour last night, I was losing the plot a bit, true love can be scary in that regard, esp right now, considering the circumstances I am in, where I need to be working an important job. Because, even if i don't get angry, even if i handle the depression of a break up, it affects your sleep, it's a nightmare for doing that, and i need to sleep as much as possible or my job is screwed.
That's up to you, but for most people, their behavior throughout the different stages of a relationship should evolve as the relationship evolves.
The PayPerView bill might be a little higher next month.
How many girls I thought might work out. To a certain extent maybe there were things that I could've done differently, but most importantly I don't take it personally. Games are 'getting laid' skills, that's all. They aren't for raising families or interacting with spouses. I don't live with the girls I play "games" with, similarly I don't play games with people I deal with frequently. It's just not smart in the long term. Just like my co-workers, a spouse is someone you deal with everyday. Spice is nice, but sugar is sweeter, and if you really love someone you don't try to exert control over their fragile psyche's to keep them around.
