Confession is good for the Hype. - - Part 11

[Bruce Banner]

I confess getting laid for me has gotten a lot easier, not so much that there is an increase of self confidence, just that I don't approach any of it (or take any person) seriously. I think I'm being misread as confident or flirty, when I'm in actuality just feeling pretty empty and bored, and humoring myself.

Then again, for a heavily angst ridden person, I've been mellow as hell.

 

[Ultimatehero]

I have two upcoming scripts to start on at some point, one just added tonight, and I'll confess that I'm terrified about starting to write it because it's subject matter is seriously gruesome and morbid to the point that -- it's not the head space anyone would willingly enter into.

ADDING: I've just found a way around what was seriously pulling me away from the project - that it ends with a 'thrill kill' of dozens of innocent children and teenagers. However, if I show the events before the film but in a fast blur - it quickly establishes the question of "who would do something like this?" And then in the end to have it end just before the massacre begins -- with just a blurb in text of what happened and how many were killed -- it places the focus still on these characters, it deletes images of the massacre being potentially glorified on screen and leaves the viewer asking "why?" and reviewing everything they've seen. It sounds like a more challenging way to end it as well which is great.

 

[ComicChick]

i confess i'm considering going to see a doctor to find out why i'm so tired and fatigued to the point of weakness most of the time

 

[Duke]

i confess i'm considering going to see a doctor to find out why i'm so tired and fatigued to the point of weakness most of the time

Wish you luck CC!!!

 

[ComicChick]

thanks duke

 

[Lily Adler]

Could be chronic fatigue syndrome.

Hope you find out soon, CC.

 

[ComicChick]

thanks LiLo. long time no see

 

[Lily Adler]

I'm currently in the process of a promotion, plus Superman/Batman movie and what not. I can only have so much free time.

 

[ComicChick]

free time? what's that?

 

[Warhammer]

I have a another confession. I always wonder why I spend alot of time alone. Half the time, I wonder if it's because I don't take the initiative. I don't actively try to be outgoing, though when I am actually hanging out, I come off as the most outgoing person on the planet. The other half of me naturally enjoys being a loner and I'm not just saying that to sound cool. I really do, though I feel that sometimes, society has dictated that that isn't a good thing and I'm aware of that.

This is also why I don't think I'll be getting a girlfriend anytime soon. Half of me seeks that companionship and I can become so envious deep down if, for example, a male friend of mine is flirting with a girl I kinda like. However, the other half of me has become so complacent, I don't want a girlfriend. I don't want to deal with potential problems or lose my freedom to do whatever I want and flirt with whoever I want.

It really is a petty situation, but that yin and yang is there. Often, I opt for the latter in both situations. I feel like would rather be alone as opposed to social and I would rather not have a girlfriend than have one......and when I accept that, I'm walking on sunshine. Except deep down, there is an envy that I can't shake.

 

[Erzengel]

Have you ever had a girlfriend?

 

[Warhammer]

Nope, I've never been in a serious relationship. There have been 4 times where I was an inch away from being in one, but either none of us took the initiative and either one of us were friend zoned or we simply moved on. After each one, I held intense grudges that I eventually got over. Villainizing, at the time, seemed to help me get over things instead of self-loathing.

That brings up the question about the girlfriend part. I feel like the bitterness and grudges that I used to hold desensitized me. I won't say that it made me cold or a loner, because I was always a cold person since I was little and there have been more life events that made me that way. I will say that it amplified my coldness by helping me build this wall around me. Goodness, that sounds so corny.

 

[Erzengel]

I use to tease this poster on here because he kept mentioning how jaded and bitter view of relationships because of his dating history. Which turned out to be like a 2-3 month high school relationship.

Most of that silly insecurities and outlooks go away if you meet someone worthy. I went through a lot of turn downs before I found someone who liked me that way. Now how I was before then seems silly.

The reason I asked the question is because it's a lot different once you have your first real relationship. It changes your outlook not always for the better but it does give you a better perspective on who you are.

 

[Warhammer]

Oh no, I am definitely not a woman hater. I feel that if one person has been in multiple horrible relationships, there's something wrong with them. Like the typical girl who dates the assh***s, etc. Eventually, nobody feels sorry for them.

I do understand what you are saying. I'm not sweating it with getting into a relationship. I'm just envious sometimes, like all people are about various things. When it happens, it happens. One thing that makes me feel better is that I know I can be in a relationship. Some people unfortunately don't realize that.

 

[Anita18]

Also, being in a relationship doesn't mean you're trapped. My husband lets me stay at work/go to the gym late. (And I mean LATE - like 3am late.) I let him borrow the car and skateboard with his friends all day on the weekends if he wants to. We're still quite independent. There ARE things we enjoy doing together, but plenty of things we enjoy doing apart. Which makes sense, because we're both extreme introverts.

Of course not every couple can be like that, but being trapped every day isn't the definition of being in a relationship. Of course there are things we'll have to compromise on, which is why two strong-willed Type-A personalities usually don't work out.

And re: flirting with other women....this is why I go for the shy, socially awkward dudes. And for his part, the shy, socially awkward girl.

 

[Warhammer]

You're right. I just think that some of my friends pick some insecure girlfriends. They like to come off as so alpha, but then I hear of the petty stuff they end up having to deal with. Of course, the power of the ***** is powerful. It does not hesitate. It shows no mercy.

 

[GENERAL RAAM582]

Yay! I'm a socially awkward dude.

 

[Anita18]

You're right. I just think that some of my friends pick some insecure girlfriends. They like to come off as so alpha, but then I hear of the petty stuff they end up having to deal with. Of course, the power of the ***** is powerful. It does not hesitate. It shows no mercy.

It can't be THAT good to warrant being treated like crap. They're just whipped, and think they can't get anything better.

Yay! I'm a socially awkward dude.

The ladies will realize you're the best kind of dude in time.

 

[GENERAL RAAM582]

The ladies will realize you're the best kind of dude in time.

Eventually...

in 20 years from now at my High School Reunion. Which I probably won't even attend because, you know, I'm a socially awkward dude.

 

[Warhammer]

It can't be THAT good to warrant being treated like crap. They're just whipped, and think they can't get anything better.

That's pretty true, actually. The girls I've seen them with are some fine pieces of ass. Eventually, they broke up with them, but like I said, that ***** was just too good.

 

[Anita18]

Eventually...

in 20 years from now at my High School Reunion. Which I probably won't even attend because, you know, I'm a socially awkward dude.

Don't worry, I wasn't too excited about the guys I knew from high school either. Better to expand your social circle.

That's pretty true, actually. The girls I've seen them with are some fine pieces of ass. Eventually, they broke up with them, but like I said, that ***** was just too good.

For guys to tolerate abuse for physically hot women, that says a lot about them too, and not all of them good.

In my experience, the "hot" girls are not all that once you take off the makeup and pushup bras. A girl who's a 6 can easily be a 10 with the right clothing and makeup. This is absolutely true, given the sudden attention I got while going to a club dressed as Catwoman. You guys are so gullible.

And the more time and money a girl spends on her appearance, the more insecure she is.

Again, this is why having a shy and awkward guy is the best. I'm glad my husband has low standards when it comes to clothing and makeup!

 

[GENERAL RAAM582]

Maybe I'll have a better opportunity in college.

 

[Warhammer]

For guys to tolerate abuse for physically hot women, that says a lot about them too, and not all of them good.

In my experience, the "hot" girls are not all that once you take off the makeup and pushup bras. A girl who's a 6 can easily be a 10 with the right clothing and makeup. This is absolutely true, given the sudden attention I got while going to a club dressed as Catwoman. You guys are so gullible.

And the more time and money a girl spends on her appearance, the more insecure she is.

That's the truth with some cheese on it.

Maybe I'll have a better opportunity in college.

Oh, you will. It's so much easier in college. So many young people in one area. They'll put out easily too with minimum work...if that's what you're looking for. Wrap it up.

But honestly, it is easier to find someone. Join a club/organization or ask someone in your class to be a study buddy. As long as you look half decent, you're good.

 

[Ultimatehero]

Sometimes it's hard accepting that I'm a mutant still. I'm a lot like Beast in those regards.

 

[Warhammer]

Sometimes it's hard accepting that I'm a mutant still. I'm a lot like Beast in those regards.

What is your ability?