Confession is good for the Hype. - - - Part 12

[SpideyVille]

I'm sorry to hear that SpideyVille. I wish you the best of luck in whatever choice you make.

Thanks Harls.

I suggest you find another job before you quit your job.

Also, what problems are you having? Is it cuz of the chicks you keep creeping out?

I'm going to wait until the end of the month before I decide when to give my two weeks notice, and hopefully I can find a new job by then. But with my job relocating at a farther location in a few months, and the fact that I haven't had any time since I've been here to do the things I love, I feel like its best that I get out while I'm still young. I don't want to end up like my friend who keeps saying she wants to get out but hasn't done anything to move forward with her life, and she's been "stuck" here for 9 years.

Plus, the majority of my problems come from the fact that I work with my sister in law, so anything that happens at work is automatically brought home despite how hard I've tried to keep both things seperated.

 

[Anita18]

I confess that I'm thinking of quitting my job soon. Making money has been cool, but for the most part, this job was supposed to be the solution of many problems, but instead, it's only caused even more problems for me.

Well, like they say, mo' money, mo' problems.

Plus, the majority of my problems come from the fact that I work with my sister in law, so anything that happens at work is automatically brought home despite how hard I've tried to keep both things seperated.

Yeah, that would do it for you....

I got my first internship at a lab in the same building where my aunt worked. I didn't work with my aunt directly, and my supervisor only checked on me once a day, so he couldn't gossip on everything I was doing.

I did have to get dragged along on her shopping sprees every day after work, but that's neither here nor there.

But I also have the feeling that if you quit your job without moving out, you'll never hear the end of it. Do you have any friends who could give you a referral or even a place to crash? You need to cut ties, dudebro.

 

[Erzengel]

I know you said you want to find a job first, but seriously stick it out until you find one even if you have to move. Because, jobs aren't exactly growing on trees. You'd be surprised how much of your save money (if you have any) will disappear within a few weeks.

 

[Schlosser85]

I confess the white trash brigade that swept through my store tonight made my skin crawl. Like physical revulsion.

Also, I felt a little genuinely guilty about leaving my female similar-aged co-worker with the dirty old married man with a son our age who's been buying an endless series of lottery tickets as a thinly-veiled excuse to hit on her. Don't take this the wrong way, but working here has made me glad I'm not a girl. The older married guys who come in every day to perv on our young girls who work here are disgustingly blatant.

 

[Ultimatehero]

I'm dancing the disco right now to the Spider-Man theme song!

I'm actually just tired as .

 

[Boy Scout]

I confess I think these Deathmatches are stupid as ****.

 

[Ultimatehero]

Not all of them...

ADDING: An actual deathmatch would make it more interesting though lol - if you lose, you get banned for life. People would pay attention then and it could get chaotic and messy.

 

[RetrogradeOrbit]

I confess I miss being in Manhattan.

 

[AnneFan]

I confess I will make a cocktail.

http://www.gourmet.com/recipes/2000s/2009/02/anne-hathaway-cocktail

 

[Harls]

I confess that kissing kind of turns me off. :/ I wish it didn't.

 

[Ultimatehero]

I confess I have difficulty being touched. Apparently it's some bulls- that has to do with my biological parents or something ditching me. Kinda sucks. But, my adoptive mom who's dad ditched her says it went away for her when she got me. So, maybe when my future bride has a kid the same will happen for me. Hoping. But, still phobia sucks.

 

[Ultimatehero]

Some bacteria is causing me to pee a lot and is ruining my life! Kinda hoping can see doc soon, get an increased prescription to battle whatever this is that's going on. Meds work, but they're only temporary. And for a guy who loves and needs to feel in control of his surroundings? Not being in control of my own body is HELL!

 

[Piper Maru]

I confess that it's disheartening to see the fan-fiction forum is dead.

 

[Anita18]

Some bacteria is causing me to pee a lot and is ruining my life! Kinda hoping can see doc soon, get an increased prescription to battle whatever this is that's going on. Meds work, but they're only temporary. And for a guy who loves and needs to feel in control of his surroundings? Not being in control of my own body is HELL!

Sorry to be so dismissive, but are you sure it isn't diabeetus?

Peeing a lot is a symptom that finally gets people tested for it.

 

[Ultimatehero]

Yeah, had to go to a urologist and everything. Forgot the name of it. But it's something very common among men ages 20-30. Especially bad news - it's a bacteria that's really hard to get rid of usually. Today I went through 9 hours of working holding my pee in as long as I could. I just hope I can get a stronger prescription. The medicine works initially then it dies out. Funny thing is, other than this I'm like Bruce Willis in 'Unbreakable' - I've never really had to have a sick day, luckiest one in my family - good separate gene pool or something.

I confess that it's disheartening to see the fan-fiction forum is dead.

Sad to see that everywhere. That's how I got my start. Writing fanfiction on here, you guys actually told me you wanted to see me work for MARVEL. And managing a virtual series on another site. Sad to say, I'm unsure if there are any virtual series anywhere anymore really. That was a very vital tool for me starting out. Getting feedback and praise is why I am where I am today - to some, those that hate me, I'll probably now seem like the monster to Shh's Dr. Frankenstein lol.

 

[Spider-Aziz]

I confess I think these Deathmatches are stupid as ****.

Can I nominate you as a participant next year?

 

[Boy Scout]

You may. But I don't have to like it.

 

[Spider-Aziz]

Don't worry, I won't
If I do nominate you, I will be sucked into that mess

 

[Godzilla2000]

I have to confess that I don't understand why with fan AMVs DBZ = Linkin Park. There are more DBZ videos I have watched that utilize Linkin Park as the musical material of choice.

 

[Anubis]

Probably think it fits because of all the unnecessary screaming.

 

[KevanG]

Is this better?

[YT]tf4au_76UZk[/YT]

 

[Anubis]

Actually....it is.

 

[Still Wynning]

I confess that I dislike girls who use plastic surgery on any part of their body, have breast implants, etc. It's such a turn-off for me. I mean, if they have such low self-esteem concerning their looks and think "improving" their appearance will get them more attention and make them feel better, they probably aren't worth the trouble anyway.

I understand that there are also some who do it just for kicks, but I still don't like it either way. It just looks fake and "plastic".

Natural all the way.

I have to confess that I don't understand why with fan AMVs DBZ = Linkin Park. There are more DBZ videos I have watched that utilize Linkin Park as the musical material of choice.

Here are some really good ones that don't use LP:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbNVgcDf3NU
[YT]BbNVgcDf3NU[/YT]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCJq8lMqHwk
[YT]kCJq8lMqHwk[/YT]

The maker of those AMV's also has some other really great ones on his page that you would probably enjoy.

 

[SpideyVille]

Well, like they say, mo' money, mo' problems.

Yeah, that would do it for you....

I got my first internship at a lab in the same building where my aunt worked. I didn't work with my aunt directly, and my supervisor only checked on me once a day, so he couldn't gossip on everything I was doing.

I did have to get dragged along on her shopping sprees every day after work, but that's neither here nor there.

But I also have the feeling that if you quit your job without moving out, you'll never hear the end of it. Do you have any friends who could give you a referral or even a place to crash? You need to cut ties, dudebro.

It just really annoys me how I feel like I cannot talk to anyone anymore. I purposely haven't seen or talked to my brother in almost a month, yet he still knows everything I'm doing and is still scolding me through my mother based on things that he hears from her and my sister-in-law. Like right now, he just threatened to cut my mom's pay from $200 every two weeks, to $100 for babysitting his kids after school, if I were to quit my job. And the sad part is that she offers no rebuttal to him, yet gets angry at me as soon as I come home. And stuff like that really pisses me off because it just shows how differently my mom treats the two of us, yet I keep getting looked at as the bad guy in every situation.

Like the stress of that alone has really made me grow even more colder towards my family and at this point, I feel like the only way to actually move forward and feel motivated to make big changes is to get away from them entirely.

I know you said you want to find a job first, but seriously stick it out until you find one even if you have to move. Because, jobs aren't exactly growing on trees. You'd be surprised how much of your save money (if you have any) will disappear within a few weeks.

Yeah, I've been trying to save some money and its been hard all of a sudden since I've sort of become accustomed to this new life of actually having money and wanting to spend it.

But on the other hand, I feel like its better that I try to work through this with an expiration date in mind because it sort of gives me a deadline to work towards. Its easy to say "I want to get a new job first before I leave" and then spend month of letting that comfort prevent you from actually taking a step forward. So while I know it would be dumb to just leave like that, I also feel like it adds a bit of motivation to find somewhere else to go before then.

I confess I have difficulty being touched. Apparently it's some bulls- that has to do with my biological parents or something ditching me. Kinda sucks. But, my adoptive mom who's dad ditched her says it went away for her when she got me. So, maybe when my future bride has a kid the same will happen for me. Hoping. But, still phobia sucks.

What is the problem exactly, if you don't mind my asking? I only ask because I sort of have the same problem. I really don't like my personal space being invaded and I rarely show affection, but I feel like that's something that changed as I grew older since I always used to hug my mom and stuff. But even with things like dancing or acting, its hard for me to build some comfort around others physically. I always say that I won't be like that with my future bride, but it still worries me because I know I need to make a move with a girl eventually, but I can't see myself doing it with my current reservations, even though I really want to.

 

[Ultimatehero]

Were you adopted or did you have a parent run away? I'd say in my case and my mom's case it's something very primal. For some it could come out of just personal boundary issues, while for others its due to psychological scarring. I guess it could also come from being physically or sexually abused, but even there I'd say it's a different off-set than abandonment.

ADDING: I also have extreme mistrust issues, push people away before they can push me away, self-sabotage myself in relationships with my peers, yet very manipulative with my supervisors and a dark horse (think Batman). Trying to work on it, but not easy. I think I have reactive attachment disorder, which is common among some adoptees:

- Avoid intimacy;
- Fear of closeness in relationships;
- Compulsive self-reliance;
- Passive alienation;
- Tend to be excessively critical of others;
- Consider themselves unlovable or too good for others;
- Truly believe in idealizing the love relationship;
- Show intense anger (I wouldn't say intense, but definitely a 'chip on my shoulder' - this was talked about in regards to Peter Parker before 'The Amazing Spider-Man' from cast and crew);
- Have a tendency to self-criticism;
- Have very low levels of perceived support (from peers, others I manipulate);
- Painfully sensitive to blame;
- Find relationships as a danger to their sense of control;
- Avoid personal relationships by inventing work reasons.
- Self destructive behaviors (alcoholic and drug addict potentially, reason I don't often drink)
- Argumentative - often over ridiculous things
- Severe need for control (treadmills scare the living hell out of me)
- Cannot tolerate limits
- Oppositional
- Inappropriately clingy
- Perceives self as victim
- Perceives others as unsafe, dangerous
- Not affectionate on parents' terms (if you love me, you'll leave me or want a take back)
- Superficially engaging and charming
- Unstable peer relationships
- Avoids physical contact
- Isolates himself
- Failure to smile (I think)
- Doesn't follow others with eyes

Most basically survival mechanisms. Feeling human, not having a brick wall is terrifying to me. I must feel in control, like I can leave and pack my bags at a second's notice, that I'm not controlled by my emotions that can be used against me - my own sustained being. Yeah, it sounds disastrous and well - it is - but, for me it's survival to make sure the past doesn't happen to me again (and ironically it's a self fulfilling prophecy - one that I have difficulty stopping). Ironically it's also this whole construct that has made me successful as well - same aura James Dean had (that brooding kid sitting in the corner who is brimming with raw energy).